Sometimes, I mistake hate for love.
Both feelings are so strong
And can grow and shrink the same.
That's why I thought I still loved you.
I'd loved you for years,
And I thought that any feelings I had
Would be love for you.
I was confused because I'd only ever loved you
So this new feeling I mistook for love.
It grew and shrank.
That's the reason why
I felt nothing when you last kissed me.
I'll come to terms with that someday.
For the past few months,
I thought what I felt was love,
And I thought I would have to forget about it,
But now I know I already did.
I've been living my life
Trying to forget that I love you,
But what I really need to do
Is learn how to live hating you.

I cannot stop my
Fantasizing about you
Killing me- slowly.

For the past few days
I have felt drunk without a drop of alcohol.
My mind is fuzzy
Which doesn't help my memory problems.
I'm dizzy
Which doesn't help my low blood pressure.
I have a lack of motivation
Which doesn't help my lack of motivation.

For the past few days
When I drink, I don't feel drunk.
My mind gets clear
Which is the complete opposite of when I drink.
I'm still dizzy
Which is completely normal for me.
I have a lack of motivation,
Per usual.

Please just say something.
Don't leave me hanging on by a thread.
I've always hated being tied to other's strings
So give an answer to all I've said.

I've waited so long to hear your words,
But you never give me a reply.
I can't keep up for my mind is blurred.
Even so, I'll never be fine.

I gave you so many chances.
Why won't you just give me one?
Down on my knees is my newest stance
Without closure I'll never be done.

I know you just want things to end
Believe me it's what I want too.
I hope that you'll just be a friend
And teach me how to get over you.

Your love is so much more than a burden.
A pardon.
An excuse to cut me down when you want.

And I'm done trying to piece it all together
For better
Because the worst comes along when I'm with you.

It isn't so easy to just let go
to let the memories, happiness, and love just wash away...
Maybe I don't want to let go
because I love the love and the happiness and the memories
because they were with you

we weren't healthy enough to continue
but when people are sick they don't just give up on life
they get better and keep going
I don't want to let you go
because you make me happy

I know we didn't work well together in a relationship
but we work well in keeping each other afloat
I may have lost you as my other half
but I'm not giving up my best friend

Maybe it's easy to let go
to let the pain, sorrow, and even the love drift away...
But maybe you shouldn't let go
because the love was strong and the memories were fond
because they were ours

we may not have been healthy
but you don't just abandon the sick
didn't you want to see us get better?
I don't want to let you go
You made me happy

I know you think we didn't work well together
but even you know that we kept each other alive
I have lost you as my other half
but I'm not giving up on feeling whole again.