Reminiscing about you
Oh the things that we used to do
I will never forget
So brief the time’s we shared
But nothing was more beautiful
Nor did any moment that followed
Feel as right as when I was in your arms
Two years have passed
since I've felt your embrace
I can still remember
the way that you taste
So vividly a picture
Forever lost in my mind
I will never forget
How we felt when we traced
Every outline of every shape
we had ever graced
Such magical moments
Our bodies so perfectly entwined
How remorseful of me
That ever aching thought
that “we” could ever be
It was selfish of me to think
You would actually choose me
I really hope your life is now filled with joy
No matter how far you are
or wherever you go
You’ll always be dear to my heart
My only hope is that you haven’t
forgotten what we were.


© 2012 Christina Jackson

At night I sit and ponder
It leaves my mind only to wander
I miss you, how I miss you so
I don’t know where you went
Or where you’ve roamed
These days just don’t seem as bright
Without you by my side
Deep down I’m crying, dying
I miss you oh how I miss that smile
Time and space exceeds this place
Bless your troubled soul
I’m with you wherever you go
If you’re out there
I hope you can hear me
As the day’s fade on
Don’t worry
I won’t forget our wrongs
I'll always remember our rights
I won’t forget those alcohol-induced nights
Forever I'll remember the laughs we shared
I miss you, oh how I miss you so
How I wish I could make things right
I’m so sorry about that night
You never even knew
What it is you had coming to you
Your heart slowly stopped
And so graciously you went
I think a part of me died
When you left us here that night
I’m so sorry I couldn’t help you
I’m so sorry I couldn’t fix your strife
The world was just too much
For you to face
Each and every day
Oh how I wish I could see you
Just one last time
Always at odds
You couldn't handle all your flaws
Can you hear me? can you hear my calls?
I wish you didn’t have to go
So many things you've missed
Numerous memories I'll never know
We didn't get to celebrate
I'm finally an adult
I can order a drink and toast my love to you
I just know you'll be so proud
When you see me in my cap and gown
Don't you worry dear
You have nothing to fear
I hope you see Jerry and Jim
Both smirking with a devious grin
I miss you, oh how I miss you so
I'll keep you locked within my heart
Until the day I part

In loving memory of my wonderful cousin Josh
© 2012 Christina Jackson

Wound so tightly in my grasp
Forever within heart’s clasp

Your love is ever lasting
My smile it’s quickly masking

The deepest depths of my cries
Oh how I hurt inside

I'm trembling
Trying to find the right words to say

Love, just arms reach away
Oh how I wish you could stay

This sorrow, so gently placed
My eyes widen with dismay
...........If only
If only you could stay


© 2012 Christina Jackson

Once a lover, once a friend
I don’t know why I love you
Or when this began.
But, every time I look into your eyes
I try to hold back my painful sighs
I tried to speak to your heart and
Quickly learned our demise
I know you’re scared, I am too.

You needn't be afraid
Maybe it’s too late, to express how I feel
It would be a lie, if you said this wasn't real.
The days and nights we spent were clear.
They were filled with love, and filled with fear.
And now I must apologize to you dear
I Left without a word, nor a trace
I’m so sorry you can’t find me in this place
I’ve been lost far too long
For you to sing me your song

© 2012 Christina Jackson

A thousand days
I have walked

A thousand nights
I have pondered

A thousand days
I have wandered

A thousand days
A thousand nights
I have waited
To feel like I'm home again.

© 2006 Christina Jackson