Hush, lullay.

Your treasures all

Encrust with rust,

Your trinket pleasures fall

        To dust.



Beneath the sapphire arch,

Upon the grassy floor,

Is nothing more

        To hold,

And play is over-old.

Your eyes

        In sleepy fever gleam,

Their lids droop

        To their dream.

You wander late alone,

The flesh frets on the bone,

Your love fails in your breast,

Here is the pillow.

Rest.

Eyes full of the unknown
We slowly came to know
Of each other, nervous but excited

Feeling around in the dark what was to become so familiar
Months past in your arms
Years next to your lips
Arguments set in, thunder storms

We fought to make up and made up to fight
There was life in it still
Two strong characters of will

Impassioned lust laid across covers of trust
My beautiful vision of you and I
Too perfect you did decry

Infected by resentment, my heart shrank
You were to endure words so utterly fraught with cold
As though fashioned in the North Pole

Yet your love remained bound tightly to me
We would rise high above common ground
Soaring amongst the clouds, our love not to be touched
Until crashing down we fell into boundless hell

Picking at faults we should have forgiven
Too long they haunted our position
“You need to change” we both declared

Attempts were made in vein
So simple it all seems now
To have simply kissed your furrowed brow
Taken your hand and reassured you of my love
Apologised for any wrong made in haste

Sadly it was too late; you took matters into your own hands
Feeling away from me into foreign lands
To where I could not reach you
I went mad with pain of missing you

My utmost did I try to show my change
The man I had renounced stood no longer in me
I only wished for your return
To rekindle the fire that had died in my heart
I would rise born again a better man
With you to guide my unsteady hand

The fire remains quelled ever since you came back
To see and feel for me so differently
Our bond lay broken, dashed aside
Relinquished our tie, let loose against the tide

I now struggle out at sea, wave’s crash over me
Waiting, hoping for you to rescue me
It never came
Memories seemingly held you back
Of torment, tears rolled by

So your love drowned
Letting it go gladly, almost a relief
I now sit alone
Wet and full of regret, on a vast sandy beach.

Sometimes I dream, as I look in the mirror at my reflection
That the outside of me, could reflect the inner me, without subjection
to these pre-set minds, the ones who hide like swine, behind the maze of vines
in the jungle, which we call our normal human minds.
Is it really normal to judge not the mind, but the outside?

What would it be like, a different esteem, A different team?
Sometimes I dream. But for now... I wonder what this misery means.
What's it like, to be so great, and so free?
Who would see me, or even, just let me be seen?
What it means to me, to see, and let others be seen
Is that I think of me, who just wishes, that he could be seen
not as mean, or lean, or a fighting machine,
But as someone to love, 'cause for me, that love's the only dream

It awakens when my mind is altered
drunk and completely blacked out
the monster that cant be me

stress builds and things go without being said
so nobody know because its all in my head
just a few shots bring out the evil that cant be me

I hold it inside until I drive myself crazy
then nobody sees it coming
the monster is raging

I has to be me because I am to blame
Though I wouldn't do that if the beast were tame
I will destroy it now before it destroys me

Its mean and hateful and has no mercy
this terrible demon, by which I am ****** it vain
Someone always gets hurt, though I feel the worst

The beast inside of me is driven by pain
it dwells within me and I don't know its name
all I know is it cant be me, this horrible thing

It will destroy me if I don't have control
I will lose everything, my family and home
the one that I love will finally give up

I will become what I have never wanted to be
this burden I will conquer, the beast inside of me..

time no time reveals
     in neverland we grow 
          feeling tasting loving
          grasping dreaming falling
       to surrender in our turn    
     through stargates  
  death and birth

I heard a cry in the night,
A thousand miles it came,
Sharp as a flash of light,
My name, my name!

It was your voice I heard,
You waked and loved me so—
I send you back this word,
I know, I know!