we are here
in time and space
together
sharing this strange place

where did we come from
will we return
who sent us
and what were we sent here to learn?

do I or don't I
yes or no?
maybe it's better not to know
there is freedom in the dark
one look into my soul
could collapse the
waveform

sometimes I spend too much time
online
it feels so strange
to go outside
and be myself
in front of everyone else
it's hard to forget
that the world has eyes

online I can be anyone
but outside I am one person
exactly one
no avatar and no veneer
not everywhere or nowhere
exactly here

and when I am here
really here
I feel my feelings
hope and fear
love and desire
when I am not numbed by a screen
I am on fire

sometimes it is
too much to feel
too visceral
too bright
too real

and so I spend my time online
afraid to be a human
afraid to be alive

.  
     two        vines    
  wrap          around
each          other
and     grow
together
into
one new
life     form
as                 if
they           had
never         even
known       life
without one
another

I am not                      
        deep like                         
the sea              
shallow    
                       like a              
                                                 ­                   rainbow                                       ­                                                                   I am a            
                                                                ­                wild river          
                                                                ­                      I move       
                                                     ­                        mountains           
                                                                ­    that I follow                     
                                                     standing stones                      
                                                   like broken bones                                
                           ­               show me where to go                          
                                    ­    deep within my soul I know                     
                           the       ocean      is     my      home

if I had a child
I would be afraid
of leaving them alone
with anyone
even me

something could go wrong
there are a thousand ways how

I can see it now

I would always be
afraid

who are you?
who am I?
two reflections
eye to eye

out of time
out of control
staring into each other's souls

fire in the sky
sign from the gods
time forever moving on
some imagine the night beyond
some dance in the light of the setting Sun

one day I will wish
I had told you how I feel
but I think you know

life and death
create     destroy
different name
the same game

everything
real         alive
all must play
to survive

tiger
in a cage

I walk right up
to you

and look you in the eye
without fear

do you wonder why?
or do you understand

the courage is not in my heart

it is in the glass

shining in our eyes
ancient mystery

the silence of the sky
and the slow dance of the sea

learning to ask questions
great eagle taking flight

finding light to guide our way
deep into the night

messages
reaching into the darkness
like a seventh sense

✽             ✽
a chemical bond
✽   undeniably strong  ✽
can't ignore what I want
 ✽   miss you like                
an electron
✽             ✽

tell me if this bridge is real
or only something
that I feel

will I cross over
to my goal

or under
to the void

below?

what if
your wild roses are
the thorns in my heart

everyone
runs from the Sun
trying to chase their shadow away
sometimes they might chase you too
if you look like their shadow
or get in their way

when they see their demons in you
hidden desires
a fall from grace
they take up arms to drive away
the silhouette of their own face

Can you imagine how insane
it would be
if we

Got everything we wanted?

Good thing
it's just
a

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no one in the airport chapel
which god?
no one there to ask
reading
and eating an apple
all alone without a mask

not quite the intended purpose
not on the surface at least
while I found no One to worship
still
I found myself at peace

stay
stay on this plane
stay in the pain
don't run away

be tough
never give up
courage
my love
you are enough

no
please don't let go
stay here
don't go
I'm here
I know

I pray
all through the day
to keep your heart safe
I hope you will
stay

I know the things I need to change
but I don't have the power yet

I want to be a charioteer
but I feel like a marionette

now every day I take small steps
and train my brain with little things

so one day I will have the strength
to break the strings
and take the reins

I am so afraid to fall
that I do not let myself fly

I say to myself
"I can't do it"
but I never really tried

too far up
too close to the Sun
I cling to the Earth
trembling

how much courage
will it take
for me to learn
to trust my wings?

the cold despair
of an unrightable wrong

and the bright golden hope
of a songbird at dawn

the doubt of the wanderer
in the dark night

and the faith of the flower
that turns to the light

the anger and pain
of a deep trust betrayed

and the closeness and safety
that true love has made

sometimes it seems
the whole world sings
a single song

about these things

the real me:
am I what I cannot change?
who I choose to be?

this poem isn't about you
I don't know how I feel
I'd rather write about the Moon
or something else that's real

or how the rising tide can be
a metaphor for change
or something deep
beneath the sea
mysterious and strange

but will I turn away from you
in silence and control
or write the shining sky into
a mirror for your soul?

with every single word I write
the lie becomes less true
to shout into the night
"This poem isn't about you!"

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watch your step
don't rock the platform you've been given
choose your words
like you deserve
to blindly serve the algorithm

when you do bad things
I forgive you

when you show weakness
I don't judge

although sometimes
I get angry

still I do not
hold a grudge

your imperfections
make you special

your problems
make me want to help

and it is true
that I love you

the way I wish
I loved myself

you are like a well
when I fall into you
my sky becomes so narrow
I can only see one sign

just this once
can I not run
from a safe haven
full of hope
into a den of beasts?

why do I look for that?
am I afraid of peace?

in the dark water
a shining light
is it the Sun
or the eye
of some

monster of the deep

I tell myself that I hate you
deep down I know that isn't true

the truth is that I am afraid
of a love sharper than a blade

the things I hope and feel and want
are not so easy to confront

so I conceal my pain and fear
with anger
like a steel veneer

the day dances
the day sings

   ◂ ⋄‥‥‥‥‥◭‥‥‥Ω‥‥‥◮‥‥‥‥‥⋄ ▸  

the night wanders
the night has wings

for you
I would have
never stopped hoping

I'd have followed you into Hell
with my eyes open

and now I don't know
the way to follow
far from your shadow

but I am coping

life is like a roller coaster
you know the track is broken
but you don't know where

it takes a lot of laissez-faire
to mean when you say
"I don't care"

there's no way to avoid disaster
and the roller coaster
goes faster and faster

it takes courage
to put all that aside

smile with your eyes
and enjoy the ride

I want to

T    E    A   R

you from my heart



but the roots have grown so deep



I'm scared it would

T    E   A    R

me apart

I dream about
the future
but I'm
only a wave
in an ocean of time

we do not know
the sky but
we are
one island in
an ocean of stars

If I found love
then I would rest

set down my pack
lay down my head

clip my wings
and build a nest

I can't find love
I am too restless

If I had all the money in the world
I wonder if the gold would lose its shine
And like King Midas I would lose my touch
Much like a hungry ghost unsatisfied

This is our nature
Always wanting more

More money, time, achievement, power, love
And the man with the whole world in his hands
May find there is no such thing as enough

Who are we now?

Still as we once were
Older and wiser
Are we the same?

Who are we now?

Are we together
Was it forever
Or just a game?

Who are we now?

Born of the ashes
Sing in the darkness
Dance in the flames

Who are we now?

Echoes of laughter
Hope you remember
More than my name

I have all these scary feelings
I wish I could understand
I wish I could control
but without them
I would have
no soul

♥

all this joy
and all this pain
all the things we think and see
all this hope and
all this love

vibrations and energy

all this madness and confusion
written by some inner hand
we have woven this illusion
all that we can understand

what if we could see beyond
what our perception is concealing?

Earth is moving
time is a dimension
color is a feeling

what if we could move beyond
all the things we think and see?
what would happen to our souls
if we could know
reality?

habits formed across my mind
step by step by step

always looking for the path
looking for the way

back and forth and back and forth
even as I slept

my path is the one I make
day by day by day

I let you get
so close to me
⏵so close⏴   and yet     ⏴so far⏵

apart

I brought you here
to guard the door
so no one else
could touch my
⏶

⏴    heart    ⏵

⏷

The truth is hate is not the death of love
Instead it burns love's heart from pink to red
And love becomes a savage primal thing
        Unholy                                             ­     
           Animal                            
                       Alive                  
                             Undead
             The gentle warmth of love becomes a fire        
That turns it to a monster in the light
And burns the tender feathers from its wings
Which cast their demon shadow
On the night

I don't want to tangle you
up in words
my friend

teach me silence
teach me patience
teach me to pretend

I saw your soul in chains
you looked at me
just like *******

did you take me
for pleasure
or to take away the pain?

sometimes it is
almost obscene
how clearly I
say what I mean

sometimes my words
are so oblique
I might as well
not even speak

and when I give
the truth away
then that is all
I have to say

but where my mind
seems undefined
there's truth in why
I blur the lines

bite the hand

that bids us lie

through our teeth


try to take our words away


we will speak

your soul
is like a vine    
that has                  
twisted                        
itself            
  around
                my heart
                               so many times            
that I can't even
        say how I feel                                    
   anymore                                
and even if            
        I could express
                   my feelings    
       in one
cogent
form      
I have to      
     ask myself
                     what kind of fruit      
                            this union would bring forth

I am always so afraid
that I will go the wrong way

doubt in every step I take

every moment
every day

in the middle of the night
I wake and am consumed by fright

imagining I will be harmed
or that my room is full of bombs
or poison gas
or murderers

I leap from my bed in alarm

it takes some time to become calm

and find myself in dreams again
chased through the streets by evil men
or hiding from the government
a monster
or a hurricane

or just trying to take a test
I know that I can never pass
because I cannot concentrate
or arrived to the class too late

It never ends

There's no escape

I wish that for one single day
I could live my life without fear

No ticking clock
No voice of doubt
No visions of disaster

But the world is turning
It is burning

Faster and faster

And it is clear

We are all afraid
to be
here

I am so afraid
to leave

the only place I know

to let you
lead me to the light

The darkness is my home