I look through other people's eyes
it feels like I'm watching TV
until they look at me

instinctively
I freeze

reflected in

from the outside
upside down empathy

I am what I call I
and I am limited
bilateral
a labyrinth of memories
a galaxy of minerals

I am what I call I
infinitesimal
ephemeral
a dream of being separate
from all the other chemicals

I am what I call I
and I am living
biological
a symphony
of static electricity and molecules

but when I look behind
the many mirrors of my mind
I am the world
I am the sky
I am more than what I call I

I am god
you are god
and there is nothing more

it is all in our mind
there is nothing beyond

it is only a dream
it is mine
it is yours

and our souls
are like shadows
that dance on the wall

we are light
we are emptiness
we are the door

we are all
we are everything

nothing at all

we have not yet been born
we are already gone

this is all just a story
it already was

I move through this avatar
you move through yours

through the smoke and the mirrors
that almost seem real

through reflections
of how this illusion feels

the illusion of distance
that makes us feel lost

missing the oneness
that we forgot

we cling to this world
and forget to be god

sometimes we remember
and that is called 'love'

I am god
you are god
that is all that we are

your silence
moves me
further away from you
and closer to
him

I will resist
not for you
but for me

he
is poison

If I found love
then I would rest

set down my pack
lay down my head

clip my wings
and build a nest

I can't find love
I am too restless

So many demons
Have left             my soul
I   gave        them         away
To   the rest            of the world
I   shared        my shadows
With you                all
And they return
As wonder
As love

death is the shadow of life
the silent darkness
of the sky

falling
into emptiness
life is the revenant of death

revenge is
two men in a wooden ship
throwing lit torches

There must be thousands of stories
About people who ride dragons
I think I know why

The dragon represents
The deepest darkest part
Of the mind

If you are clever
If you are patient
If you are kind

You can ride the dragon
All the way
Into the sky

as darkness falls upon the Sun
the day is upside down

the Hunter holds the halo
in his right hand
like a crown


a ring of fire

hidden in the light

a shadow sign


draws down the night
into the sky
so darker stars may shine

slow river
silent, smooth as a mirror
shining with the sky

life is like a roller coaster
you know the track is broken
but you don't know where

it takes a lot of laissez-faire
to mean when you say
"I don't care"

there's no way to avoid disaster
and the roller coaster
goes faster and faster

it takes courage
to put all that aside

smile with your eyes
and enjoy the ride

I dreamed that I was
high up in an oak tree
white flowers like roses
on my left hand side
woven up like a vine
among the branches
I was
so still
peaceful inside

interdimensionnel
  infini                     éternel
                 ça gravite                               fusionnelle                 
une orbite                                    arc-en-ciel  
tous les ondes                                    rayonnant        
tous les mondes                               scintillant           
                    éternel                     comme espoir       
dans le ciel sacré-noir

Seal our soul and paint it gold
Dream a poem without words
Into what the future holds
Who will know what they will learn?

Spark the darkness like a storm
Silent sail a tide unbound
Hold our soul and keep it warm
Even when the Sun goes down

I cannot see beyond the waves
This does not mean I am afraid
For there are deeper storms than these
And I have sailed much darker seas

on the shrieking storming sky
a sailing bird of prey
rides the singing wind like hidden waves
to blow the crows away

A lot of people try to say
That people act so differently
Based on their gender, their birthday,
Their race, their nationality

And every time we think we've changed
We find that it's perennial
Same little boxes rearranged
What's up with these millennials?

We all say "We are not like you!"
They all say "You are not like us!"
This is something that we all do
Predictable, ubiquitous

But one day, we'll be seen as one
There will be no one else to blame
And they will look at what we've done
And say that we are all the same

we see how seeing seems
and we feel how we feel
how much is a dream
how much is real
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lost in illusion
to deep to be found
dreams within dreams
turtles all the way down

God is the creator
Power is its face

Life is the destroyer
That lays its world to waste

Inch by inch
Life creates life
From what it has destroyed

As God without a single thought
Obliterates the void

flowers flying on the breeze

sunlight dancing through the trees

ripples moving through a stream

strange that this is all a dream


symmetry and synchrony

entropy and empathy

can't believe how real this seems

strange that this is all a dream

this is my sanctuary
YOU cannot come in
I want to be alone
so I can be safe

I slam the door shut
in your FACE

strange shapes                          

shift past
                
                               stained glass

who is outside?
I become curious to know
I try to open the door

I am not strong enough

the door stays closed

I have walked the wide world
Searching for sanctuary
And at last I found it
Within myself

do we
collide

or

 fling             each            other

far

beyond
the Sun

I reach out
fingers pressed against the screen
can you feel the heat?

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We scroll and scroll and scroll
I wonder what was in those scrolls
And if we'll ever know
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I think I saw a diamond
Just a twinkle, just a flash
I do not know, I scrolled right past
Sometimes I think I scroll too fast
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Now it's all been said and told
The scrolls have all been read and rolled
Lo and behold
I did not understand
A single word

sometimes I am afraid
to put my thoughts down onto paper
how do I make something normal?
how do I make something good?

afraid what I create
will turn out just as flawed as I am
just as morally ambiguous
as dimly understood

the need to be oblique
about how I'm unique
a freak

tangles the thread of thought so thoroughly
I am afraid to speak

I find
repressing my own mind
and second-guessing every confession

self censorship that slices
like a scythe
into my writing's spine

hidden knowledge
second sight

infrared
lower light

feral heat
that burns you bright

in the snake pit
of the night

take a chance
take a guess
take over the world
take away people's money
so they can't survive

sometimes you have fire
machetes and knives
sometimes tell the truth
and sometimes you can lie

solve a maze
solve a riddle
remember the code

stay in the middle
stay on the road

sometimes you defend
sometimes you attack
sometimes you live once
and sometimes you come back

go alone
or with friends

make a move
make a plan

make a knight
or a queen
when you get to the end

save the ship
save the girl
save the score
save the world

all the same game
but there's more than one way to win

I taught myself to read
to understand other people
to feel empathy

I taught myself to see how they feel
to understand why they believe
what they believe

I taught myself to dream
a world where I could be free

I taught myself to be me

I taught myself that
it's OK to learn
OK to burn
OK to scream

I taught myself that it's OK to curse
OK to be worse than someone else on the team

I taught myself to forgive monsters
and the hard world that sharpened their teeth

I taught myself that
everyone cries
everyone lies
everyone dies
everyone deserves to be alive
even me

but the idea that I deserve to be loved
completely
is still just out of reach
for some reason
that's the hardest idea for me to teach

like Heaven
it's something I wish
I could just close my eyes and believe

it's not that easy

but I WILL find a way
one day

you'll see

deep in this
latticework of consciousness
learn what darkness is

Serendipity
Sail across a silent sea
Starry and serene

Not long ago did someone see
A golden serpent in a tree
A raven took the snake away
But evermore its shadow stays

everyone
runs from the Sun
trying to chase their shadow away
sometimes they might chase you too
if you look like their shadow
or get in their way

when they see their demons in you
hidden desires
a fall from grace
they take up arms to drive away
the silhouette of their own face

caught in the middle
of an epic battle

one soul
but I cast two shadows

one wants pleasure
the other pain

feathered wings
and an iron chain

one tells me
to take and take

one tortures me
until I break

one tells me
I can't get enough

one tells me
I am not enough

I do not know
which one is wronger

they only make
each other stronger

and I see
my true soul under

shadows falling
on each other

senselessness
clever the nevertheless
evanescent guess

On the outside
I am the same
But deep inside
My soul is
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Sometimes a poem
Sparkles like a broken mirror
And you can see reflections
Scattered like blood diamonds
Of the sharp places
In someone else's soul

.                  black and white                            I am twilight                  
    and night and day                            I am grey          



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  heaven and hell                       shells within shells
                   earth and sky                                who am I?                       .

Would you be so
surprised to find
what I am hiding
in my mind

or would that light
shine through to show
that same shadow
on your own soul?

Shine a light
Don't let the darkness
Fill your heart with fear

Through the dark
A candle flame
May shine a million years

Shine a light
And you do not know
What you will inspire

One day
A single candle may
Light the whole world on fire

O if I could share my soul
My inner light with you
But I know we share one soul
And this is your light too

O if I could share my stars
And let them shine on you
But we are made of the same stars
And you are shining too

her eyes are
full   of  fire  bright
shining   golden   flame
her mind wanders  into
the   night  shining
all the same

There are things
I do not show
You can see them
In my shadow

Parts of me
I can't escape
Where my shadow shows
My true shape

I am in a dark place
Show me the light
And lead me home

our inner light
woven
across the sky

the hidden constellation
of the mind

when we connect the stars
in our eyes

wonder if everyone
can see the sign