She was looking down
"Hey"
She was afraid to look up
she knew the emerald green of her eyes
would shatter
into the blue
of his
his hand met her chin
lifting her head
he looked into her soul
galaxies combining
dilation
Sapphire in her heart
electric
Forest in his soul
deep

outside the window, there is a sky
it is not blue
it is not bright
it is gray
just like the inside of the room
the table is solemn
the chair is uncomfortable
I wish I was outside
I stare at myself in the mirror
I know they see me
I cannot see them
why am I here
is the window real
it feels like night
how could it possibly be day
I've counted the hours
since I got swept away
the room is gray
my eyes have lost their pretty blue
to this alone
where will the rest of me
eventually
go

Hands grip the bars
Let me in
Please
Let me in
scars on my fingertips
from every time
i gripped
the thorn covered iron
screaming
let me in
I'd always wanted to leave
screaming to life
oh
please let me out
but now that life was gone
how I longed to be back
but now I was here sitting on the sidewalk in the sky
I walked the stairway
so long it took
I was so tired
now that I was here
I realized it was closed
vacant
nobody was here
except
Jimmy Page
we talked about
how he had plans to take his black dog
to California
wearing his Kashmir coat
so he walked
over the hills and far away
I sat dazed and confused
I was just a fool in the rain

Try to break away
I really do try

Addiction

At least it's gone

Now distraction

Leads me to wishing


I had something else


to keep me away

You can throw your words
like punches
you can scream your violence
like an unheard prayer to hell
you can hurt me
despite my problems
yes
I will shatter
I will break
I will cry
I will hurt
I will sit
on the edge
wishing
but on the outside
resilience
remains
my roots
we scream
powerful
native
I am withstanding
I feel the pain you put to my soul
but you will never see me
in a state of
loss
from your
insecurity
I will always smile
I will always love
I will not show you my hurt
you do not win

I think
but sometimes the wrong things
come to mind
I think about dancing and flying in space
when they say
I should think
about
reality
I don't wanna be
here
I wanna be in the sky
soaring
not down on earth
thinking about
money
school
hate
judgemental people
hate
hate
hate
everyone just loves to hate
can i teach
haters to
love to love?

oh tell me
how far have I fallen
I can not see up
only for down
I have no counted every hour I've been falling
I must know
have you watched from the tree above
as down the rabbit hole
i escaped
reality
but I will always be hit in the face
metaphorically
but physical in a sense
when I realize
I cannot be
in wonderland
forever