Family? Not really.
Criticism is all they give me.
They rip at my flesh and tear at it until all you can see my bones.
I am open to new wounds.
I'm vulnerable to everyone including myself.
I rarely get complements.
And affection.. well I don't remember the last time we hugged.
It hurts to know that my relationship with my family is slowly fading away.
I know my life isn't the worst, but it isn't the best either.

When you told me it was over I still had hope
I had no idea that it was the end of something that just got started

When you told me it was over I felt my stomach cave in
I felt a sword slide through my chest

When you told me it was over I cried
I collapsed as I read a text message where you said why

It took months to recover from your electronic words
Finally today I have erased you from my life

No longer do I hold onto the words that you have said
How you loved my eyes and that we should lay together in bed

You said that you felt warm, calm and safe when you were in my arms
So why did you ever leave them and go out into the scary world

Why did you go and hurt me just because you were hurting
Yes put yourself first, but there are nicer ways to say goodbye

Cold glances from across a room of silence was all I got
But today I burned the house you build in my head I tore it to shreds

You took how good I was to you for granted
Buying you random gifts and opening the car door

Just know you might never find someone like me again
Someone who would only ever support you and hold your hand
All I wanted to ever do was hold your ******* hand
Was it that hard to believe that someone could love you

Was it hard because you are so broken
I was the glue, but you didn’t know that I was strong enough to hold you together

All I ever wanted was for you to open up
And all you ever did was shut me down and close me up

Out of order
Out of service

When I got very sick you weren’t there
When you were upset I was always there

You claim to be so caring, but it’s all in your head
You don’t know the first thing about love and what a shame I said

If you did you would have noticed the scars on my arms
And the bruises all over my body

You would have seen how my smile fades so quick
And heard all the fake laughs

All you cared about was yourself
So thank you for leaving me

I hope you get better soon
I hope you learn to treat your next girlfriend with love and respect

My biggest fear,

is nothing that one will hear.

For it is a cry,

and a "I don't even want to try."

I fear getting hurt,

because you are a big flirt.

I keep my head low,

for I can not take the blow.

When I'm sad please know,

that you should just stop being a ***.

If I take a knife
and place it into my heart
would you even care?

She was the sun and I was the moon
I tried my best to keep up but she kept on moving
She didn't have a moment to stop and breathe
I chased after her trying to catch a glimpse of her beauty
She stumbled but always pushed forward
I followed her running around the Earth
She didn't have a moment to stop
I fell in love with her and with the chase

Sunday March 26th 2017
01:36
Hold my glare for a minute more
Touch my lips and pull me close
Scratch my back until I bleed
Heaven wasn't made for people
like you and me

Thursday March 30th 2017
22:37
If only you could see how beautiful you are in my eyes...

21:44
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I would love to roll over in bed,
My face next to your head.
Staring into your beautiful eyes,
As I touch your inner thighs.
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I was never warned about the beautiful girl I would one day meet.
I wish I knew that she would sweep my off my feet.
Her smile her eyes everything feels so right.
Whether she is my soulmate as a lover or friend.
I want her in my life forever.

I see his face every night before I go to bed.
That’s why I’m so tired. I can’t sleep because the nightmares make me toss and turn. I just want it to go away; I want my memory erased.

Tuesday April 4th 2017
22:22

I could just stop talking
and
no one would even notice.

Sometimes
The
Simplest
Things
In
Life
Are
The
Most
Beautiful
Thin­gs
We
Will
Ever
Come
Across

I want to make everything disappear.
Will you help me my dear?
Fly with me and let's see,
Everything that we can be.
Be my light and show me the way,
To a place we call space.