I went to a wedding today
And as I went, I recalled
The vows you and I made
Prematurely
The names of our kids
Where we would live
Stay at home parents
Caring for the children
Making our lives together

I continue to cry
And wait
As I kept my vow
Still here
Waiting for a sign
To return back to our lives

No response

no man should have to bury his child
but this has been my share
the tears i shed run bitter and wild
its a heavy burden to bear

his body feels so light in my arms
his skin is pale as snow
yet his weight feels heavy in my heart
as my sadness continues to grow

being scared of your past

and running from it,

refusing any confrontation with the thing that does you harm

makes you a coward unable to cope with your life

hey man

just came by to tell you that
everything that you hate
everything that you dislike
all the bad memories and evil people
fade away
you dont have to beat yourself up over it
or relive sad events
it wont solve anything

you're alive, aren't you?
remember that
for me
and for you

needed something to say before I go
and pass away for a few hours and ressurect the lover again

this ain't the time
to be slain by the tongued daggers from former friends
from the impressionable and the gullible
run, friend
to the warm nation I govern
where all is stable
and I fight on the daily
and maybe then you'll
see

we're hiding here in the abyss
and the world, is in flames

two star-crossed lovers reaching out
to the Beast, With Many Names

I am the one who preys on weak
I offer everything they seek
And I am the one who comes, richly endowed
Harvesting fields of crops, which others have plowed

i've left the memories of our youth behind

i dont know what she hopes to find

in the shadows, she waits for me

for a dream that cannot be

-

i am the strongest

i followed your white footprints, the enlarged distance between us

my white, frozen breath will surely melt without reaching you

you stared into the distance, and overlooked me, beyond my dreams

quiet marching for the present

future feelings forever frozen

ending ancient auras evil

continue on to present wedding

each of us walking forward

one of us for the other

its only now that i've reclaimed the life I used to live, now with one more

but wait! before you come to implore that your love (which I now live for) has dropped like my ****/death score away from this constant bore of a person i am, then please open your door and hear the lore of all the journeys I had before I met the girl whom lets me snore and pour my store of knowledge on her on my own time and loves me all the same for it

every night I say I love you
whether you hear my message or not
most of the time, I don't type it

sun behind the glass and a thorny seat
violent crimes and violet flowers
strangers you know and friends you dont
five hour talks
an old black sock
rainbow hair
risotto and grease
another day gone

thought things would be different this time
that it all started to make sense
that the future had revealed itself

but it didnt

---

kendrick, 81's, pride, and ten hours
but really its been seventy two

a mother and her child
a man and his dog
two longtime friends
out drinking at the hole in the wall
four classmates
cramming for exams together

does my love
have to
have a
million dollar
budget
and a team of
writers
or does it
have to
be a
mutual
agreement

does it come from a shared interest
does it come from unequal concerns

why can my love be a cats head in my hand
why can my love be a fish breaking the lake's surface
why cant it just be left alone and accepted

a tide that always comes in?
a sun that always rises?

coming forth
at 3:30
AM

because its not you messaging me