standing at the shore
with the ocean waves
clarity comes and moves away
sometimes
smaller, calmer
washing the mud between my toes
some days
rouge
destroying my sand castles of contentment
leaving me soaked up in more muddle
and on rare days, it brings me shiny pebbles and sea shells, clear enough that I can see my face
pulled and pushed by the moon
that is my heart
new and full at times
I feel it with the spring tides
I try
to hold on
but like the sand on the shore
clarity slips through my fingers
no matter how hard i try and cling on to it
maybe that's the beauty of it
that it demands to be redefined everytime

in this age of instant everything
noodles, coffee and gratification
a generation who has mastered
isolation
practicing social distancing on social media since forever
always on the run
catching trains
rarely catching any breath
you think how many would have prayed for some time for themselves
if only i had time, i'd do this, that and what not
now the world is falling apart
just to leave you with all the time you want

kiss me
lick my lips
like a popsicle
i'll paint your tongue
turn it into whatever color you want

kiss me
bite my neck
sink your teeth into my skin
leave sweet bruises
as something for me to remember you in the morning

kiss me
grab my waist
pull me, pull my hair, maybe
push me
and hold me
against you or anything
who cares

hurt me
but love me, well you can try
and tell me
you will atleast, remember my name

i was lost,
trying to find myself
somewhere in middle,
i found you
drenched and soaked in my self loathe
you were warm
i found you
you had me
but i lost you
but i have you
but then i dont
with a blink of an eye it's real
with a sigh of a breath, you are gone
like a mirage in the dessert
i saw you
i found you
i had you
but i didnt

distance between us
so close
yet we are light years apart
with galaxies between you and i
how did we get here you wonder?
what did you expect, my love?
how far could we go
with melancholy as our common ground
we had gone through this hadn't we
how you'd remember me
as the one who tried,
your sweet leaf
this monalisa smile,does it still haunt you?
tell me
will you be waiting for me on the other side?
for i wish to meet you
some other time
when i won't be just a bridge to your past
and you would learn to live with yourself
in some other land
where the eagles don't flutter
and where there will be no peacocks dancing in the rain
we can call it our heaven
where the rain brings solace and is less of a burden
but till then
I hope you write about me some
And when you do
I hope it will not be all bitter
and till then
I'll be here in this purgatory of intersection
reminiscing you through our songs

one of those days when
i am down and low
sinking into the earth beneath me
the heavy on my heart
drowning me
and you are high above
flying like kite
floating on the clouds
out of your senses, letting loose of your guards
i hope we find each other somewhere in between