Hello Linda,
I hope you are doing well
I hope that you lovely aunt
Is enjoying life, with its ups and
Downs, enjoying every single
second of it- life lovers-
able to breath-able to Dream
I am sitting, here thinking
Of our laughs, how our deviance
match, how our love for each
other, was rare, i feel blessed
Having you- Little Confessions
Shared Secrets- Mockery- Lovers
Smiles- Bad- Sad Days- Escaping Dad
How much we'd shared
It's aunty and niece Love
A Forever Love

Silence!
On Mute mode... There's no talking
It's a weight on who wants an
Answer...
When words cannot make a
change...
When peace is settled,
And the Self is
High...
In war time Silence
Is the building strategy
Time...
When the bleeding heart
Heals...
A Momentum of Inner
Glory...
Self- Realisation needing
Silence and Actions
You can Only be Silent
When Peace is the
Queen of Your
Heart!
Silence can only be searched for!
It can Only be Loved,
chased, run after, never touched...
Silence is Power!

Hard for me to confess
But for me, morning rhymes with
The hardship of life to be faced.
The morning brings to me a sense of imprisonment,
I am trapped into life which I can't escape,
But can only face.
Who says I want to do my morning chores today, who says I want to go to work today.
Millions of us are trapped into the obligations that the morning brings to us.
Morning, morning who says I wished for you to be this morning.
Only death shall deliver me from you.
Ugly morning did I call for you.
Morning means getting up and go to work
Getting up to go and face a court case,
Getting up and go out to look for a job,
Getting up to sign your divorce papers,
Gloomy morning for some of us,
Enthusiasm runs away when dawn points out for some of us,
Morning,
Some mornings my dad needed to face the hard reality that my mum passed away,
I was once in love and some mornings I woke up to face a breakup.
What does this morning brings to you
Hope or the illusion of it.

Your uniqueness is
Your voice
Your power
Your footprint on planet Earth!
Exploit it
Love it
Value it
I'm Unique
So You are!

Isn't life an exploration process!
I felt like the Universe demands me to explore it
Every atom made that could be.
And I am going to explore every
Rock
Sand
Clay
Cloud
Individual
Birth
and Death
With tremendous Love and Passion only
For who are we here humans
Just pilgrims
Of passage
Here on this earth
Only here for Day, Months and A bunch of Years
So Tell me to Explore
And I will reply to You
To Explore this Life as well
To live it Deep
With Love, Calmness and Patience
Explore with Love!

Laughs and sharing
Of what's tangible or not
An exchange of an eyesight or a smile
A cake, A sweet or Drinks
Disappearing after a simple misunderstanding
How
The Love was Not real
Because
Nothing Real Can be Threatened
and
True LOVE acclaims
For
Forgiveness

Trapped into you for years now
Emprisoned in a series of apparitions and disparitions only fate can forecast
Set me free, set me free
But it shall never be!
Encaged peacock me.

I have come to the consciousness that,
I still have some pages to fill,
That though I have locked myself in,
That I will have to go out,
And act being me.
You can't always flee,
Life will eventually throw you out in this,
Frightening, unknown and huge
Universe where you cannot flee.
You'll have to inhale and Exhale,
And have the courage to face
what Destiny has called for you to be,
Flee, Flee, Flee...
But how to flee or lock yourself in,
When the expression of the inner you,
Is to be out there and bearing the decision of having zero limit.
So I am breaking the shell,
Little by Little
And will soon re-Express
The real me.
Not letting them (the dark forces, the dark energies) to shut the spiritual
being, having a human a experience
down anymore.
I am light, connected to its creator,
The source of everything
And I can't be shut down!
I have pages to fill,
Onto them I will write how I'd love,
hate, win, conquer, fail, fall, soar
And the most crucial one, to succeed at finding my truest - self!

I feel less haunted today
Less like the Signalman
of Charles Dickens...
No More morbid thoughts
Less of the "Sheep In Fog"
of the beloved Plath...
Today,
is the Day of the Philosophy King,
I am the perfect leader of Plato
Reigning on my own world,
I am in my 50 Shades Lighter,
It is November and, I am
A Radiant Strong Flamboyant
Shining in the Day,
Resting at night in order
To shine the Next Day,
I have now a free mind
Like a free stage,
And the Ballerina is already dancing,
In a pink Velvet Dress!

I am a troubled woman
Sitting on a black chair
Drawing some strategies on the map of my life
Moving some pawns
From dark spots to white spots
From white corners to dark corners
Giving orders subtly to my credulous pawns
And I suddenly take the shape of a Baphomet
Making them do what contributes to my kingdom
I little mermaid Queen called Bahin Ji in my dreams
Is to execute these strategies
For I woman on my black chair
Can't allow my little self to fail
For the dream is too big
And the sky so high
And my beloved mother so down in her grave
So the moves need to be the right
Dark brain, sly mind
I advance and reign on my little plot of Land!

My comfort zone has evolved
My dynamic has altered
My air has renewed
My pace is skyrocketing
My goals are reached
Can't you see?
It's my shift
My skin looks better
They say my hair is thicker
That my skin is softer
That the girl gave place
To the woman
It's my shift
When my world gets wider
And my dreams draw closer
The whole Universe is speaking
"Clarencine shift!"
The 9 in the 2019
Is now giving birth to the greatness in
ME!!!
My Daughter's name shall be "Bloom"
And the meaning of my name
Shall stay "clarity"
And God says
You are the light of this world
&
The Salt of this Earth
Fearfully and Wonderfully made
Fully stepping into
MY SHIFT!

I realised after bouncing back that
It was too beautiful to be true
Too wonderful to last, so I sighed
The only thing I could do when you ended
All that made US, All that made you and I
 ONE
So, Only the nice pictures left, the pain feels
lighter, a little pinch in my heart is still here
But still more bearable and manageable now
It appealed so much like the "it  was meant to be"
     Perfect
The thing now was that, I hit a stage when I know
my worth and the reason why I could not insist was
that I was very much ready for someone who wants
To hold on to me, who is ready to receive all that
I could give, you were not ready, or wanted a pretense of
         Freedom
I cherished  this whole experience, of finally hitting
somebody that completes me, embellishes me, doing
everything to complete my happiness, I might be
writing these few words, so that in two or three years
these would be the words of, how I am feeling now
on this bizarre but still wonderful 1st of October so
   Quiet
You gave me joy and peace, and the very experience
only true lovers can go through, when midnight hits
And it's all I can take, the good and the great, how
could I take a piece of the cake that I am used to eat
       Whole
So, I walk away, I would not have given my friendship
To whom removes me, the so unique love I so asked
        For!

When your only Choice is to get up,
        When your only choice is to dry your eyes,
         When your only choice is to be strong,
         When your only choice is to swallow your pride
               and contain your words,
         When your only choice is standing straight,
      And When you Do all of that, that you have
          swallowed all your complaints and your grudge,
       You NOW Know That its UP to only you,
           To Design your Future and
                  Create the Life you want!

Shall you Lord of Heaven and Earth
Speak Greatness upon me
For I Clay
Desires your potter hands
To lay their sacred Power on me
Then shall You
Creator of what does not exist
Blow some Star powder
Upon me
Let me clay Now be
A little Diamond among the bees
For I am thirsty of your calling
Ignite the power of Love in Me
Emulating scarcely
the Passion of Christ
A Love ToTem
In the Immensity of this unmeasurable galaxy
I shooting star have laid wings in...
I am silently
Fire in the eyes
Awaiting for thee!

Stand strong, splash in the streams
Of water like a flash,
Letting it wash
Your pain
Like it has never been
Queen of Victory
Arise, Reign and Conquer
For New territories
And horizons
Are at sight
Wikolia!

I needed to inhale
And exhale
Deeply
Sometimes
In order
For me not to suffocate
Into this dark flowery pit
Which is life...

Dear Mother no sadness is left
I healed from your absence
In my hardship the second thought
Of if you were here things might have been different prevails,
But I healed,
Acceptance of your departure
Delivered me from the wrath
Of fate,
I lived your death anniversary
Like a normal day
I fixed the sea and now count the days
Surely the years,
To rejoin you,
On the other side!