You used to look at me like I was
everything to you

now do you ever even look at me
at all?

-e.w.

One minute you tell me you love me
one minute you compliment me
and tell me you love everything about me
one minute you actually seem like you care

but the next
I'm left feeling like you could care less
if I'm here or not
the next you make me feel like I do nothing right
the next you act like I mean absolutely nothing to you

so I'm not sure if it's your ****** up idea of love
or maybe it could be mine

-e.w.

I thought I finally found someone
who fit me perfectly
and who would honestly be there
no matter what
but now I'm sitting here on my bathroom floor
for the 7th time this week
crying my eyes out
wanting it all to go away
wanting it all to end
because you told me you'd listen
you told me you'd love me
you told me you'd never leave

if all that's true,
where are you?

-e.w.

I keep crying
and I can't seem to stop

I thought I was doing better
I thought I was okay
I thought I had dug myself out of the never ending hole
but I got ****** back in

and this time you're not even trying to help

-e.w.

"Things change,
people change"
I've heard this over and over
but god,
I really didn't want this
or you
to change

-e.w.

People always say
a lot can change in 6 months
and I never really believed that until
your fascination with me slowly disappeared
and now I seem to be just another girl
but I'm the girl you can ****
so I guess I should feel special

but I feel like I'm getting ******
in more than just one way

-e.w.

you don't talk about her
as much as you used to
but

I still worry

I'm trying to not
think about it too much
but

I still worry

I try not to think that
you're going to leave
but

I still worry

I think about you with her
and I try not to get upset
because I trust you

I trust you
I trust you
I trust you

but god,
maybe I'm just trying to
convince myself that I do

-e.w.