My heart has always
been shook by
double bass
and the chug of
palm muted furry
My lids are the crash
of cymabls
My bones rattle with
the solo
long
live
metal

upper lip now hidden
behind a display
of maturity
chin ridden with
a blanket
of adulthood
grown out
just in time
to separate me
from
childhood

as watery coughs
wracked my body
I thought
how nice it would
be back home
on that couch
with some soup on the stove
and someone to ask
if I would like
more water.
I could visit my
father
and have him become again
my dad
my brother just over
way
as watery coughs
wracked my body
I wished for
the Bay

I hope you would appreciate
that I still keep you around
by wrapping myself in the blankets
you and your mom made me,
your sweater that I think I stole
is still my favorite sweater
I wear it when I want
to feel loved again
for just a little
I'm not saying
I still love you
like I used to
or that I want
you again
I'm just saying
you have a spot
in my heart
as a
meaningful
friend

at least
I learned to
tell the
truth
because of
you

Sipping sweet
perception altering
juice
on cement stairs
feet bare
stranger down below
approached
honey lipped and
mellow
hour talk
between us two
took my hand
and
my bed
and my body
because we both
decided we wanted
to be
used