I'm not literally little,
I'm just figuratively trying
To figure it out,
No doubt,
It's all about the timing
And finding
The whereabouts
Of each and every
Single thing
That tells me why
I'm talking loud
Or wear a crown
Even though I know
That everything
That makes me big
Comes back around
And takes me down
Another route,
Another peg,
Another step
From which I came
Because all I did
Was wander
To some land of fame
And I should just look
Where that's got me now,
Fading out
And shrinking.

Where did everyone hide?
Did I leave them while they hid?
Remembering lost memories hurts
I'd lost those memories for a reason
They hid
I left them behind
One comes back
Both leave me in tears

We all just happen to be specimens
Trapped in the same terrained terrarium
Living to learn how to die.

Yes
I loved you
But you never loved me too
Or at least you couldn't say
Because I wouldn't say the same
Scared for regrets or past mistakes
Cause in the end you wouldn't stay
And in the end we couldn't stay
The same
Anyway

Tears swell on the dawn,
Set to die before the angel arrives
Because to cry in her presence
Would be a sin in the eyes of a wife;
Dawn blinks, they cease,
And tomorrow, today will repeat.

You try to burn your bridges so the ridges don't exist
You try to make it smoother so departure's not at risk
You try to fake you're happy when your world is not in bliss
And the people here around you catch you staring at your wrist
You try to make it seem to me you think you won't be missed
And I wonder if you'd change your mind with one last broken kiss

I'm not lovesick... just ill
But I miss her the most
That the thought of her being alone
Makes me sicker with the despair
That flutters around the loose mind of a child
As he cannot find his mother
In the mall 300 miles from home;
Home,
A place where he would way rather be
With ensured safety and love
From the woman in his life
That would be there by his side;
But for now he walks alone,
Lovesick.

I wish I knew what to say
When you let your mind decay
Betray the things you know
Pick the way you'd never go alone
You could always just stay home
And let that time go on its own
Treat me as your home
Treat me as your own
And know that you're never alone

These words I write will wait to die
And fade out within next day's time

Keys trigger non-permanent feelings
Erasable, unlike the time you've spent
While I type the time I've been meaning to have
Sitting at a desk in a place where I'm drowning
Amidst the lines of media

By the time the next hour strikes
I'll be in the shower
Thinking of lyrics I can't remember to write

I'd wrinkle my toes on the morning of next,
Slightly pulling the sheets from your side,
So that you would wake up looking in my eyes
And we could continue the rest of our lives in this hex,
And the rest of last night would subside.

If dead flesh disintegrates
Then why am I still here
Why do I still wait
When no part of me
Ever worked in the first place

I dare you.

Get lost in the metaphor
We could consider a relationship;
The upside-down rainbow
Where words escape from,
Cold at the top,
Purple, blue, green,
Yet warmest near the base,
Energy that rises in tidal waves
To eventually find the hot rays of sun
And warm hands of my embrace.

I dare you.

Feel the strangling grip
We could consider a relationship;
The inside-out skull
Where words escaped from,
Cold at the top,
Frozen, dead, seen,
Yet reddest near the base,
Hysteria that rises in tidal waves
To eventually find the rot state of mind
And cold hands of your embrace.

I dared you.

She had already broken me before,
But I was filled with dread
When I heard she was with
Someone else

How are words so feeble
Yet they linger in your heart
For years after the accident occurred
When the voice has disappeared
And only crushed fragments remain.

There's nothing that I miss more
Than our one last broken kiss.

I feel so full of something
That will come and go
As though it never existed
But the air it displaces
Will soon evaporate
And soon I will suffocate
Without you
Although we never existed
Anyway

There does come a time
In which I question myself
If I should give up

Let your fight shine like light
Through your veil of despair
To reach the air of hope;
Inhale and exhale that same feeling
So you can learn how to recover
And you can learn to remove your mask
To become who you have kept hidden.

Come out, darling, it's been so long
Since I've seen your smile, it's lovely.
I will never forget you, leave you,
Or hurt you in any way and,
As long as you're here,
I will try to prove so.

Don't let your disguise
Become who you are,
Nothing more than an empty pit
Made from the shell of a mortar
That is too overwhelming;
Fight that feeling and maybe,
One day,
We can become strong friends.

The closer you are to the future
The closer you are to the end

Up to ten I hadn't known life
I hadn't known love
I hadn't breathed
And then the seas rolled in
As if I were just to learn to swim.

My parents split.
I wasn't able to explain what I felt
I didn't know what I felt
I had become numb to
The feelings I used to have.

A few years passed.
Depression isn't just for drama
It's from the stress I've endured
When someone else could have been in my place,
They wouldn't be able to feel.

I struggle to think life
Could be served on a lukewarm plate
With a side of joy
When my dish is raw; cold
And the only side is lies.

There are some times
I wish for independence;
To be able to fly
And leave at any time
And come back at record speed
As if time never mattered at all.

There's a word I've stored within me
That's never to be spoken for any reason
And to speak it is forbidden
And the punishment is grave

Goodbye

You were a shy world with
Glasses and a leather jacket
On our long, dark transit;

Your contacts had hearts attached,
Your eyes were natural
And your hair classical and tall;

You'd twiddle your thumbs on your Samsung
And ride Route A with the night,
There I sat, on the seat to the right
Looking at the little light
On our pitch black bus.

If you ever bothered to ask me,
I'd say the best way to achieve bliss
Is to match two souls with one more kiss

The largest star shines midday
While the others are its encore
The bigger man walks away
And the others are just followers.

You snipped the strings of my puppetry
Let me free and claimed apologies
But never sent a response,
Never angry, no more thoughts
Emotions left you in the frost
Heart went numb and soul was lost
And I tried to save you,
Warmed you up and up you got
And left the heat that helped your cause
Snipped his strings off with your claws
Destroyed him with your deadly maw
Taking bites, fangs lined your jaw
Leaving what you never saw
Dressed in red and wrapped with dread
And left, dead and raw,
But you never said why you'd be gone.

I still await your response.

I like to watch other people,
Be aware of their surroundings,
Never my own,
Always alone,
Wanting to be
More.

I'm sinking down
Gonna touch the ground
Realize there's no way out
I'm gonna drown

Words can't explain the awkward silence
Shed by two pairs of dying eyes.

As the time starts to fall,
Grain by grain,
I wonder if it is her fault
That she did not respond,
Or mine that I tried too hard;
Or not enough at all.

I'm sorry I couldn't help us,
Make us better, stronger, more together
But now I'm left to float from your embrace
Like a feather torn from an angel
After enough time.

It was among the sunset that our eyes met,
I had expected a cold blue or the green of leaves,
But instead, all that returned my glance
Was all the same as what I was used to,
A brown; not fierce nor bland nor bold,
But strange, in a sense, that it was so normal
Yet so compelling.

It has been twenty years
Since last those eyes met mine
And I often wonder
If the ghost in my shell
Might ever see
The sunset again;

Without your eyes to distract me.

When time will come to learn to fade
My life will drift upon each day
Although rugged the crust may seem
My soul will start to sink beneath
And if I tried to start to breathe
My shattered heart's attached to me
But now it's time for me to leave
So farewell now my mind must speak

Is religion truly a theory or a hypothesis?

Before I can find myself
Lost in your phrasing and prose,
I'm enchanted by a single symbol:
A rose stained with wine red
That guards the words inside,
Making you precious all the more;
Its design is so simplistic,
Yet so complex,
So you;
I'm sure your words hurt the same.

The glue that attempts
To mend my heart
Is artificial
But I guess
I'm no different
Anyway

I can not vouch for purity,
For innocence,
Since blood streaks tainted my cheek;
Bullet wound in my chest,
Shot as either a glare or stare
From thine eyes to the weak

I guess love is all it's set out to be,
It's just a bit more between you and me
In which we find ourselves
Trapped in this endless oddity,
Infinitely.

It's a blur;

Fifteen years of spiraled thoughts
Multiple strands of DNA
Some have been destroyed,
Others grew stronger
But the present is where the remnants lay.

Upon parchment there is no cursor to blink repetitively,
Taunting the author's words out of their skull
As though awaiting a response to the empty request
Of which one should reply most delicately,
Both of thought and of hands,
But hasty one may be;

Words expected like sand dripping through an hourglass
Or silk slipping through the merchant's fingers
Though strong they may hold their grasp;
And once the threads, the grains, run out
They may then begin to feel their mind;

Yet it seems that time has already
                                                              stopped.

I'm in love
And the love is in me
But if I let it go free
I shall truly be empty
So cautious I must be,

Or else love takes its fee
Makes a lock, keeps the key
Puts me down on one knee
Breaks me so I can't see
So cautious I must be.

Humans have innocence just to be tainted;
Once out of breath, we've already fainted
And the world painted with our display
Will eventually fade away
While we're wasted,
Formed like a molded piece of clay
Crumbling each day.

Illness kills many
It's taken my life as well
But I'm still breathing

There are some nights I remember you,
Never sure if I want to.
Perhaps if your memory would pass,
Life could elapse at a quicker pace;
Or perhaps that day was always meant to stay
In touch;
I suppose that's why it would matter so much,
But not as much as today,
Tonight,
When I would remember you.

There was a time when I loved you;
Watched your eyes stroll by,
Throwing smiles back at mine
Through these finite lines
Of words you could describe
Like a day that would define my life;
But I didn't respond in time.

Tonight's midnight lies in darkness.
Light's absence puts cities into chaos
Stringing absent minds with broken time
Just for sun to arise to cause a chaotic demise
Of the chaotic life of tonight's midnight.

Destroy my lungs
The oxygen that each person uses
Abuses each and every day
Heaving away
Breathing until either lung decays

Doubt is the demon
That drives my heart to the floor
To **** it by dawn
To make our love gone
To capture my pawn
And make my life yawn...