I didn't say no to hurt you.
I said no to stop hurting me.  
Didn't you see all the things I did for you...
Were causing me pain? Causing me grief?
Did you know that at 1am when you were in bed...
I was plotting how to clean my own blood as I saw red?
Oh, and I said no because for every time you made me cry...
There's a scar that reminds me why.
And my personal favorite was when,
You broke me in half and I picked up the pieces... Again.
I could never hurt you.
Nope. Never.
That's why I left babe, honey, sugar...
I left because I know how it feels to be broken.
I left because I know how it feels to love someone with all the broken pieces of your heart.
I left because I can potentially hurt you...
I left because hurting you doesn't seem so bad.

I've been down lately.
Can't find a way out lately.
I've been lost lately.
Loosing it all lately.
I've been crying lately.
Because I'm too mad lately.
I'm choking lately.
Cause of my deep hole lately.
I've been hard to reach lately.
I've been hard to teach lately.
The reality is lately...
Lately I've been sad.

Its all good when no one knows.
Its all good when it doesn't show.
Its all good when the tears you cry...
Are covered up with mindless sighs.
'I'm fine'
'I'm okay'
These are the lies we tend to say.
People see you happy.
But is that how you feel?
They say it will pass...
But for now its real.
Cause the things in your head
Stay there instead.
Its the thoughts.... The thoughts that ****.
Yet we still smile with all our will.
So next time you see someone smile...
It would be worth your while
To see if they're really okay.
You see a smile can go both ways.
Sometimes a smile....
A smile is as good...
As the weakest cry for help.

You don't know me.
You wouldn't even if you tried.
You don't know me.
You haven't seen the tears I've cried.
I've been so strong...
For so long.
I just want to give up now.
Not even my loved ones know this secret.
But I'll tell you just this once...
Sometimes its not the heartbreak that burns.
Sometimes its not the person who hurt you.
Sometimes its not the memories you left behind.
Sometimes...
Its when your drowning in the deep
Begging for help
Pleading for release
Then no one notices.
Not even the ones who say
'I love you'
But the funny thing is...
I bet now that you know.
Things will be the same.
I'll walk around with a heavy heart and bear the pain.
So I was right.
You don't know me.
Even if you tried.

Isn't it bitter sweet...
All our memories?
The way I loved you but it wasn't enough.
The way you hurt me and all for fun?

Wasn't it bitter sweet
On the cold December day when I told you I cut...
To take your pain away.
But out of my memories my favorite was when...
You broke my heart in two because you knew I needed you.

Oh and wasn't it bitter sweet
When I finally said its enough?
When I finally had to leave...
Because my heart was broken too rough.
You pulled and pleaded...
Told me to come back...
But when I didn't...
You used it against me.
Wasn't my shattered heart enough?

To put it plainly...
Our whole relationship was bitter sweet.
But the last time you made a wound...
It cut far too deep.