eating all my contacts
all the people i talked to

never was much of a romantic

i could never take the intimacy

and i know i did damage

cause the look in your eyes is killing me

i guess you are at an advantage

cause you can blame me for everything

and i don't know how i'mma manage

if one day you just up and leave

and I always find, yeah, I always find something wrong
you been putting up with my **** just way too long
i'm so gifted at finding what I don't like the most
so I think it's time for us to have a toast

let's have a toast for the *******
let's have a toast for the *******
let's have a toast for the scumbags
every one of them that I know
let's have a toast for the ****-offs
that'll never take work off

baby, I got a plan
run away fast as you can

i'm falling back into hell

a strong back
bearing all the stress
of the past and a future
built for myself
brick and mortar
arms to lift
mechanical nature
something simple would be nice
complex doesnt work

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MNq9LfBgKlo

being scared of your past

and running from it,

refusing any confrontation with the thing that does you harm

makes you a coward unable to cope with your life