We are all
just lifetimes
searching for
       infinities.
     And the broken
    parts or who
we were
      should never
          be excluded
   from the beauty
of what we
are.
     -Andrew Durst

I'd like to be easily defined
Instead of streaming through people's minds
I'd hate to be thought of all the time
Instead I'd like to be forgotten
But not completely
At least to where I have friends
But not so many to where I'm surrounded
and given the attention from everyone
Large crowds scare me
I'm sure I'll stumble over my words
Or at least say something stupid
Then my face will turn all red
And my hands will get all sweaty
I'd prefer to have a couple of friends
One love
And a book

It hurts like a burn
Makes my stomach churn
I want to put a gun to my chest
Suicide? No one would have guessed
My heart is always pounding
The pain, it's astounding
Why can't I just take those pills?
Thoughts like these give me chills
I hope the end is coming
I could use the numbing

That smile of his
Makes my heart melt
Reminds me of magic
That rain once held

Those eyes of his
Makes my heart melt
Reminds me of the burning fire
That the sun once held

Those lips of his
Makes my heart melt
Reminds me of love
That the world once held

Oh Darling
My sweet love
You've stolen
The magic from the rain
The fire from the sun
The love from the world
And given it to me
I could never ask for more

I am 17
An average teen age girl
I hangout with friends
and I'm dating a football player

Just like any other 17 year old
I have a cell phone
And yes I jump up and down
Every time I get a new follower
On any social site I have an account on

And just like any other 17 year old
I forgot the meaning of life
In fact I don't think I knew life had a meaning

I was born into a life filled with four things
Greediness
Technology  
Money
And Selfishness

In this life
That I was so unfortunately born into
We pay more attention to a new tweet
Than to the loving man whom created us

In this life
We worry more about a new instagram follower
Than too a mother dyeing with cancer
And instead of reading the word of God to a dyeing mother
We check to see if we have a new snapchat

In this life
People call themselves Christians
And they don't even go to church

Open your eyes
Do you see that darkness surrounding your life?
Turn that to light
Read the Bible
Instead of twitter
Keep up with our creator
Instead of a follower

Once there was girl who locked herself in a world
A world filled with butterflies, ocean breezes and sunrise
She hides from reality

In her world it's only pure good
She lives in a castle
And spends her days riding unicorns
And swimming with dolphins

In reality she was touched inappropriately as a small girl
By a big man

Now she is 17 and is loved by a highschool crush
Oh and the big man
Sits in a cell with a even bigger man
Who does to him what he did to that little girl