I have something to say
I don't know if I'm okay
All I know is that I tried today
I just want to go out and play

I'm floating in a river
So cold I'm starting to shiver
Drowning down in the swell
Feels like I'm getting pulled to hell

Never know what's going on
All I know is soon it'll be gone
Yelling quietly to those around
Maybe I don't want to be found

Nobody heard me scream today
I'm not sure if I'll be okay
I don't know if I tried today
All I want is it to go away

It's easier to be angry
I don't need to try
I feel the fire all around me
Burning through everything

The world is a wasteland
The water rises
The wind roars
The air is cold

Trees are falling
Buildings crumble
Everything falls apart
Unitl nothing is left

Remembering what everything was
Watching as it dies
Seeing the nightmare
Waiting to be taken

Digging a grave forever
Making a bed to lie in
To never wake up
And never pull myself out

Closing my eyes to see the world
Seeing the storms over it
Watching it all burn away
The oceans spilling from my head

There is no solace
It all burns away
Getting hotter every second
Eating away at my brain

The heart decaying
My legs get weaker
Feeling everything until it's gone
The air is numbing

Breaking walls that hide nothing
Burning the bridges of the future
Slamming my head to stop the noise
The silent screams never end

I need a hand to pull me out
But I don't want to go
Nothing good can come from it
The path has been scrubbed away

There is nothing left to lose
But I still want to keep it
Staying in the pit of darkness
An endless hole I've fallen into

I feel like I'm diseased
Poisoned without a cure
Seeing a light that isn't there
There is no point chasing it

I've given myself up
I've let go of everything
There's nothing left
No reason to move

At night when you walk in the park
Looking around at the shadows and dark
Feeling a chill run down your spine
Knowing soon all will be fine

The look in your eyes is one that can ****
One of fun and of thrill
Endless joy and excitement awaits
Bringing you into your certain fate

Looking around at shadows and dark
Walking at night only for a lark
Finding your time has come at last
It's now time to forget the past

I'm just a clone in this reality
An empty vessel on the sea
Darkness coming from the light
It never does say very bright

My heart beating like a drum
The faceless enemy making me numb
Feeding the fire that's inside
I guess I can say that I've tried

The haunting walls all around me
Years later and I'm still not free
Free to leave this space for good
All I can do is pull up this hood

Living in a hollow shell
How long, only time will tell
Melting away this wax cocoon
Smiling a hindrance rather than boon

This is not what I need
All I want is to be freed
I am destined to fall
Just to walk down a dark, empty hall

I promise that I will fail
To the dark world I will hail
I will continue try and try
Although I'm not quite sure why

From a young child to a hollow man
I've done all it is that I can
I welcome to my life all the danger
It is a part of me and is no stranger

I'll pay my toll at the gate
I may as well accept this fate
Until I find there's no way through
I'm just waiting in an endless queue

As I press on the fog is thicker,
I can't see as it's getting denser.
Where I will end up i don't know,
but I'm starting to feel tenser.

As the mist settles down and I can see,
I just can't help but wonder if I'm free.
That's all I've ever wanted,
But all I get is to be haunted.

I'm getting scared for what might take place,
As I'm trapped in this tiny hellish space.
I want to venture and find a new life,
So I can be set free from all this strife.

The clouds form into a storm,
Like the way everything takes a new form.
It's very ominous in this sky,
You could even say one could cry.

The thunder strikes and let's a loud roar,
But what is the strike really meant for?
The thunder is loud and makes it hard to hear,
And you'll wonder what you're doing here.

In the end after all the damage is done,
You start to think that storm has just won.
The storm has laid heavy burdens inside,
And you wonder if you may have died.

You know you need a new beginning,
But you never wanted such a terrible ending.
Why did all of this have to go on,
Maybe it was to make you be gone.

It may not ever be fair,
But what should be will never be there.
Who will make sure you're alright,
And make sure you don't take you're final flight?

You want to go and see that great Man,
But you wonder if you ever can.
But that is quite alright,
So don't worry about you're plight.

A second chance may await you very soon,
And you'll always be looking at the same moon.
As bad as it had seemed to be,
The storm really had set you free.

Say goodbye to this cruel place,
For maybe you'll beat it in the end of the race.
Don't turn around just keep going on,
Because one day it might just be gone.

Until the next time this is your last farewell,
Say goodbye as you leave this hell.

It is so easy to get angry these days
Especially when my mind is in a haze
I don't wish to be like this
I know that there is something amiss

I enjoy most aspects of my life
Although I am nearing my trife
Hardships come and hardships go
They always say you reap what you sow

I am lazy and full of shame
I really am only to blame
My actions and words are often dumb
So I may as well just **** my thumb

I have no dreams or aspirations
I only desire a long vacation
To move to a place far far away
Where I may look at the trees every day

Never to worry about money or fame
I would extinguish this screaming flame
My life now begins with me
I only wish that I could flee

Reality is getting hard to bear
I'm not sure what is really there
What I want isn't here
When I open my eyes my nightmares appear

When I close my eyes you're there
I can't help but think it isn't fair
I miss having you to hold
I want you with me even when I'm old

I guess you could say I'm scared
There's never been someone like you who cared
You've done so much for me
And I still don't feel free

I feel so lonely here but I'm not alone
I miss being with you when the stars shone
Everything I do goes back to you
I don't know what else I can do

I don't want to be older
The winters have been colder
If we get separated for years apart
Please don't forget about my part

Make a move
  There is no God
    Can I leave this place?
      Erase my memory from here.

I could leave someday
  Maybe even today
    Go into the eternal light
      Never return from the flight

Floating into the darkness
  Up and down , everywhere around
    So numb, am I alive
      Am I going away or moving in?

                          Am I still alive?



Do you think I am?



                                                 Do I want to be?



Why should I be?



Will I ever get a chance?
  Where do I go?
    Should I chase it?
      Is any of it worth it?

I want to leave
  I need peace
    I'm going to search for it
      I'm going away

I'll be there
Do you actually care?
Why should you though?
I'll just rot away slow.

Without the real view,
How do I know if it's all true?
Now let it all out.
Get out and find what it's about.

Why am I even here?
Can't I just leave you here?
I don't deserve to be here.
I can't stand always being in fear.

I want to leave this place.
I want to go away into space.
I hate living in this fear.
I want to give up and leave you here.

I wonder why I feel the things I do.
But yet I know exactly why I do.
I cannot help but to fight myself.
It's the only way I can feel alive.

Sometimes I feel like I am way up on a cloud.
Other times I feel like I am dissolving in a thick shroud.
I just cannot stop the battle inside of me.
It almost seems important to me.

But why would I need such a thing?
It is so aggravating to feel this way.
My mind cannot help but to go astray.
It is not fun for me that's for sure,

But I just cannot seem to bring my heart back to shore.

To happen without being,
To be without seeing,
To breathe without you knowing,
What I've done.

Why do I do it?
Why should I do it?
The answers I don't find,
As I'm up so late at night.

I feel so different.
This isn't the real me.
We know why,
But they sure do not.

It is such a bliss.
It is such a wonder.
Will it ever change?
Will I always be the same?

Why do I do it?
Why do I prove it?
I should just move it.
It doesn't belong here.

***** this weird way.
The answers are astray.
I don't know where they are,
But here is way too far.

The way the stars shine bright.
They are mostly all dead stars.
The light shining after all these years.
Still shining for everyone to see.

I can not help but to wonder,
Will my light stay shining when I am gone?
Will people still talk about me for many years?
I hope they see the good that I see in the stars.

Knowing an apology is useless,
is the worst feeling ever.

To be free from the strife.
Only one thing left to find.
The essence that comes from the burdened space inside.
The glow of the light that soon dulls do a flicker.

The burden of facing the darkness with no light.
It is so tiring to wander around with no light.
Going nowhere in the right direction.
Having nowhere to go.

Knowing what is to come next is the easy part.
Thinking about what has already happened is the hardest thing of all.
Setting aside the burden the truth bestows upon hate.
The raging inside knowing it is still alive.

Floating around in the darkness.
Staying in the darkness for all of eternity.
Staying alive in the world with nothing left to do.
To find the light and move on to somewhere else.

Finding the freedom and clenching on to it.
Never letting it go.
That is the only thing needed.
"The price of freedom is steep."

There is no one else that sticks around like you.
No one knows how to tackle my mind like you do.
It is crazy how well you know me.
If I could only have one friend you would be my only.

I do not know how I gain the courage to open up.
I do not even think about it with other people.
I get a strange feeling of strength around you.
You always help me when I get so blue.

To repay you would be almost unheard of.
I have no clue where to begin.
You give me a sense of security.
One where I know you will not let me stay in obscurity.

The concerned look on your face when I tell you things,
The way you get so empathetic,
It makes me feel like you really care.
You bring me up like I am walking on air.

I have no more respect for anyone else.
You will always be the top of my list.
I think about you whenever I feel like I might lose it.
I remember how you would not let there be another slit.

You do what you have to to make me speak.
You give me a reason to move one.
I wish I could tell you how you bring me to my knees.
And how you see what no one else sees.

I have a great feeling of existence when I am alone.
It's as if I can finally come alive.
I can go on for so long on my own.
I love the feeling when I can do what I want.

I love the feeling of being alone.
People tell me I am quiet while in a group.
Or maybe they think I can just be shy.
The truth is that I hate groups.

The blissful feeling of soaking in the air.
No one there to take your mind off of what you want.
There is no limit to the time you have.
You have your own agenda.

People think it's sad to want to be alone.
They are just wrong in judging that way.
Maybe I think it's sad to rely on others to have fun.
I love the feeling of being alone.

I love being alone.
It is wonderful.
To be alone is great,
but to be lonely is my nightmare.

There is something I need to say.
I always wonder when if today is the day.
I tell myself it will be.
By the end I just decided to flee.

I don't know if it's because I'm scared,
Maybe I'm not prepared.
I shouldn't worry.
But I just leave in a hurry.

All I ever end up doing is running away.
I hate that it ends that way.
It's just the waste of space in my head.
It prevents me from going to bed.

I don't know if you know it or not,
But you're the reason I am and you're all I've got.
It creates madness inside of my brain.
You've seen me go insane.

Fighting off all that pain is hard and it comes back.
You've made me strong and have kept me on track.
You don't know what I need to say.
I can't lose you during my fray.

You've done more for me than I could ever repay.
I'll be leaving soon and going away.
You know I'm scared and I need you.
So when I'm gone what could I do?

You need to know something critical.
I've been here a while and have become cynical.
I may seem a lot different than a year ago.
I know I am but I still have a long way to go.

You'll help me through most of my fights.
The rest I'll keep inside and worry at night.
These things creep up on me and make me fret.
Not telling you is something I'll always regret.

You're the best person in this giant universe.
And I know that sometimes I'm just like a curse.
My words usually end up just fumbling out of me.
But you still listen to my plea.

I know I am not so pleasant.
Even still you treat me like a present.
I often look from the outside and wait.
I wait too long and now it's too late.

You have never once broken any promises.
Some people make promises that are hits and misses.
You just promise as I used to weep.
And you still have one to keep.

I've been thinking about that promise.
Something that could have been a great bliss.
I haven't called it quits.
I'll easily remember it.

It was two years ago when I really needed you.
Now you haven't got a clue.
I think I'll keep it inside.
I'll just wait for you to confide.

You've been the best.
A better person would be long lest.
You have no idea how much I love you.
I don't think you have a clue.

I creep into this space.
This tiny glass place.
I know it all to well.
I came here every time I fell.

The walls falling in on me.
Just wishing they'd hear my plea.
It's all over now.
I've thought too long on how.

It just needs to be the end.
So long I've thought on you I could depend.
No more will I know who I can trust.
I'm just a crumb on the outside of this crust.

I feel comfortable here.
This place is built on fear.
It's almost as if I like it.
I know it's too late to just quit.

So I reach to the sky.
I don't need to wonder why.
I'll continue to push and strive.
I'll get to the time I feel alive.

I don't care what you say.
I don't know why you go on.
You act like you can control me.
You think the worst about me.

I don't care what you think.
You act crazy.
Your mind is plotting to take me down.
Well I think that's cute.

You wait for people to come around.
You single me out.
You throw your worst at me.
Little do you know they tell me about you.

I get talked to about your words.
How crazy you seem.
How undeserving I am.
How I am the mature one.

You won't take me down.
Go on and try.
I smirk and walk away.
We had something nice.

You gave it away.

I've been wondering a lot.
Trying to think of a plot.
Do I really need one though?
Maybe I'll just come and go.
To ponder may be all I've got.

A stranger is a person.
They're fighting something on the inside.
Just like you they do good things.
Just like you they make mistakes.

A stranger walking down the street.
They could save your life someday.
They could end your life someday.
You never know what could happen.

A stranger could be dying inside.
They could need someone to confide.
A slight hint of kindness could change their life.
If you do something nice you could be friends.

What if that stranger is someone who will change you?
What if that stranger is the one you need?
You may never know.
What if you ruin their day?

A random hello or shove could change your life.
Don't take them for granted.  
Strangers may control your life.
A stranger is a person too.

I know a hero.
I bet you do too.
What is a hero though?
Is it someone who saves people?

Is a hero a person who pulls someone out of a burning building?
Maybe someone who takes the fall for someone else.
It doesn't have to be someone who looks gilding.
It can be a stranger you've never met.

A hero is that someone who doesn't let words bother them.
A person who can go about life in a happy manner.
They can take a problem and break it off like a stem.
They can do anything they want.

And I admire all of you like that.

The tempest goes on and on.
I'm safe in the eye though.
Sitting on a log with the snow in my face.
Down in the valley I roam.

In the snowy hills surrounded by trees,
I spend my time sitting on a log.
The echoing whisper of the wind moves on out of control.
Then I see a tree still with all of its leaves.

I move on towards the tree.
The only tree still full of leaves.
As I get closer it looks almost sad and droopy.
Maybe it is trying to stay awake all winter.

Maybe it doesn't want to be dormant.
It might not know when to stop,
Just like in human life.
There are some things you just sit back and wait for.

I've been waiting for some time.
I've been waiting as the heavy winds blow around me.
My life has been all but predictable.
But maybe I've waited too long.

The tree alone in the forest has been waiting for too long.
Its leaves hanging on so strong.
Sometimes it's better to just let go,
And grow even stronger.

The snow rests silently.
Moving in the wind.
Slowly falling too the ground.
Never stopping in the cold air.

It becomes part of the land.
It nurtures the ground,
The trees.
The leaves.

All around it falls.
On the ground.
On the trees.
On my head.

It won't quit until it's time is up.

There was such a tragedy today.
An elementary school was broken hearted.
Students were killed and their lives swept away.
It is so sad a thing for all those who departed.

Why would anyone do such an awful deed?
I give such empathy to all those passed.
Does anyone have a good creed?
Those poor children had their lives taken away so fast.

All of the memories of those who are gone,
Will be cherished forever by those they love.
They will never get to have new memories drawn.
I pray for the families and loved ones of those gone above.

I'm sending in an application.
This will be an indication.
If they accept me I will be happy.
I will go to a wonderful university.

I have wanted to go here for a while.
I will have a lot of work in a pile.
I can't wait to hear back.
I will have my life on track.

I will probably end up in a sob.
I will find a job.
I will grow up soon.
My application will be sent by noon.

I can for sure say I'm nervous.
Before I know it I'll be saying,"at your service!"
I'm scared to move on.
My new life will soon dawn.

Sometimes I feel like I'm made of glass.
An easily shattered soul ready to break.
I still don't know how much I can take.
I wait for something to happen everyday in class.

I want to learn something.
I need to learn an important life lesson.
After winter I wait through the year as the grass goes cresson.
I think about all the time I spend on nothing.

As this goes on I'm very dull.
I become boring and zoned.
Everyone assumes I'm just calm and toned.
But really I am just feeling null.

I try to build my up my glass walls.
I try to be made of stone.
I want to sit on a nice throne.
Awaiting as it all falls.

As I watched the stars in the night sky,
I couldn't help but want to fly.
It was much better than wanting to die.
I had a real smile and I didn't know why.

I often wonder who else is looking up at the same stars as me.
Staring into the moonlight.
Who else wants to take flight?
I often get intrigued and want higher so I sit in a tree.

I sometimes sit until the morning.
Until the sun shines up high.
Making it a bright crimson sky.
It's so peaceful and there's no warning.

I can be malleable at times.
I listen to the wind and it's word.
I hear the chirping of the morning birds.
My conscience can be sold with just dimes.

When I finally go to sleep I have dreams.
They turn terrible though.
It brings memories from so long ago.
My nightmares have me breaking at my seams.

I don't even know what reality is anymore.
My head gets so heavy.
The stream of thoughts break through my levee.
My nightmares ruin even those that I adore.

Everything so great seems an illusion.
I can't figure it out.
I feel so stout.
My body finally goes through a reperfusion.

My disposition isn't always a proud one.
The strange world where I can't help but ponder.
I look through and over yonder.
Sometimes it all holds me from my fun.

I struggle with habits.
Some bad and some old.
Sometimes they keep me from being bold.
They keep reminding me of the problems my mid inhabits.

I know I'll get back on track soon.
I have to.
I must stand up and tie my shoe.
I have to break out of this cocoon.

These chains binding me down.
The cold weather freezing me in place.
I always stop and look deep into space.
Soon it'll be time for me to leave this town.

I can not leave if I don't get to work.
I must embrace my dreams.
I have to follow that winding stream.
I have stop act and discontinue to lurk.

My life is in my hands and that's all I know.
I need to get ready for the life ahead.
It's time to start my tread.
Very soon I will go.

To fight on.
To continue the battle that is under your skin.
To not give up, unless sacrificing for others.
To feel the pressure on you caving in.

Some days there will be bliss.
A relaxing peace.
A sweet happiness.
The calmness seems to never cease.

Danger comes to play in life.
We work passed it.
A danger we put in the past.
We see the past and must omit.

We shouldn't give up on anything,
No matter how small.
They will make us grow,
They will build up us all.

Some things you have to do,
No matter how bad or scary.
We move on and on,
Remembering to be wary.

Not all of our lives are fortunate.
I've heard of some amazing stories.
Hearing of people's triumphs,
And of their glories.

We keep another soul in us all.
Helping us fight.
Helping us unite.
Showing us the light.

Whenever you get a chance,
Tell your story.
You never know what could happen.
Remember that you are a quarry.

After the battle,
The view is horrid.
The walk a sad one.
Your head will feel torrid.

Why is the aftermath so bad?
Why do people go down the wrong path?
The stubborn ones who try to be heroes.
They felt what is selfisheness' wrath.

Not me.
I walk on down going my way.
I continue to move down road.
Making sure not to go astray.

I've got a lot to get ready for.
I'm going to be going off soon.
I have college next year.
The end is beginning to loom.

High school will come to an end.
I can't believe it's almost done.
People I've know since I was a child,
The ones with which I've had so much fun.

Senior year came so fast.
It doesn't seem like this is real.
A surreal picture in my mind.
But my life time likes to steal.

The real world will hit me hard.
I'm not ready for it that's for sure.
I still wish I had more years with these people.
It's going to be a lot to endure.

I remember elementary school.
The fun times on the playground.
The shenanigans we all got into.
The time to end it has come around.

*I will miss everyone I've grown up with since I was 4 years old

We were there for each other,
That's how we made our way. 
That long summer, 
That ended in dismay. 

It's not fair what had happened,
I didn't even know. 
It's like you disappeared. 
I didn't know where to go. 

Months later I found you,
I found you once more. 
I found my friend,
The one that I adore. 

You left again,
I wasn't as scared. 
I knew that I wasn't alone. 
I knew you cared. 

No one was there for me,
Not like you. 
You were the greatest, 
And I was there for you too. 

Yet again you left, 
But this time I knew. 
You taught me so much. 
I knew what I had to do. 

I still adore everything about you. 
I always will. 
You're such a talent, 
It leaves my mind in a thrill. 

You occasionally come back now. 
Not as much as I want, but why complain?
I have nowhere to go.
I have nothing more to gain. 

I still struggle with some things. 
I'd like you're help sometimes. 
You always knew what to say. 
Now all I can do is make up rhymes.

Sometimes I feel bad.
Sometimes I feel rad.
Sometimes I feel amazing.
Sometimes I feel I'm hazing.

But who am I kidding?
I don't even know what I'm saying.
I'm just going on and on feeling so many things.
I don't usually feel strong for long.

I'm happy, I'm happy,
I'm confused, I'm happy,
I'm sad, I'm confused,
I don't know why but I get so ******.

I need to figure things out,
That's without a doubt.
I love my life,
I hate this strife,

Sometimes it hurts like a knife.

I'm stronger now than I ever was,
I guess it's a good help to my cause.

For peace and happiness.
For the world.
For all of the things I can't do.
Will it ever happen?

I want to change things.
I want people to be happy.
I want the world to be at peace.
If everyone wanted peace wouldn't we have it?

Why must people push others around?
Why do things have to happen?
Why do people become so unfortunate?
Why do I only sit and watch?

I wish I knew how to help.
Others.
Myself.
The world.

I want to do something for everyone.

What if I'm not really okay?
What if my brain is just telling me that to be nice?
There is a smile on my face usually.
Maybe not as much as I'd like, but mostly.

I walk off in search for what?
Happiness? Serenity?
Maybe.
Maybe I'm looking for something much more.

What if I find something I never expected to find?
I don't know what I'd do.
What could I do?
Take action?

What could I do with what?
I don't know what I'd find.
I know what I want to find.
I know what would make me better.

A new beginning.

There's so much out there.
There are billions of stars.
There are stars we haven't even discovered.
But only one star in our entire solar system.

It's amazing that so much is surrounding us,
When it seems like we have it all.
We have slim to none.
But do we have all of the people?

We have billions of people on this planet.
Could it really be all of the people in the universe?
For some reason it still makes me feel lonely.
I'm afraid to find out there are no others out there.

That is why I believe there are more life forms.
I believe there are others so I don't feel so alone.
Maybe they could be our friends.
Maybe they could change our future,

But we can't be alone.

The wind is blowing so hard.
The trees sway, standing strong.
The leaves get blown away,
as they are just minions in this large world.
The sun is still shining,
leading the way.
The sun shines,
showing the path to the great light.
The wind blows,
knocking on my window.
The wind is trying to get to me,
to talk to me.
The wind is pushing the leaves,
taking them through the light.
The wind is a part of nature,
a part of this world.
However violent this world is,
we all need a boost.
We all need a wind to carry us.
To carry us to a place we belong.

From the deepest depths
     From the ocean of dark
          The deepest trenches

From the highest skies
     The beauty of the clouds
          The whitest light

The Sirens are everywhere.
They call out to me.
Their beautiful song goes on and on.
I can no longer see.

Where am I?
I get so lost.
Lost in thought.
Lost in life.

I need a way out.
A way of my own.
My own path.
My own life.

To have a place to call my own.
To be able to return to a place I'm accepted.
To go back into a place where people light up at the sight of me.
Well, that would be amazing.

There is that place though.
It's in my head.
In my imagination.
The greatest world there is.

I am somewhere between those deepest depths and highest skies.
Somewhere I need to be?
Not somewhere I chose to be.
Somewhere where I can make an impression.

It's an impression I'll make.

We all have separate thoughts, 
We wonder about people's plots. 
It's a tough world we're in, 
We all just can't fight off our own sin. 

We must keep going and persevere, 
It's hard though in this world of fear. 
I know  how it feels to be scared, 
But sometimes you can't be prepared

We all need our answers in our lives,
We look around and let out our cries. 
It stays silent but the answer's there
You just need someone who cares. 

Just when you think it's over it not,
You may lose the battle you fought. 
The scene is scary and really sad, 
You may never really feel this bad. 

It's hard for me and that's for sure, 
I don't even know what to fight for. 
For friends or my own pride, 
What's really worth dying inside?

I hate it here in this large universe,
I can't stand living with this curse. 
It's so deadly but you're  just stuck,
I try to run and hide but I'm out if luck. 

I need you here by my side,
Anyone who can get me back pride. 
Nothing lasts forever I promise this, 
I just need to find my sweet bliss. 

We need to stand together as one,
To some the fight will be won.
Keep fighting and you'll meet an end, good or bad you'll find out it depends. 

I'm losing and I can't help it, 
I have fallen in a dark black pit. 
I can't see where I'm going I'm so lost,
I need a light to help me across. 

I love you and need you here, 
You need to help me leave this fear. 
I have a lot to say but I just can't, 
I hear these voices as they just chant

I will soon have my answers I know, 
I need something that I can show. 
People expect things from me, 
I don't know why but I need the key. 

I'll be done soon I can tell
But it's hard when you're living in hell. 
I'll be fine don't you worry, 
The answers are beginning to scurry

This is the end my dear sweet friends
Goodbye to you as this all ends. 
We'll see each other soon I pray, 
But for now I'll be going astray.