Ciel Noir

Ciel Noir Oct 2023

Again

hey     again
it's me     again
I did a stupid thing     again
I didn't stop to think     again
I fell and broke my wing     again

hey     again
today     again
I faced the sky and prayed     again
it's not that I believe     again
it's just that I'm afraid     again

hey     again
I'm sad     again
I don't want to pretend     again
so I reach out my hand     again
and get strength from my friends     again

hey     again
I'm fine    again
I think it's time to try     again
I think I'll be alright     again
I'm strong enough to fly    again

Ciel Noir Sep 2023

Read

vandalize my mind
with layer over layer of graffiti
I repeat it and repeat it
until no one else can read it

ciphers in my system
speaking in my sleep
ink in my blood

very little still remains
of the blank slate
that I once was

Ciel Noir Sep 2023

Samsara

flowers flying on the breeze

sunlight dancing through the trees

ripples moving through a stream

strange that this is all a dream

symmetry and synchrony

entropy and empathy

can't believe how real this seems

strange that this is all a dream

Ciel Noir Sep 2023

The Night

O my heart
the night is dark

bless my soul
the night is cold

Look up!
the sky is full of stars

I have never felt such hope

Ciel Noir Sep 2023

Watching

cut my claws
cover my teeth
monster watching
underneath

innocent on the outside
darling
look into my eyes

Ciel Noir Sep 2023

God of Death

I do not know who or what else
but our god is a god of death
who built us all to stumble
built the Universe itself to crumble

from our viewpoint
we who perceive time
as a moving arrow

ours is a god of falling dice
of falling sand
of falling sparrows

the children of entropy
the stones and trees
the Moon
the sea
the air in every breath
and even we ourselves are born of death

we fear for everything we are
in fear we walk
as fallen stars

tremble before the night beyond
tremble before the face of god

Ciel Noir Sep 2023

Illusion

some light is reflected
some light shines right through

I am the illusion
of not being you

we see our own soul
and not what really is

we walk in the shadow
of all that exists