Super Bowl Sunday
How I love the game
It’s different every year
Nothing is usually the same

We root for a team
And bet in a pool
Eat a bunch of snacks
Watch the new commercials, how cool

I’m lost in this world of football for a day
My friends and I laugh, and all my troubles go away

Super Bowl Sunday is special to me
Whatever teams are playing are meant to be

A time in the winter
When I’m usually blue
Finally something happy
Super Bowl Football, it’s you!

I'm not a bad person
I'm just confused
Tied and sad from being abused

I wasn't beaten, starved or locked up
But what I went through has surely been enough

I am trying to climb out above the rubble
I trip and fall and sometimes stumble

Please bear with me while I put my life back together again
I truly need the love of a friend

How I miss the safety of that place
I always had a smile on my face

You would think I’d be miserable
Locked away
It was the best thing for me
I must truly say

I made lots of friends
Who meant a lot at the time
They will never be forgotten
I include them in my rhyme

Not everyone made it
Some didn’t even get home
I can understand the feeling
My first two months were spent alone

Now I have a life
Like I’d never believe
Why was I special
And got a reprieve

I thank the Dear Lord
Every day I’m alive
I’m a survivor
Because of Him I survived

It’s amazing to me
How in one quick moment
Your life can change completely
For better or for worse

One bad decision
One overlooked detail
It could all change the course of your life
In less than a split second

Your journey is set for you long ago
But we still have the free will
To change it ever so slightly

There is always two endings
To every story
Every novel
And every life

Come here my darling
I want one final dance with you
I hope you are feeling the same way too

For the rest of my life
I want to stay in your arms
Swaying to the music
Wherever we are

My lover, my friend
My confidant until the end
Let’s dance together
Never let go

I love you my dear
I will be faithful and true
As long as I keep dancing with you

I need to run
From the thoughts in my head
They start from the time
I get out of bed

They won’t leave me alone
Not for one moment
I can’t turn it off
The words are unspoken

So what do I do
With all this crap in my head swimming around
I just want to plant my feet on solid ground

I’ll take a pill, and then another
What the hell
I don’t want to suffer

Pills are kicking in
I’m relaxing now
Finally the thoughts stopped
I wonder how?

It’s dark in my room
The sun has yet to rise
I’ve been awake for hours
Not to my surprise

I never seem to be able to sleep
Until the sun rises
Or my alarm starts to beep

So here I sit again, all alone
I can’t even call anyone on the phone

The rest of the world is sleeping
Everyone but me
So what will I do?
I’ll write endlessly

Some say I’m crazy
Some say I’m brave
I don’t disagree
I’m just so glad I’ve been saved

My life was a blur
Days rolled into weeks
I had no idea where I was
More valleys than peaks

I began my journey blindly
I could not see
I had no idea
What would happen to me

Today I am happy
That’s all I can say
Thanks to my God
He showed me the way

I want to feel passion
For love, life, career
Sometimes it seems impossible
But obtainable, so I hear

To do something I love
Is a dream of mine
I don't think in this pursuit, I'm one of a kind

When the passion is gone
For anything in life
It's hard to get up
When your heart's full of strife

I'll continue my journey
With hope in my heart
Looking for passion
I know it can't be far

I pick up a pen
to let my emotions flow
The ink has dried
The paper remains empty.

I cry.

I sleep a lot these days,
more than I used to.

Some people say I'm depressed,
but that's okay,
because she's here with me
in my dreams,
we walk and we talk,
and we smoke and we joke,
and sometimes we hold each other
and make love.

Those are the mornings
I wake up
with a piece of granite
and I realize
I'm still alive
and how much
I really miss her
and her sweet
sloppy
succulent
kisses.

So bring it Sandman,
you're burning daylight,
and I want to live
with her at least
one more time.

She sat in the waiting room
Scared as can be
She felt like a little girl
Even though she was thirty-three

Does she want to do this?
Does she really have a choice?
Then she heard this little voice

“Yes you have a choice”, said the voice in her head
But isn’t it too late now, once it’s over, the baby is dead

She ran from room, dark and dingy was the place
She ran and ran at a very fast pace

She couldn’t get away fast enough
She decided to have the baby
No matter how tough

I sit in my home office
Wondering what is this all about
Why am I here
Why all this doubt?

I want to feel the world at my feet
I want to dance to a different beat

This corporate crap is getting old
I don’t even believe it, I’m no longer sold

I want to run to a place
Where peace is abound
Where serenity wraps like a warm blanket
Only beautiful soothing sounds

I can’t find it here
Sitting at this desk
Am I willing to just run, take that risk?

I have to do something
Before I lose my soul
I need to set a lasting goal

It isn’t here at this desk of mine
I need to find peace of mind

Forever serene