Oh how I weep when you say my name
You are the blood that spills from my veins
They're so hallowed you see
Drained of all its life
like a ******* mosquito
laughing as it feeds  
© 2013 Christina Jackson

Those ivy vines wrapped tightly around my mind
Won't you let go? Have you no decency to shut the door this time?
Invading my every notion, those words trapped me in a spell
A potion set in motion, a chemical reaction
Then ****, you will appear. Now won't you just disappear?
Politely excuse yourself from my realm of thoughts
Cause you know, I have doubts'. A swirling catastrophic
mountain of them raining down on me. Flashing clearly
of warning signs. Do not enter, do not enter this mind
Proceed with caution, for fear of what you might find
An imprinted impression of fluent atrocities, dripping
leaking with regret and remorse, for what I cannot forget.
Similar to a slowly seeping tea bag, letting me taste little
by little, but never too much, all at one time.
© 2013 Christina Jackson

Have I imagined you all along?
You were there but you
weren't there
your words and my words
mixed within the currents
your heart and my heart
I'd like to uncover
the mysterious messages
that made me reappear
your eyes my eyes
begin to fear

But a dream is just a dream
if only one person dreams
the dreams to be real
And an ache is just an ache
if only one person has
wounds to heal

Did I imagine you dear?
between the lines
I thought were so clear

Have I evaded this reality
and summoned you here?
I couldn't have dreamt you
for it was all too real

The mind such a deceiving
playground
Through the looking glass
awaits an eternity to be revealed

I thought your eyes were my eyes
my heart was your heart
your words were my words
and I was ****** into the abyss

Pulling out the nightlights
shutting in the daylight
as the sun melts into my mind

A lonely ghost
walks these empty
dark and dreary roads
penetrating the dreams
of this hopeless vulnerable abode
© 2013 Christina Jackson

I wonder what birds feel like
the moment before they spread their wings.
I imagine it's something like the way I feel
when I'm about to go down that first plummet on the roller-coaster
Your stomach drops, your heart beats faster, your eyes open wider
Suddenly you're free falling, going faster,
you can't control the ride.
Your feet no longer on the ground, and you're
screaming at the top of your lungs to come down
But you can't, you can't, the ride isn't over yet
So you grip the handles as tight as you can
Scream a little louder
and hope for the best
But you've never felt more alive, and
In that moment, just before the ride is over
and you're nearing the last loop
You finally realize this is what the birds feel like
when they've taken that final leap before they soar!
© 2013 Christina Jackson

I've always been a **** up
The black sheep with no luck
I've always been afraid
of the things I didn't understand
I've always been the reject
the one with messed up hair
plain black kicks
I wore baggy jeans
miss-matching socks
I just didn't give a ****
I've always been invisible
until I opened my eyes
Realized I was the master
cloaked in disguise
I've always been quick with the pencil
The grammar, the words, the lines
My rhymes, an ever flowing river
Sick, sicker, than the eyes that reside
deep down, buried inside
And I always loved the boys
until I was used as a toy
Got the **** beat out of me
for no ******* reason
But I'm still here, still breathing
and you can't get rid of me.
I always thought I could fix my own problems
I used to drown the anger, the sorrow, in a bottle
***** bottle, pill bottle, rolled up joints of marijuana
All through my lungs, my veins, my brain
My liver, my stomach, torn up; Trust me, I know pain
I've always been the one with patience
You thought you could just crumble me up
throw me away
But I won't go away
I've always been the one who's waited
waited for the right moment
When I should have told you, just **** it
All the laughing, all the tears
Well I've waited, and waited
and my time is finally here
Those words didn't break me
Those words ******* made me
You can never take that away from me
Look at me now
I came, I saw
I conquered
I WON
© 2013 Christina Jackson