angry . I'm angry .
just tell me how you feel
how am I supposed to figure out what's not real
these feelings inside
they **** me and it hurts.
I just want to figure out
what me and this relationship are worth
so maybe we could try
so maybe it could last
only if we keeps what's in the past in the past.

I like to think i mean something.
That the words I say speak to people.
that the way I do things, people respect.
but maybe, maybe, I'm not ?
the words I say are truthful.
but Advice I give is well-thought.
but maybe, maybe, that's not what they want.
"Tell her a lie. Tell her a lie" they said.
maybe she'll forgive you with time.
I'd rather have her broken in my arms, than happy and underestimated.
the world is not a place where wishes come true if you dream.
They come true if you believe, and make it work.
Wow.
"Tell her a lie. Tell her a lie" They said.
I'd rather have her crying in my arms than me crying at her grave.
If I died today, would you be satisfied with our last conversation ?
think about it.

Look me in my eyes.
Don't demand it, be kind.
Look down at my lips and back.

slowly, just slowly. Ever so slowly.
like there's no turning back.

Grab my arms tight.
Don't let me go.

lean towards me,
only go slow.

The faster you go, the faster it ends.
take it slow, and we'll begin.

Slower ... then faster.. make it last
best kiss I've ever had.

If a heart like yours
Can love a heart like mine,
than a heartbreaking Storm
won't waste our time.
As the many things I know,
our world is broken by the line.
so maybe we won't have to cry
you already tried.
That one got us no where
but closer to life.

Inside? She's a mess.
I mean she looks to you,
but what the heck .
I see through her, it's the truth.
Look at her shoulders...
how they're slouched ever so slightly
what a wreck..
that poor girl is trying too hard.
what do you do ?
Ask if she's okay, it might help..
but that's a shame
She'll clearly shut you out
The same lie,
makes her body shake and tremble,
But it's nothing compared to the memories she remembers.

she said she'd never hurt herself.
she said she'd never let go.
she said she wouldn't fall into the ways that she tried to stop the most.
she said she'd never tell a lie
she said she wouldn't dare.
push away the ones she loves the most, hurry up, they're right there.

"She said sorry too often.
She apologized for apologizing too much.
She said sorry like it was a greeting.
She apologized for everything that goes wrong,
because she labeled herself as a disaster.
She was sorry for not being good enough,
because no one ever told her she was good enough.
No one ever told her that she was something more than
the mess inside her head and the tsunami inside her heart.
So all she learned was to apologize for every single breath she took."

You made a fool of me.
I thought that I was loved.
you told me I was just a girl,
out of all above.

You made my nightmares true.
we were just a lie.
I was just a cover-up,
for the girl that just walked by.

you told me the truth.
you were honest, can't you see ?
this relationship was one sided,
it was only me.

Today was the worst day ever, again.
And don't try to persuade me that
There's something good in everyday
because, when you look closer,
this world is a pretty evil place
even if
God shines through every now&then;
Satisfaction and happiness don't last
It's a lie that
it's all in the mind and heart.
because
true happiness can be obtained
when things around you are good
it's not true that good things are real
I'm sure you can agree that
Reality
creates
anger
it's out of my control
You'll never, ever, hear me say
Today was a good day.


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