I think this went too far, too fast
Now the time is running out.
Your truth is all mixed up with lies.
My heart is aching, full of doubt.
I thought I saw something in your smile,
Your words were breaking through my wall.
If only I could have known the danger,
crumbling meant a nasty fall.
The ghost of things that never happened
hang around in my weary mind.
You let me down with a final blow,
just wish those words had not been kind.
It's hard to hate someone who shows care
as they stick their knives inside your heart.
You think that I would have known by now
that to fall in love is to fall apart

You and me, we dance this dance,
All broken glass and circumstance,
Waltzing on sore bleeding feet,
Lost in you, there's no retreat.
The music drowns out my pleas to you,
Spinning in circles, nothing new.
At arms length, never heart to heart,
Though you've had mine from the start.
Painted smiles and pretty hair,
But pain is what lies under there.
I hope and pray I'll walk away,
For this dance to end someday,
But you and I both know I'll stay,
That I'll continue to dance and sway,
Because love doesn't disappear,
And I'd rather hurt and keep you near.

Don't worry, I will be gone soon.
You can forget everything we said.
I will lock it all away
as it eats a hole inside my head.
Your face, to me, was such a dream.
Now, it mocks me as I fall apart.
Now, I'll try to run away,
But it does no good if you have my heart.
I believed that you believed in me,
but it was all just a lie.
I'll set fire to the hopes,
and the visions of you and I.
Maybe someday you'll find yourself
wishing I was still there.
Maybe that's just my silly wish,
pretending that you even care.
So I say goodbye to you,
and I know it will be the last.
I just hope my memories,
like your affections, burn out fast.

Burn, stab, snip, scrape.
Dragged through broken glass again and again.
I often wonder when I'll break.
Surviving is just giving in.
These eyes keep watching all the horrors, dressed up like they're fantasies.
Then I get dragged across the border,
into heartache, my one disease.
I can't seem to grasp the concept that real love does not exist.
A pretty face, a pretty lie,
backed up by an empty kiss.
I give up and so should you.
The flight is just not worth pain.
All of the effort,
all of the love,
all of me was all in vain.

I'll see you in another life.
I'll be yours and you'll be mine.
We'll say the things that aren't allowed.
Loving each other won't cross a line.
If I had one wish, I'd wish for you.
No tears, no pain, just love that's true.
We'd laugh all night, you'd hold me close.
You wouldn't haunt me like a ghost.
My heart and mind remain at war.
You are everything I was searching for.
Accept, let go, things I should do,
But I'm never getting over you.
We'll pretend "goodbye" is "until then"
And I'll pretend you were just a friend.

I wish I didn't miss you
I wish I could be you,
Detached at the bottom of a bottle
Maybe then I could forget
Your warmth against my skin,
Your eyes burning into my soul,
Your laughter buzzing in my ears,
Maybe then I could give up

Splash splash, blood trickles down,
Big old boots in my heart stomping around.
A child in a puddle, you don't take care,
Or even notice the damage there.
I can barely breathe, and then you say,
"Why is it that you feel this way?"
Little girl, it's all a game.
Don't you know that love is pain.
I like you, I really do,
But you're not allowed to like me too.
What's that coming down your face?
Crying, that's such a disgrace.
Toughen up, you care too much,
But you're so pretty, can I touch?
Remember to avert your eyes.
Don't dare question any lies.
You've still got a lot to learn.
Girls like you were meant to burn.

You're a slow burn.
My eyes drink in the vision of you.
My heart races in my chest,
stealing my breath.
My mouth goes dry,
leaving me speechless.
I stare into your eyes,
fanning the flames.
I ache to reach across the distance that separates you from me.
So nervous that my hands want to shake.
So much desire built up from moments
that have yet to happen while I'm awake.

I can see it coming,
the phone call that will rip all of the joy from me, the pain that is going to spread through my chest like some kind of necrosis, eating me away. I picture your lifeless eyes and how they will never again look at me like I was something. Your warm skin will be cold like my world has become and summer will have died forever. The river of tears that will flow from my eyes will be the only sign left that there is any heart left in me. Yours will stop beating from the piles of poison you shove down your throat. You will destroy what is left of my coping and ruin me for anyone. You won't feel it when you pass, but I will, with every painful broken throb my heart beats for the rest of my life.