i.
the other day i felt happy
today i feel empty
its like all my feelings drained out
and i tried to stop 'em
but they slid through my fingers
and seeped out
all gone...

ii.
i thought i knew who i was
but right now ive gone missing
an unknown soul
adrift in the world

iii.
on starlit nights, i look out the window
and cry into the darkness
i ask the universe who i am
and ask if it is calling
for i am here, answering

iv.
i still am lost
getting lost to not be found?

v.
its like a puzzle
some pieces are lost
but i am getting them back
...

I believe that everything we do affects the fate of the people around us and although it’s a daunting thought, it can be comforting at the same time: we have to take care of each other because our actions have consequences. When I’m in school, I think about a scene from the movie Amélie, where Amélie is watching television but she’s imagining that she’s a part of the television show. The man on tv says, “If Amélie chooses to live in a dream-world and remain an introverted young woman, she has every right to mess up her life.” That part gets to me, because I know it’s true.

I’ve been crying a lot and I’ve been feeling weird. I don’t understand why and I don’t know how to feel better. I’m just holding on. ♦

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hey, c

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huh?

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you know what people and sunsets have in common?

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no?

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they are the best right before they leave
and then they do
just like that
and never ever come back...

shapes shaping me
踊る

this blissful morning,
i woke up to birds chirping,
trees rustling,
bells resonating
across my bedroom.

how lovely nature is
like music to my ears.

the earth has music for those who listen.