Tell me...
Why can't I find what others have found?

Why hasn't that "someone" arrived yet?
The person that I will cross paths with; not by accident but by destiny
The person that will come into my life to stay
The person that will adore me with every bit of their heart
And show me that love is not conditional?

Here obsessing over celebrities and singers that don't even know I exist

In love with fictional characters that are only part of a story

And falling for strangers I won't ever see again

When you looked at me maybe your pupils didn't dilate

And maybe when you looked at me you didn't
feel that rapid heartbeat in your chest  

But the lack of affection didn't break me down

It was my extremely high levels of adrenaline and dopamine
I got everytime I was with you that turned me into a cadaver

Some people smoke
Some people drink
Some people do drugs
And others fall in love

They all die in different ways

Promises are lies
They're never guaranteed
Because
Promises are never... promised.
But somehow, we still choose to believe in them
Because it's the only thing we can hold onto
That gives us a small ray of hope
That promises made
Will be promises kept.

Maybe it's true
That someone won't cross the sea for me
Walk through fire for me
Or fight for me...

But that's okay, cause I have myself
And I'm the only person that I ever really need

I saw her one day, at school
She was absolutely gorgeous and I was too shy
She looked like a model while I just loved to eat all day and all night
I knew I had zero chance with her, but I decided to give it a try

I approached her at lunch, I said "Hey"
She smiled and started a conversation
I couldn't have been happier that day

We started hanging out together since then
But my spirits dropped when a guy much more 'fit' tried to win her heart
And one day when we were  talking he came up and asked her to be his girlfriend

I could feel tears coming out of my eyes
But of joy not sadness because she said
"Oh sorry. I'm dating this guy," and pointed to me

Later when we were alone she confessed that she liked me
I asked her "Why? I'm just curves, the kind people don't wanna see"
She said " I don't care what you look like, because I care for what's inside
Besides, there's only

One                                           Me
        
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                  ­That      Matters

You always want to know how my day has gone
You try to make me laugh when I'm down
You tell me how you want to be with me all day long

You ask me how I am every single day
You say you love all of my imperfections
Nothing else screams "I love you" more than your subtle ways

And I really appreciate all that you do for me
But the sad truth is
As hard as I've tried, I just can't love you as much as you love me

She loved him.
He loved her.

So why did it end?

Because love and compatibility are not the same thing.

Everyone sees jealousy as a bad thing...

I think it's kinda nice that someone really wants to spend with you and only you.

He already forgot me
It's time I do the same

At the end of the night
He held my hands
He looked deep into my eyes
And outside his car under the moonlight

He said, "I love you."

I was shocked, surprised even
I had no words, I was speechless
He was a person I did not want to lose
But my heart began to melt, because as I looked down at my shoes

I realized I couldn't say those three words back

Why is it that the nights fill me with sadness?

Lately I have lacked a great deal of inspiration to write...
Why is it? Why can't words flow in my head? Is this even right ?

It is said that a person picks up a pen when they're falling in love or their heart has shattered...

So what if one day went awry?
Many more suns will rise
Many more moons will shine...

"I can't," he says.  
"What can't you what?"
"I just can't."
"You just can't what?"

Even though I ask, I already know the  *feeling.

I saw him telling jokes and making people laugh
His kindness couldn't be captured by any photograph
His happiness was so big, anyone was able to see
No one knew how truly marvelous he was, except me

His stare provides such warmth, his eyes are filled with care
The best feauture on him is that smile he daily wears
And now instead of feeling my heart beating out of my chest
I feel warm all over; all my love in him I'd invest

I'm gonna miss you.
That's all I can really say.

I miss not caring about what the world thought of me
Never mattered who saw, I always did what made me happy
Now everyone judges who you are
But sometimes society pushes it too far

I miss being so joyful and full of cheer
I was happy, even if bedtime was near
Now everyone just knows how to stress and worry
There's no time for leisure 'cause we're all in such a hurry

Back then people used to play with dolls and such
Now people play with hearts and see sad faces too much

Oh, I miss being so carefree
Never mattered what the world thought of me
I was always so happy

But then you're thrown into this cruel place
Funny yet sad how you think this was something you'd never face
I remember how I used to say "I want to be older" all the time
And now that I grew up, I think, *Man, how wrong was I...

Before I'd give up everything for you
And I thought you felt the same too

Funny how a sentence, even a word, can change it all

Maybe I have realized too late  
But now I know that your pretty face
Was not worth the wait.

Oh, just look at me
So sad and fragile and weak
From not being able to have a chance with you
But now it's like I can see through...

All the beauty I thought you were supposed to be
Has turned into something too hideous for me to see
I can finally let go of this weight that's been hanging over me

Your eyes, your smile, everything about you,
my attention it seized

But somehow this love that was immense
Slowly got less and less intense

This love for you has now deceased
Finally from a beautiful curse I have been released.

I know I'm really late,
But I love you anyway.

All I want to do is push you away from me, very far

But instead I'm pulling you back, why do you make it so hard?

If you enjoy the sun, then go outside, have fun.

Just remember that each time you go outside, wear sunblock every time

Or else you'll get burned.

"You love me so much, huh?" He says jokingly.

You're not far off, I think.