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alison Apr 7
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my vision is blurry as I type away,
making several spelling errors.
I miss you, and I still love you,
but I know I shouldn't.
#hurt #soul #foryou
alison Mar 31
you cannot just walk in and out of my life.
I am not a door.
I am not a robot, so do not treat me as if my feelings don't matter, because I'm human, not anything else.
what else is new
alison 4d
wish I could float above the water.
instead I feel pressured. I feel like I'm being
pushed (forced) under the sea.
alison Mar 26
when the sun goes up, that's when my tears fall down the most...
alison Apr 10
I don't want to fall like the leaves in autumn.
or like the snow in winter,
or rain when god is crying down to what a disappointment I am.
I want to shine like the sun, I want them to notice my sparkly lip gloss and admire me, like Athena.
I want to guide everyone through the night with my moonlight.
but I fail to their eyes because they dont see a success,
they see the opposite, they see ugliness. well now I know to never try again.
alison Apr 1
turn the washer machine off of repeating, I'm tired of the never ending cycle.
I'm tired of forgiving and letting you back in over and over and over again. I need to turn the washer machine off. I need to let you go. this is old. I need to take you to the flea market or a thrift store and someone new can find you. someone innocent can get to know you and fall for you. I just hope you treat her well. I wish you well in life.
or maybe I can change you. I can recycle you and you can be reincarnated into a brand new version of yourself. but then I've learned that it wouldn't even matter how much you change yourself for someone because we all continue to make mistakes. were all going to hurt someone unintentionally.
so don't change yourself. just forgive yourself and move on.
alison Apr 3
ive learned to drown out the pain.
(is this a good way to cope?)
alison Mar 31
i want to know if its okay to keep going back to someone who keeps hurting you. not in a physical way but they way he made you feel when he couldn't even wait to stay with you. instead he got with that other girl which I now wonder why he even was talking to her if he was interested in me. how can anyone do that?  
is it okay to keep forgiving them, because to me the love out weights the bad mistakes, or should I have just forgave and moved on? because every time I forgive him, its like this never ending cycle that's tiring. he makes me feel good but then it goes wrong... and then I forgive and keep him. why do I keep doing this?
I want to know if making someone feel special for a while and then suddenly move on to something new. (that was just a phase, I was the phase)
-my heart and soul
alison Apr 8
hay veces que odio ser hispana.
no deshonro mi cultura, créanme, pero mi madre ha hecho que mi vida sea poco saludable y desearía haberme criado con caucásicos que no fueran tóxicos.
realmente no sé cómo explicar todo esto.
alison Apr 2
why couldn't you ever give 𝘮𝘦 a chance like the way you give every other pretty girl a chance?
I see the way you act around every other girl and it scares me how when you first met me you treated me all sweet, and now its like I was just a phase, an era for you.
people shouldnt led someone on making them feel all goody about themselves just to to do that with everyone
alison Apr 2
the thought
of someone
liking you is
gross, but when
they don't, you seem to
become obsessive of the
thought of why they don't.
physiology 101
alison Jan 23
The sun spilled its golden rays across our backyard, illuminating the faded swing set that had been the backdrop of my childhood adventures. I climbed aboard, the chains creaking softly as I swayed back and forth, each motion echoing the laughter of summers long past. My mother called out from the kitchen, her voice weaving through the air like a warm breeze, reminding me about the cookies that were cooling on the counter.
  The aroma of vanilla and chocolate wafted out, wrapping around me like a comforting hug. It was in these simple moments that I realized how quickly time would slip through my fingers, much like the sand in my favorite hourglass which had found its way back to the attic, untouched but still full of promise. “Time, dear friend, is a river flowing fast,” penned in my notebook as I nestled beneath the shade of the grand oak tree.
  I often tangled with the fact that while I could capture memories in verse, I could never rewind the clock. Each swing brought new thoughts, not just of the fun I had, but of the bonds forged over afternoon snacks and heartfelt conversations. "As leaves turn to gold, and the memories unfold," came a poetic whisper in my heart, a gentle reminder that while seasons change, the essence of those moments remains embedded deep within me, ready to be revisited whenever I need a piece of my past.
its taken a lot out of me writing this. hope you enjoy. I'm new to the community. should've joined sooner🩷
alison Jan 27
In shadows cast by whispered words, I tread,  
A daughter bound by chains she never chose,  
In her embrace, a chill of ice instead,  
Love, once a garden, now a field of woes.  

Her laughter echoes, sharp like winter’s bite,  
Each smile a dagger, piercing through the day,  
I long to hold her hand, to find a light,  
Yet every word exchanged just pulls away.  

I wish for skies to clear, for hearts to mend,  
To bridge this chasm carved by fear and doubt,  
Oh, how I wish for time, a faithful friend,  
To guide us both towards a kinder route.  

But here, I stand, a dreamer in the storm,  
Hoping one day we can transform this norm.
iykyk
alison Mar 13
you stole me away from my own body.
you took my heart, I cant even feel anything
for many years I've wasted myself for you, you who doesn't even deserve me.
alison Apr 7
every    time
            I
think
          about it,
I can                 feel heat
          forming                into
                          ­my eyes.
alison Jan 27
is there ever a point in even writing when there are times I feel as if no one will ever notice my words? I need to know if I'm the only one who loses motivation in the things I love when I don't get credit for it. I don't get praised for it. I'm losing hope in this. I would think I would be appreciated here because no one could hear my voice, and refuse to listen to me. I am silenced by everyone. is there even a point..?
alison Apr 2
I
wish to
make you proud,
but its never going to
be completed because I'll never-
ill never ever be enough, will I?
well... answer the question.
alison 3d
I don't want to get up today. I don't want
to get out of bed. I've lost hope in myself.
I've lost you. so now everything is fallen apart.

— The End —