The taste of regret
Fills my mouth
As your name and face
Pop into my head

Because I don't know why
I ever thought
You could be different
Or you could be
Good for me.

-e.w.

I breathe you in
Like a puff of stale
Cigarette smoke

You fill my lungs
With confusion
And a hint of
Regret

Because part of me wishes
I would never have
Met you

But part of you lingers,
Like the smell of cigarettes
On a chain smoker,
Stained all over my body

-e.w.

Goodbyes are so much easier
When it's the last one
You'll ever have to
Say.

-e.w.

I wish so badly
That I could take back
Everything
I've ever said to
Everybody
So I wouldn't have gotten close to
Anybody
Because then I wouldn't be a
Somebody
In their minds

Because then it might make
Swallowing these ******* pills
So much easier.

-e.w.

I sit here alone,
17 minutes until midnight,
Wondering why the hell
I was ever put in this ******* world
Because I know so many people
Who would love to see me
Just disappear

And trust me,
I wish I could.

-e.w.

I say I'm sorry
Like it's going out of
Style

Because I know
I've been a **** person,
Maybe even the ******* person
In the world

And I can't say just how
Sorry
I am

Because you'll never
understand.

-e.w.

I know I shouldn't miss you
I know it
With every fiber
In my dying body
Because I know
When you lie awake at night
Or,
In the middle of class
Or,
Even when everything else
Has crossed your mind,
And there's nothing more to think about
I know I will never cross your mind

And I know,
As sure as the blood
Runs through these veins,
You will never
Miss me

Because I was nothing
To you

-e.w.