Nobody was ever there for me when I broke down, but the razor was always in reach. I'm sorry.
Nobody ever sat there and listened to my problems, but the alcohol helped me drown them.
Nobody ever stayed up with me when I was having panic attacks, but the pills helped lull me to sleep, albeit a restless one.
I know that I'll need to let all of that go but they are always there for me in my times of need

But, truthfully, I think the only reason they don't abandon me like everyone else is because they're inanimate.

I had a dream about you last night—
You let me bury my face in your chest as I cried
We stood there and you wrapped your arms around me
As if this all came naturally.
I told you to let me go; I didn't want you seeing me a perfect mess
But you said you don't like seeing me upset
I had a dream about you last night.
Do you even care?

Kiss me
Keep it short and sweet
Because I don't want to miss it too much
After you leave
Hug me
Keep it simple, but keep me warm
Because that's the feeling I'll remember
After you've walked out the door
Touch me
Touch my cheeks, run your hand through my hair
So I can remember what it was like to have your hands there
Tell me you love me
Just three simple words;
Say them softly
But make sure that I heard

Night and day bleed into one another
No longer can I differentiate between one or the other

They both comprise the nightmares that keep me awake all night
Biting my nails and biding my time

My eyes are open. Do they ever close?
What day is it? Does anyone know?

I let you slip through my fingers
Without thinking about the consequences
Here I am, missing you already
While someone else gets to call you baby and taste the words at the tip of your tongue
Is it too late to tell you that I'm sorry?
Is it too late to show I care about us?
I pushed you away but you had to have known how I felt about you
You had to have known that the care I held for you in me
Was so overwhelming that I just didn't know how to put it into words--so I never tried to.
But I did love you. I still love you
And I'm sorry that I feared your rejection so much that I never told you until we were through

Please be mine
Because something as vast as the sky
Could not hold my love for you

Please say you care
Because you know that in rough times, I'll be there
And I will comfort you

Please don't make me cry
I'm not sure why,
But I still value your words

Please don't break my heart
Once before, you ripped it apart
And it still hurts

The urge is back,
And I don’t know how to control it.
I want to give in
If only for a moment
To feel that sweet pain again
Then I’ll tell myself that this time, it’s the end
And I’ll say the same thing next time,
And when it happens again

When I'm screaming your name over and over, artfully disguise my screams of pleasure as careful intonations of my love for you.

When you look at me, I don't mind if you picture the rest of our lives together. Just promise me that you'll make it detailed and fill our future with promises you can keep.

When we talk to each other, your words touch my heart the way the sun rises, bathing the sky in beauty.

I fell in love with you and I don't want you to break my heart, I want you to have it. It's yours now. I am yours now.

I don't like to get personal, it always ends badly
Sadly, no one knows my secrets
I keep them well and I'll never tell them
Not even my best friends know who I am anymore
Who was I to begin with?

Yes, I love you,
But it's useless,
Kinda like me.

I don't want to live with these feelings anymore
I'd rather be dead than let these emotions eat me away to the core
I know I don't want to live, but I don't know if I'm sure.
Maybe I'll stick around a while...just a few days more.