What do we do now?
Break the silence please.
Could this get more emotional?
**** it together don't drop a tear
Don't let him sense your fear.
Cause they say fear makes you weak
But I'm so in love with you.
It hurts
I laugh the pain away sometimes
Do you even care how I feel?
Do you ever wonder if its real?
I cherish the fact that you're here, but I dwell on the fact that you can leave.
Take me with you wherever you may go.
Love me as hard as you can
Take me to a place that only we know
Erase my problems and I'll help you get rid of yours  
Together we we're something special
Together we we're forever.

Hold me and never let me go
Hold me tight
God, I said.. this feels right
Don't let me go not tomorrow not tonight.

When you invest so much time and effort into someone and put your all into someone and they just take all the strength you have along with whatever was left of your heart..
where do you find the strength to go back to what you were, all that you had & all that you could have become.
You start to think deeply about your value and when did that ever start to decrease.
Why you never really were loved and why did you deserve such a punishment,
you start to think back to times when you were happy and why you couldn't be that person anymore.
The one who is grateful just to wake up instead you dread the mornings you even open your eyes.
The one who loved the feeling of being loved instead you don't feel a thing cause you know it will come to an end.
The one who always thought of happy thoughts and a bright future laughing and loving life? What happened to that person

The person you use to be?

My heart is fragile so please don't break it
My tears are precious so don't make me waste them
Please.
I beg you
I want to never endure that pain again
I never wanted to be friends
For it was always much more than that
So much more.
If you only you felt how I feel
See things like how I have seen them before
Love me and never let me go
Never.
I love you, I said just before I let you go.

No one will ever understand your pain or struggle until they have been placed in your shoes.
No one can understand the journey you've been on until they walked the same walk you walked.
No one will ever know what that raw bare feeling is like, and you can't expect them to.
My heart beats only for you, in case you didn't know my soul has faded.
No one understands the amount of life you put in me and just how much you can take from me.
I can't wonder what it's like for you, only how it's been for me. Don't expect me too.
Cause you can feel but you can never understand.

Under my smile it's broken,
from all the hidden pain you caused me
from all the love that is lost
from all of you.

Under my smile is unbearable hate
not had towards you
not hate towards love
but hate towards me.

Under my smile I am just a girl
in a very ****** up world
waiting for my chance to escape
just pacing.

You're fading from me
Taking back your love
If I ever even had it
You don't love me anymore
I know it, believe me.
It just hurts to know,
to accept
to acknowledge the pain
Once before I've been hurt,
but never like this
Leaving me in a place I never been by myself
hurts to know I'm by myself
I'm simply amazed at how you've changed.

Its like I've dug a hole, but I can't get out,
Tried  to cry but im all cried out.
Slowly breaking
Piece by piece
Why do you have this effect on me?
I never should have fallen so hard
I never should have trusted my heart
How could this happen all over again
What are the odds of my heart breaking again
Im so confused as to what to do
I should have never loved you.

I've never felt less of a young woman.
Less of person.
Empty of heart.

Depressing doesn't even begin to explain the pain I'm enduring.
The neglect I'm feeling
The hurt I'm baring.

The way you use to make me feel so beautiful
I feel so ugly now.
The way you brightened my day
the days are long and dull now.
The way you use to touch my soft skin
Im stone cold now.
Bare. Naked and raw.

But I never have would have imagined I could feel this way for you.

I am truly broken,
I cannot lie
The thought gives me worst feeling
I can't even begin to explain
I knew time ago that you changed
but I never thought you'd be him.

Him,
The one I love dearly
But,
Doesn't love me back
I don't care if it hurts
Cause you're all I want.

I am indeed broken,
I know I deserve more
You were my dream guy
The one that completed me
Will I ever get more from you?
Not even the slightest chance

I can't believe it.
I won't.
You lied to my face
You broke my heart without even laying a hand on it.
Will we ever be the same?
Is it honestly worth all the pain?
I ask myself all the time
I act like everything is fine.
You lied to my face
And I just took it all in
What a sin.
Do you realize what you've done?
You broke my heart without laying a hand on it.
You ripped it to pieces then apologized
You tore it from the inside, ripped raw from the core.
Poor me? Please no sympathy
Cause I feel no pain
I feel numb
If your happy to hear I'll tell you your will is done.

This pain I'm just embracing,
My heart is racing
What do I do now?
I'm so dumb
To ever think you truly loved me
Im a fool and you played me
I thought you loved me
Thats what I pushed myself to believe
I trusted you
But I was wrong to
Because you don't love me
You never did
You loved the idea
The idea of being loved
The idea of lust
The idea of me
And here I am sitting on a cold bench
Early November
Married to a man who has one foot halfway through the door and the other completely out hoping for me to catch the memo
To just give up and move along.
But that's not me
This is my life...
This is how far you led me
And this is where you left me....