My room is a mess
Almost as messy as my head.
And I remain alone.

Alone
That seems to be my new home,
a place where I feel so uncomfortable
but can't escape

Home is where the heart is?
My heart is but a functioning *****,
Keeping me breathing,
And I don't see the need

I am a home bird with no home.

The world is in chaos
A disjunctive melody
But in there is music
Some sweet soulful harmony.

Listen, move closer
To the core, to the core.
Back to beginnings, see beyond
All uproar.

We are not better,
Superior, special.
We are equal to the world
That has held us.

I dreamt of you last night
I saw you on a train
You smiled like you understood,
You understood my pain

I woke up and you weren't there
I woke up
A dream is but a dream
And then my eyes they open
And your existence is but a spek of dusk
To the world

But not to me,
To me my world is altered
And I cannot start again
Life's definition
lost all meaning

You're heart still beats through mine

And I'll keep dreaming
I'll keep dreaming

Our bodies,
the shells that hold the our souls
The bond I've made
A bond so broken

It's so easy to disguise
my mind and my inside
Destruct and disapprove
I'm the one that loses

I'm the one inside
I'm not the face you see
That one of my creations
Through ways of hate
I treat

I live just about
I love others for myself
And I laugh to hide
The pain of what I have created

A monster that hold deep within
What I hide and what I've taken

It's too late now to seek
To find what I destroyed
There is no clean slate
There but to avoid.

Until you can't

What do you do when your broken
And your fix no longer exists
You look at the waves
And suddenly engulfed
Can't see beyond the mist

What do you do when you're lost at sea
What do you do when you just can't breathe
What do you do when you've lost all hope
Silence your sorrow, that's no way to cope

Dreams can come true
Nightmares can too
Close your eyes my darling
Don't watch your own world falling

Is it safe to feel nothing?
Is it safe not to feel?
Consumed and obsessed
by the fact this is real

No pride or pain
To hold or heal
A sense is lost
What's it to steal

You stole from me
A lifelong dream
of hope and warmth
I'm cold it seems

Frozen still
I'm frozen still
Time moves on
I hope I will