she cannot speak
except to growl
to howl
to moan
to shriek

her words
her world
are meat and bone
eyes and thighs and teeth

she races like a wolf
through her sleep
she chases dreams
schemes
pieces of memories
like sheep

I reach out
with my words

does she understand me?

I feel her snarl
across my teeth

life runs deep
and talk is cheap

I have also crawled

Claw on wall
Out of that place

Let me light your way

you hate people
with your whole heart
for what they say
not what they do

you say
I have to hate them too

why is hatred so important to you?

in town
I was surprised to see
the first pink blooms
a cherry tree

so pretty

I was not prepared

I stopped and smiled
I stood and stared

I know we want
to get revenge
but wouldn't we
be just like them

get back at them
talk smack at them
react
and turn our backs on them

this is how everybody thinks
this is how everybody sinks

there is no balancing
the scales

this is how everybody fails

I dreamed that I
was on the Moon

I looked into the sky

where the Sun shined
through ink black night
by the Capricorn sign

and near the Sun
in perfect haunting blue
so still and bright

I saw our world
up in the sky
with all the other lights

I felt it all
to see our planet
so far and so small

I felt that I
was in the sky
I felt that I could fall

with a jolt to the solar plexus
I thought to myself

"That is the Earth
where I belong

and I am somewhere else"

my mind is empty
my heart is full

I love my family and my friends
I sense a new journey about to begin

I am at the balance point