I didn't know you were depressed
really honestly look into my eyes
does this look like happiness to you
its funny how a smile can hide everything
its fake I don't really mean it
I just didn't want anyone to know            
that I am hurting,dying,suffering and that I can't take it anymore
honestly everybody feels that way once in a while
but some always feel that way and they can't stop it
it's controlling and dark
it makes you feel sad and lost
but then at some moments it makes you feel comfortable
like it's your only friend
part of you wants it gone and wants to get better
then there's another part that wants to hold on
that enjoys the pain
that misses it
their tricked,scared,and lonely
they feel that it is their only friend
the only one that cares
the only one that wont leave
and so they stay

My mind is always a far cry from sanity.

It's moments like these that I remember the way it was... The heavy burdens on a poets soul protected by a shield of light...

We were like trees...
Outside we were tough
Seen as just a bunch of kids
Fooling around, having fun
All without a care in the world
But inside,
Beetles tore through our veins
Eating away at our sanity and
Our minds.
We were all crumbling apart inside.
No longer were we innocent angels of heaven.
Now we were the tortured Nephilim,
Forsaken, clawed, vicious
For blood,
For secrets,
For each other's hearts.