Dear muse
I think I
Imagined
Something better of
What we were

Thought that maybe...
You could be
More than an
Anomaly
Hidden outside a screen

I haven't quite
Figured out
Why...
Can't I get over you

I know this
Isn't hurting you
Which *****
Life force outta me

Dear muse
You should know
This-
It's all on you

Dear muse
I am exhausted
Mentally just checked out

Everything keeps
Coming back
To you to us

I have no idea
When you became so
Real to me

Dear muse
Can we go back
To friends
I am dying
Without you near

Dear muse

I've had too much
Of you
Banging around in my head
Rampaging on my heart

Now that I want you gone
You're front row
When I needed you
You took a bow

Am I totally
Losing my
Grip on humanity
Drowned out of reality
Lost without sanity

Not sure why now
You're finally gone
I can't breathe

Dear muse
I'm so weak
Let me free of your
Clutches the
Way you got over me

Dear muse
Are you proud of
How much you hurt me?
I've never wrote to anyone
As much as I have
About you

Is it good? or bad?
That you left me so broken

I'm still waiting
For it to get better
One week later and
Still...
Beating myself up over you

Dear muse
Will this pain ever go away?

Dear muse
Do you remember
When we first met?
How I was drawn
By your writing
Before I really
Knew who you were

Our writing
Bonded us together
Sparked the ignition
Of a flame
Thought to burn forever

We were two kids
Made for this love
But not this life

Always hanging by a
Strand of light
Can't blame myself
Forever
For you leaving me blind

Dear muse
This ink
Bleeds for you

Dear muse
I cant stop it
Stop myself from loving you
Youre on my heart and in my mind

My heart
Still aches for you
Bleeds for you and my
Mind has attached itself to
Your memory

In the worst ways
Im suffocating and
Killing myself waiting

Dear muse
I dont know what to think
I needed you to be there
So you decide its
Best to disappear

Dear muse
This goes out to you
Whether the world knew it
You're a real person
Instead of this fiction
But the truth:
If you were fiction
You couldn't have hurt me

We spent 6 long years together
Forming our bond, growing close

You were not just someone to me
Not anyone could
Make me feel like this
You are EVERYTHING to me

You are the only
one in seven billion
To make me feel real

Without you my
Body exists with a mind adrift
The sad thing is
If you come back to me
I'll welcome you
Straight to my arms
Since you
Never left my heart

Dear muse
Too often you
Have ruled my mind
A sacred expanse
Overtaken by you
And that used to
Make me feel good

If anybody was
Going to
Invade my universe
Rule the kingdom
Control my soul
Im glad it was you

I wish it still was
You
Who made me feel
Like I was someone

Without you it
Barely feels like existing at all
Im here but
Life
Thats moving around me

Dear muse
I miss you and
Ill be here
If you're ever ready

Dear muse
Its really not fair
How everyone else
Will be compared to
Who I thought you were

The person I loved
Wasn't really you
Wow that makes me feel crazy

Every day
Still passes
Without you here
But I swear
My heart stands
Still stuck on you

Forever waiting
For an us
That will never be
Because I still love you
Despite the uncertainty
Please answer:
Was I ever somebody to you
?

Dear muse
It feels like
Im writing you a book
Coming out in
Fragmented pieces

Maybe I would
Put all my
Hurt of you
In a story
If I could

Honestly these
Jumbled Thoughts
Would be lost to the
Rest of the world

And oh muse
We would be one
Hell of an angelic duo
But you arent such an angel
For breaking the
Innocent