Every action
and reaction

Level and endeavor

In the end
it's all just echoes
that reverberate forever
ever

Everything we know
and everything
we say and do

In the end
it's all just memories

and I'll remember you

just a pawn
changed my fate with five small steps
I am something else

Dissect a sentence and collect the nectar
Sift the syllables like a prospector
Weave a web of vectors and connectors
Dialectic effecters connect all sectors
Decks of detectors
Refractors and reflectors
Let the next generation necromancer
Reflect inflect project effect
a reverie
a revenant
an indirect electric spectre

my soul is electricity
it never stops
moving

if it did
it would fall
into the nothing
that everything is full of

and fill the void
with its

infinitely
deep emptiness

Filaments
Fine and thin
The more of them
The thicker the stem
Branching connections
Point back to their source
Laid out in ley lines of force
Everywhere the lines converge
They canonize a demiurge
And so delineate, unfurl
Electric visions
Of their world

We are all one shining soul
Made of shining stars
We are all so beautiful
Exactly how we are

The cosmos flowers and unfolds
An ever branching thyrse
Where each electron holds, enfolds
A little Universe

the heat of the day
blew the ashes away
the sparks and the flames
have returned

keeping fire deep inside
my silence was a lie
I can no longer hide
how I burn

It's hard to empathize with someone who does not empathize with you... but it's important.

Empathy
Shaking the monotony
Of soliloquy

ce Mercredi
après midi
ceux-ci sont les États-Unis

notre pays et sa genèse
c'etais dix-sept cent soixante-seize

rouge sur la rouge pour liberté
et pour la blanc l'égalité
le bleu a dilué le thé
notre version de la vérité

le monde reste mobile
et sur l'empire
le soleil se couche t'il

sometimes when I am under stress
it's not enough to do my best

and I distract myself from that
act like I can take back that fact

in fact I undermine my efforts
just to make myself feel better

always around people
because I can't feel when we're together

I'm out late
I'm with my friends

I'm tired of them
but I pretend

it's better than what's in my head
I burn the candle at both ends

I burn myself with limerence
and my mindlessness shines in a
bright line of afterimages

dead echoes of this emptiness

it was all for you
now that my heart is empty
who will it be for?

argue with myself
because I want more
and I got more
and still want it

what's the point of that?
control myself
until I run out of logic

look outside myself
my vices line up to tempt me

in my mind I know I've had enough
but I'm hungry
not hungry

empty

I am made of nothing
and the nothing I am made of is
empty

empty as the sky
empty as the light

I am empty

god has no mind
god rolls dice
no one knows me
no one sent me

and the light shines right through me
and it shows me
I am empty

My language is
A magpie's nest of
Shiny skyjacked mechanisms
A labyrinth, a mishmash
Of clashing competing components

Here and there
I wander the world
And recognize the shape of something
We took home
A thousand years ago

Melted and reformed
Bent and woven
Into our own
Piecemeal makeshift chrysalis
Our stolen home

your mind is like
a labyrinth
I want to understand

if I were a chirologist
I'd read it in your hand

if I were an astrologer
I'd read it in the stars

instead I read

between

the lines
to find out who you are

It really hurt my soul
To feel that I was not enough
To know that I was not enough
for you

But I guess no one was

No matter what you do
Nothing will ever be enough for you
Alone
A hungry ghost
I think that's punishment enough

I try too hard to hide the way
I struggle with this every day

they cannot see
what holds me back
because these walls
are made of glass

they think that I
am holding back

I try to use my logic
to put their anger into perspective

but sometimes I can't

I'm sorry I am not enough

sometimes I try to explain
the ways I try
that they can't see

I try
but I find out which friends
pretend they can feel empathy

sometimes that's been a shock for me

but maybe I know how they feel
I pretend that I can do
the things people expect me to

is that the way it feels for you?
is that the reason you pretend?

do you try to feel empathy?
are you ashamed because you can't?

if that's not something you can do
then I should not expect you to

I've seen what you're capable of

I'm sorry it was not enough

If there is only so much stuff
Then there can never be enough
And this is why we're all so rough
You can't survive if you're not tough

We scratch and scrape and strike and steal
Do anything for our next meal
We don't care if we **** each other
Fighting brother versus brother

There is only so much here
Crushed beneath our greed and fear
Humanity becomes garbled
War ants swarming on a marble

When we have trampled all our grace
There is always more in space
Mountains and oceans and dunes
Diamonds as big as the Moon

Wonders and riches untold
Moons of silver, stars of gold
All the elements on Earth
Strewn throughout the Universe

There's so much space, there's so much stuff
The journey will be very rough
But if we're clever, if we're tough
One day we might just have enough

a strange soft silence covers me like snow
like innocence still waiting to be spoiled
but just a little deeper down I know
there hides a solid mile of stone and soil

no tolling bell, no chime to mark the time
no clock, no metronome, no pendulum
only my silent mind that tries to mime
the illusion of equilibrium

in the Sun
I do not know who I am
who I have become

in the dark
I can feel its tangled roots
deep within my heart

so hard to erase this pain
I thought that this was who I was
and maybe it was who I was
when I thought I was not enough

can I write over my scars
I was right
I have a heart
I have the right to have a heart
that is a part of who we are

tear apart the tape
of all the hateful things I learned to say
behind my back and to my face
my lowest moments
on replay

how much of that can I erase
can I replace the thoughts I hate
with something whole

my blood runs cold

afraid I could erase my soul

I want to dance on the silver Moon
I want to look at the Earth
I want to fly far across the sky
And see what I can learn

I want to glide under miles of ice
In a quantum submarine
Diving and finding the kind of life
This world has never seen

Now what is that up on our left?
An ocean dragon with two heads
And on its shining scaly sides
A hundred eyes four meters wide

There's something moving on our right!
Sinuous shape black as the night
It seems to shimmer in and out
Shaped like a delta, shaped like doubt

A great shell rises from below
What lives within? Nobody knows
A Fibonacci spiral hides
Some mysterious beast inside

Deep in the darkness more silhouettes
Unearthly and obscure
So many more we have not seen yet
Of this we can be sure

We rise for the night back into the light
Of glittering golden rings
We dance on the ice of the silver Moon
And think about everything

The moons form a line all across the sky
And the Earth is in Scorpio
I admit I've never been that high
But one day I would like to go

I want to dance on the silver Moon
I want to look at the Earth
I want to fly through a bright black sky
Too beautiful for words

Evenstar
Did your valley
Bloom?
Did you blush in
Spring?

Evenstar
Did your forest
Dream?
Did your ocean
Sing?

this thing we call love
scares the **** out of me
I don't understand it
and I can't control it

I know about I
I don't know about we
I don't know who I'd be
if I ever found love

if I ever found love
I don't know what I'd say
I'd light up like the day
so bright

I think that you might
come to understand me
if we ever find love

goodnight

my love for you
has grown
deep into my soul

that's the truth

I want to climb it
high into the sky

and at the same time
I want to tear it out
by the root

I'm tired of playing the fool
waiting for you
wasting my youth
chasing you
lost in space
like a wild goose chasing the Moon

I'm tired of wasting my time
hating you
when I'm the one who keeps choosing to lose
choosing to water a vine with no fruit

but my soul has grown too
it has grown around you

and you are oh so close to the core
evermore
too deep for me to move

I hide my pain from a lot of people

I don't want to add to their problems

I am afraid to cry in front of my friends

I don't want them to see

the ways that I am broken

I want to be strong for them

So when they ask me how I am

I smile and say


"Everything is OK"


"Everything is OK"


"Everything is OK"



I tell the same lie

every day

There are some people
Who really seem evil
But I still love them
Because they are still people

everywhere I go
I leave pieces of myself
and receive others

Sometimes it isn't about
Whether other people like my poems
Or understand them

Sometimes it's just about
Being able to
Express myself

In a way that I can understand

if you think you're the smartest one
it's easier to be outsmarted

you go East for long enough
you'll end up West of where you started

some believe to be extreme
is what makes their position clear

but every single line we draw
is on the surface of a sphere

The wheel turns
Around me
I am still
Tranquil
In the
Eye

who are you?
who am I?
two reflections
eye to eye

out of time
out of control
staring into each other's souls

There is a cloud outside my window
It looks like a dragonfly
Or a faerie

In reality
It probably looks more like a creature

I have never seen

Wings lit up like jewels
By the light of
Some other Sun

every autumn
the same tree
changes shades
different leaves

tick tick tock
like a clock
each leaf falls
only once

one by one
every year
watch each leaf
disappear

and wait here
silently
different winter
the same tree

Far away we dream of you
In a sunbeam, in the blue
Far away we seem as one
How deep you dream
Beyond the Sun

I miss my family
and my friends
I am so far away from them

I hope I'll see them all again
next year

I am so lonely here

no matter in what
direction you look
after far enough
there is only light

You chased me through the labyrinth
All wound up in my head
And I was lost for far too long
Untangling the threads

I learned something valuable from you
But at what cost?
I have a soul again
But it is not the one I lost

No more fear

I say to myself

No more fear


Why am I

So afraid

Of fear

We create monsters
Because the one we fear
Has no face

A spider
Sailing through the sunny sky
Riding the weather

Floating down
Gently falling to the ground
Terrible feather

in town
I was surprised to see
the first pink blooms
a cherry tree

so pretty

I was not prepared

I stopped and smiled
I stood and stared

I have all these scary feelings
I wish I could understand
I wish I could control
but without them
I would have
no soul

♥

the algorithm is so random
I don't understand
what makes something trend

kind of like the real world
isn't it?

light a fire
and you will see
you are not alone
in this darkness

I had forgotten
day by day
there was a world beyond this labyrinth
until you lit a fire
and lit up a whole world of stars

a sea of half-remembered echoes
whispers through these halls
but in this darkness
I will walk through walls
just to follow the fire