How heavy the days are.
There's not a fire that can warm me,
Not a sun to laugh with me,
Everything bare,
Everything cold and merciless,
And even the beloved, clear
Stars look desolately down,
Since I learned in my heart that
Love can die.

All just a bag of old bone ,
Rattling around in a rickety house.
Listening to the crickets ,cricket,
Bag O' bones .
waiting for the cricket to stop.

Yeah I like plants now..
I notice other peoples plants in their yard and find myself asking them one evening " what kind of plant is that?"  The conversation carries on and we talk about things I never cared about. Turns out, The things I don't care about are a lot more intersting than the things I do..  I decide to grow some roses in my front yard and they bloom in the spring and sometimes in the fall.  Turns out I have what they call a green thumb.. I have the most beautiful roses in town.. I find myself driving a lot slower.  Even when im in my Corvette.. I drive slow hoping this ride will last forever.. I use to drive fast everywhere.. But driving slow gets you there better..  Even if there is no place at all..  I find myself going to small towns more.. Just passing through makes my soul feel better.. Sometimes I stop and walk some random sidewalk.. Under the sun in some small town I have never been to.  So don't be scared to grow a plant, don't be scared to slow down, and don't be scared to go to a random small town.. Life is to fast.. Theres no need to try and get ahead of it.. Just ride with it and see a lot more even if your in one place..

She rides with the wind now,
Mounted on Gypsy Dancer
red wisps flying in the breeze
no longer hindered by this firmament
spirit and soul free at last to wander the gardens of heaven.
She rides the wind ,now untethered, no straps to hold her , free of the pains of knowing
She rides the wind now,
Mounted on gypsy dancer,sprigs of rosemary woven in her hair.
She will not forget she will not be forgotten

We went to the cabin
we built that bench we planned and talked about
A symbol of our life together
it should stand until we end

hate,
loneliness
to much forgotten
sadness
to much
we can't take anymore