My fingers typed in your name before my brain had a chance to realize
I clicked on your profile, the picture the car you drove daily
And before I knew what I was doing I had already scrolled through
Unable to control myself, I read through your posts
Seeing your new girl
Seeing how happy you were
Seeing that you were living your Happily Ever After

“We’re two sides of the same coin”
Says the “villain” as the “hero” saves the day
But who’s the real villain of my story?
What if I were both sides of my coin?
Hate
Depression
Bitterness
Scoring the back
Empathy
Pep
Loyalty
Stamped on the front
For I am Gemini Man —the hero and the villain
Fighting myself and the world

I want you to Hold me Here,
On the Westside

I want you to tell me I can Rise Above This,
I'm your Sunflower

You make sure there's No More Bad Days
Just Blinding Lights

And Time after Time,
I Can't Help Falling in Love

I had a dream last night
You told me I was just way too much

I said I'm so very sorry
Please don't leave me to cry in the dust

I never meant to hurt you
I hate myself for ever telling you my story

You deserve so much better
Please don't let me fill your head with worries

Maybe it's for the best,
I'll let go of you and let you get some rest.

I never have a steady stream of inspiration
I rarely see things worth writing about anymore
But every now and then
I look at the stars and wonder
“What if..?”

I wish I had someone
Someone to hold and share a blanket
As we look up to the stars
Listening
Living

I need to say something
But it can’t be said
Words fail to describe... me
And so I sit in pain
Knowing I’ll never be seen
Warts and all

I’ve become removed from reality
Lost in worlds where monsters roam free
Some slain and some caught and enslaved
Some worlds where magic destroys the world
But regardless
I’m losing my grip on reality
The outside world fading from view
And soon it will be too late to come back
Shame
I kinda liked it here