I don't want to watch you grow old --
bones frail,
busted lip,
pale nose
another crypt to fill
with your body;
yours.

I don't want to watch you grow old --
legs crumbling,
youth running astray,
me waiting
for that day...

I don't want to watch you grow old --
Let me go first!
I beg,
I toss and turn..
And now,
I am at a loss
for words.

Love cannot swim.
I know this because I am drowning,
breath shallow, voice hollow
blackness, blackness.

My heart is an anchor in the sea that is you,
waves crashing to the beat of your voice.
You are in the water, murky blue -

green in the colours of our memories,
in the sea foam forming bubbles
pops; echo your laughter,
your songs, your warmth.

Years, years,
they say time heals all wounds.
Appendages fail; cut rose
petal fall, blood stained call

In you, the sea only grows deeper;
heart suffocating in wounds unhealed,
stories untold.

(A.H.Z)

We got close.
I liked you.

I told you my story.
I liked you more.

You told me your story.
I loved you.

You got a girlfriend.
You loved her.

I became more depressed.
I smiled for you.

You made me promise.
I promised.

You're just another person I will promise to get better for.
But that really just means that I'll hide it better next time.

I never saw a wild thing
sorry for itself.
A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough
without ever having felt sorry for itself.

I want you to take me in
In that softsweet way of a lover
                                                                     I love your skin like I love the infinity of beauty of the world
You're a treasure to me and you do what
So few can, you make me SMILE
What more could I ever want and yet
You can't let Her go.
I know she was your forever but
You saw me.
                                                                                                                                                  Forever can end.
My forever is gone
Betrayed by a kiss I didn't even receive
And jealousy
And I had it so much better than you do now.
I ache for missing what I no longer love
BUT SHE HURTS YOU
And She isn't even yours.
                                                                            Don't ever let somebody who doesn't love you hurt you.

As I lay there thinking about what could never be, I realized it wasn't meant to be, As I lay there dreaming about her soft skin, beautiful lips and brown eyes hair so long it touches her thighs, As I lay there thinking about how beautiful she was I realized I was blind to her personality, As I lay there I visualize the barbaric behavior she portrayed how beastly she behaved, As I lay there i comprehended that it was her very essence to be crude than I understood, As I laid there thinking about what could never be I realized there was a brutal beast deep in her beauty.