I miss you, I love you and I am so sorry.

Ever since I was nine I have been unsure of where to call home.
You see my parents had divorced and moved to live apart.
Ever since I was nine I feel guilt calling the others house home when in the presence of the other parent.
I have heard the phrase “Home is where the heart is”
and if this is true that I and my shattered, blackening heart
are both royally and monumentally ******.

I knew this day was coming
since the day you told me
that the only way I could help you
is through the single bullet
of a gun

Daddy don't leave me
I just got you back
I know you've been in pain for years
but to tell you a secret so have I
I know what DNR is
you have no need to explain
I knew this day was coming
just not this day and age
i'm sorry for your pain
I know you just want out
but daddy please don't leave me yet
I only just got you back