Now I know you're okay,
Now I know you're fine
But I've lost a few friends before
And when I held your head I was afraid
To face the fact that one day
We'll split apart by age or death
And I was scared to lose my friend
I realized then that I still have you,
But it scares me when you do not reply to your name
It scares me to think that I could lose you any day

If I don't end my life,
I know you'll die before me.
I love you.
I wish the tumor would shrink
Or dehydrate.
I wish it wouldn't grow
So that you could grow instead
I wish that I could take it all away from you
Maybe put it in a jar
And tuck it away so far
That no one would have to see.
I wish I could eat it,
Throw it, **** it, slaughter it,
Whatever it took to get it out your brain
And into mine
Or out of existence so that
You, and angel to this nasty world
Could live, survive, and breathe without pain
At least for a day.
You did nothing, love.
You did nothing to deserve it.
So even I question my faith
When I ask the Lord why the hell
He let this happen to his own.