I let you go not because I didn't love you, but because I knew that I couldn't be the girl of your dreams. As a girl who falls for people easily, it's hard to maintain a relationship with just one person. I love multiple people. I have never denied that, and no, I don't play with people's feelings, neither do I sleep around or cheat. I just never got over the other breakup, I never healed properly, I just pretended to be fine with how things were, despite it breaking me apart. People call it being a player, I call it being in love. Love makes us want people we can't have, people we can't be with, people we are with but can't see it working forever. I feel like a bad person, for not being able to love just one person and be happily ever after. Emotional attachments are easy to form, but harder to deattach yourself from, it doesn't matter if you're strong or not, if you love more than one person, then you do, and that's just how it is. It doesn't define you, it doesn't make you a **** or a *****. If you're a faithful, loyal person who happens to like or love more than one person, it's okay. It's different if you cheat and lie and date several people at the same time. People never think of the difference before they judge someone and it sickens me. Love isn't a sin, feelings aren't a sin. Breaking hearts and cheating - now that's a sin.

These words written,
have bitten,
and leaving the scars of ***** ink,an untied as yet link
make me think
of
tomorrow, and when will it come?
will the Sun ever rise?
is the promise that's shown in your eyes,more lies
more bites
more lonely writes?

I'm flying my kite in the breeze and thoughts like these I don't need,so I'll write them away,like an act 1 in a play where's there's so much more to say and I,
being the audience will stay 'til the end
until the curtain comes down.

A king and his throne,nowhere to call home and this sceptre I hold is a cold, cold pen,
tomorrow will come
but when?

7:26am
is where it all began.
Angry words were being thrown
back and forth between a woman
and a man.

A little girl woke up from her dream,
as she heard her name in between those screams.
Tears spilled from her eyes as she began to cry,
asking questions that mostly began with why.

7:26am
a tale of two lovers comes to an end,
leaving a girl with a broken heart
that cannot be mend.

*(n.d.)

You call me a star
But even stars explode.

You call me a fairytale
But even fairytales end.

You call me beautiful
But things change
Grow old
Fade.

You hold me
And sometimes I feel safe
Other times I feel suffocated
Trapped
And want to runaway.

You get mad
When I say I’m tired
And I want to go home
It has nothing to do with you.

I have troubles in my mind
But how can I take care of them
When I’m staying up late
And save no space
To help the craziness
I’ve created.

I can’t remember the last time
I felt this way
Because I’ve never been here before;
How do I go on
Knowing I need independence
But also someone to love.

Your desires of me are destructive
They create expectations
I’ll never meet
I fear the only way
I can survive
Is if I drive away.

I have my Best Coast blasting
Penetrating my ear drums
It’s the only sound
That drowns out the voice
Telling me I’m full of mistakes
And I’ll never be happy.

Sing to me Bethany
Your music is the only remedy
That is able to save me
From this insane pain
Inside my crazy brain.

2:52 am and I confuse streetlights
for the sun
This cold breeze violently rattling
my bones is that of Sunday mornings and fever dreams
I can barely make out the outline of
your cracked lips in the foggy haze of
that old basement
but it's the only permanent thought
in my head
that doesn't **** me
One after one
I drink you down until I am far enough
away from my mind to let go
They say night is for the lonely-
and as I watch you smile and walk away,
I remember why