poetry is hard to write
i think think think
the whole night
until it comes to me
in my brain
then i know
one day
i will have fame

Perhaps I do not help myself
by writing of you
and how you tore at the tendons
of my heart

But sometimes
it makes things seem a bit more real
even if it does hurt
and people tell me to forget him

But it is very difficult to forget someone
when they speak to you
in your dreams

I want to see you everyday
I want to be with you everyday
I want to eat with you everyday
I want to smile with you everyday
I want to hold your hand everyday
I want to kiss you everyday
I want to sleep with you every night
I want to cuddle you every night

If I don't see you, I'd rather not see
If I'm not with you, I'd rather not show up to school everyday
If I can't eat with you, I wouldn't eat a single bite
If I can't smile with you, there's no reason to smile
If I can't hold your hand, my hands would be numb
If I can't kiss you, my mouth has no purpose
If I can't sleep with you, I would stay awake every night
If I can't cuddle with you, I'd rather be alone on this bed

I always wanted to hear the words "I love you."
I always wanted to hear the words "I care about you."
I always wanted to hear the words "I want you to stay."
I always wanted to hear the words "It's going to be okay."

I wish that one day, you would see
Why I always try to be with you, no matter what the problem was
I would do anything for you
I hope you would do the same for me

But I fear I am too selfish

She rocks in combination lock
Her mind knocked out of gear
And nothing ever touches her
Because no one gets that near.

Her thoughts are in there,somewhere deep within the sleeping of her fortress keep,and only she, has the coded key.

Sometimes
I get scared
that maybe
I don't like
the things that I like.

That my yearning
to be liked
has caused me
to lie to
myself.

The scary part is
I don't know
if I'm right or wrong.

shes proud because
maybe he'll notice her
too.