It was as if you were my broken heart
How did you know to be everything that I felt
Yet what am I with you
That I am not without
We mourn in our hearts for the earth when she loses a beautiful soul
Still spring comes each year
Only to birth flowers that will fade into the soil
Yet if our pockets are full so quickly do we wipe away our tears
As quickly as the petals face the sun

While you were not in season
It would be a lie born on my lips to say you were not my reasoning
I have buried these things in my stomach with a heavy heart
Why do these fleeting thoughts weigh so much
I am a fool to carry them with me to all the places that I know
Cursing the ground as I walk that they know the way so well

What delusion is this that I would find comfort in that which brings me pain
I bear all things
For what
It brings me no honor to be a wallflower
This is my folly to keep the seat I have for you in my heart warm
This trickle of time will soon be a current and we are swept up in our worries as never before
Oh when things were simple
Between you and I
If only I had lived my life in those days
These regrets are nothing
This shame like a burn from the sun on my face

How I carry on now
With my face to the ground
A wanderers plight
A restless soul
I have exiled myself in my own way
I have no courage to find my way back
The familiarity burns into me
Even as this day dies before my eyes

When tomorrow comes
My feet hit the dirt long after the rising of the sun
I will walk the way I have gone before
Though still I hope one day
It will lead me back to you
I know I am walking in circles
That's just what broken hearts do
With nothing to feed this hope
I walk in circles, trying to find you

I lay in my bed
Maybe my fingers a bit cold
The warmth of the body next to me
It only goes so far
Maybe warming my whole arm
Most of my leg
And enough through my side to reach my bellybutton, but that's about it
I have bad circulation
Yet the thoughts in my head get around just fine
I am hesitant to wrap my fingers around yours
Shy in the dark
So I settle for just one single lock of hair
It can't be more that thirty strands
Still it is thirty pieces of you I can't do without
I think quietly to myself
Maybe love isn't falling
It's laying.
Laying down next to another
Listening to them breathe in the dark
Its a pace
With no moving
Just a chest rising and falling and sheets dancing along
Just two warmths in an emptiness
That could of been filled alone
It isn't chaotic
It's quiet and peaceful and if you were afraid of the dark atleast you're not afraid alone
I'm shy in the dark
Maybe it's the moonlight on your skin
Coming through the window
I stayed awake just to see it dance on your face
But I'm shy in the dark
Even though I know it so well

I gave up to the eternal
The only thing I ever wanted for myself

I gave up you.

Now the tears on the threshold are dry
Not so the stains on my soul

If I could learn to give of myself
I would give it up to you

How can I not cry
When your words honor a broken soul
This humility is a kindling
I thank you for your fire
As you thank me for my words
Tomorrow will remember this
As beautiful as today has learned it

I just didn't know how to convince you that you were beautiful
So I just kept telling you
Every day
As the sun shines, so do you

I just want to put my hand over your mouth
Stiffle the stupidity as it streams out of your head
Maybe I am just bitter
Time changes things
But a rotten core is good for only swine
The fruit does not fall from the trees
You came back for the truth
It draws you in
But too close
And at what expense
You would light a fire
Yet you have no fear of flames
The apprehension tingles on my tongue and courses through my senses
I pick my words as though they were flowers in full bloom
As sweet as honey
Oh how I wish they would sting
For what is this mess you make of things
Just turning over soil when you could be planting crops
The nuts have been gathered
By those that will devour them with the hunger of a winter
If only I knew how to wait out the storm
I clasp my hands together but they will not clamp
The desperation beads on my forehead and slips into my mind
Salty thoughts and a foolish tongue
Must it be bound behind my teeth
When I would lash it against you like a whip
I want it to sting
That you would turn your foolish head in shame
For your pride carries everywhere you go
You will come to find me
I will be ready
But not waiting
The foolish feet that carry you
Have many lessons to be learned
You will look at me with eyes of desire
And I will burn you alive with the fire behind my eyes
Just to give you a glimpse
Of what is waiting for you
Just one gate away

You have fallen through the heavens
It seems no one could bear to tell you
That time holds you in her cupped hands
Somehow you found a way
To slip through her fingers, like water
On you go, a way you do not know
You made a way on your own
I did not know such a thing could be done
You have expanded my horizons
In but an instant
It seems as if I could run across the dessert in a day
I seek mirages in my sleep
Counting my dreams like change in my pockets
A penny for your thoughts
At a dollar a minute
I muster two cents for an answer
You would barted your soul I think
For just a taste of tomorrow, today
At what price though
That your time layered in the stratosphere
Would be shaved just a little thinner
The angels would scoff at such
One day though I shall make them laugh
I have guardians
They all have wings
Yet between the six of us
Only two hands
So I must fold my days and tuck them away
Some days, they smell like warm summer
They feel like comfort of the sun on my face
Others are a deep, dark fabric
Woven with a sturdy mind and threaded with little pieces of spite
Yet every now, or now and again
I pack up a little trinket of today
It tastes like fresh air on the first day of a hopeful spring
With just a little bit of rain
Washing away the worries of the world
Oh that I could cling to this
But as I love her
I let her go

We just set our clocks for the day
And hope that the nighttime
Doesn't drip right into our eyes
As quickly as the day is unwound

You were rich in wonderment
As are many beginnings
Slowly the pennies fell out of your pockets
This is the way many things have gone
I will follow
Though with stubborn footsteps

It's as if I stayed awake just to be sad in the dark

I always wanted more
Just to give you more
Yet I am torn
There is nothing to me
That I would not give
If I knew you needed it

My vanity a cup
Not a drop in it
My pride will not let me pour that much of myself out
I lost to much before
To give up even a taste now

It's not my eyes I need to rest
But my heart

Peace for me
Is like finding water in the desert