I'm weak. He could drop me two inches and I'd shatter.
I am just a thing that doesn't matter.
I am not his love, I'm just a friend.
But still I know I'll love him 'til the end.
She is his future, his present, his past.
We're just a game. A game that won't last.
Of all that is perfect, he is the one.
Of all things that burn, my heart is the sun.

Make me into a rainbow
To lighten the day.
Make me into the showers
That bring tulips in May.
Make me into the sunlight that helps the world thrive
Make me into the medicine that helps one survive.
Make me into the spring or the summer or fall
Make me into a megaphone
*And listen to my call

I tell you this time and again
But you think you’re too cool to listen.
You think you have some sort of glow
Like people just love you, you glisten.
Do you want people to cry?
Or to feel the way that you do?
Bringing pain is never the answer
Whether or not you think that it’s true.
You walk the halls, with your swagger
Like you’re perfect in every way.
But I won’t give in to your horror
I won’t fall for it, not today.

I’m lost in your soul and lost in your eyes
Lost in the way you made me feel.
Lost in the love you’ve shown to me
The love that isn’t real.
Lost in the illusion, that you love me too
Lost in the way that I love you
Lost in the idea that our love could mean something
But I was blind to the fact that to you, I am nothing.

Roses are black,
Violets are black,
Because love is blind
And I want you back.

Roses are wilted and violets are too
Dying without the light of loving you

Still Roses are black
And lemons are sour
Thinking of you
Every minute, second, and hour

But new roses were planted and sprouting anew
With the newfound freedom
I don't rely on you.

Tell me the truth
Have I done wrong?
Or is it just me
Who’s been sprained?
Tell me the truth
Should I just let go
To get rid of all the pain?
But tell me the truth
Love me, Love me not?
Just tell me if you love me too
Don’t leave me here to rot.

Our fantasy worlds were endless
With creatures, and castles, and more
Kings and queens from other worlds
A Crazy-town galore.
Then with one stomp of your tiny foot
A million worlds disappeared
Even the planet where our hearts held hands
Is no longer here.

Going down a lonely road, nowhere else to go.
Stumbling down a broken trail,
going where only God would know
Making my way, hardly moving with each step,
words spoken quietly with each breath
made puddles while I silently wept
The grass that grew from my puddle of tears,
became the ground for all of my fears.
The trail I’ve been following all of these years
Without a trace, Its disappeared.

The last time I was in love, I wasn't.
But ****, did it feel like I was.
I felt butterflies in my stomach
Had my insides in a round of applause.
The last time I was in love, I wasn't.
But ****, did I feel a rush
But that wasn't love, it was whiplash
I was shattered and I was crushed.
The last time I was in love, I wasn't.
But **** did it feel like it.
But it wasn't love, for when you're in love
It shouldn't feel like ****.
The next time I'm in love, I will be.
I'll be on top of the universe.
'Cause next time I'm in love
She'll be my guardian angel, not Lucifer.

Take me back
Take me back
Bring him back to me
A smile that only ever came
In my infancy

Take me back
Take me back
When everything was fine
Take me back to see that smile
Take me back in time

1, 2,3
4 and 5
Come six he has passed
Take me back
Take me back
And make those moments last

Take me back
Take me back
Bring him back to me
Take me back to when we were
A perfect family

Donated to death
A cruel contest
The most primitive creatures
Can beat out the best
A tribute to this wretched game
It’s awful and unfair
The worst punishment you could ever ask for
set on fire just to make them stare
Betting on humans,
like horses of a race
Burns on your legs
and cuts on your face
Only one can win,
Only one can make it through
But only the winner survives
Who’s next? Could it be you?

I no longer know what I am composing,
It’s all just words to me,
maybe there is something more
through the eyes in which you see.
I’ve never seen that rainbow,
I’ve never seen the light.
All I’ve seen is darkness telling me goodnight.
looking through the window,
a wonderland galore,
loving all I have,
somehow wanting more.
all I want is to find a way to love myself for who I am,
not to care what they all say, just not to give a ****.
what you want to say or do will forever be your choice.
but for me, as long as I live, I will use my voice.

There was this world that I used to love,
A world of flying on the wings of a dove.
This world where we could play pretend
And laugh and sing with peers and friends.
There was this world I used to know,
Dragged my feet but it still wouldn't slow.

I knew this world would never last
What I didn't know, was that it'd go by so fast.
And now it's hard to get things done,
I used to care, it used to be fun.
I visit the memories every day,
But I'll never again feel the same way.

That world's gone and I have to adapt
And just move on from
*The life I used to have.

I used to think that I was a terrible student
I was terrible at learning
Then I grew to think I was good
I knew the answers for which I was yearning
I devolved, I suppose, and soon I was sure I was a failure once again
F's and C's and D minuses felt like my only friends
I tried to convince my stupid self that it didn't really matter
But I had to choose between learning and grade-earning and I guess I chose the latter.
It scared me to death what I had become a zombie fueled by grades
Focused more on that god ****** score than the progress that I made
I used to think I was good at learning but it was all pretend
I could play school but in the end A's and B's were not my friends.

Entirely clueless,
at a loss, drawn a blank.
And everything's wrong,
every move that I make.
Entirely absent
Incoherent in the mind,
Everything's confusing
And I'm always behind.
I'm sick of being the last
Behind all the rest,
*I'm sick of being alone

Of course you’d favor her,
her smile, her hair, her glance.
Of course you’d never see right past,
never give me a chance.
Of course you’d shy away,
anybody would.
Of course you’d see the ugly,
and never see the good.
Of course I’d be upset.
wallowing in tears.
Of course I’d miss your smile,
because you’re no longer here.
Of course I’d hide away,
anybody would.
But I still can’t find the ugly,
hiding behind the good.

Don’t be upset,
You have so much more
Than a boy who’ll break your heart,
Walk away, and slam the door
Don’t cry, peace will come soon
Just don’t let him get you
Don’t let him drag you into his doom
You’ve done nothing wrong
He is to blame
So don’t put yourself down
Don’t hide away in shame
You’re better than he is
We all know it’s true
Because he’s just a boy
There’s so much more to you

Early today I went on a walk
My brain started to babble and it started to talk
It said Cameron, I want to be heard
So I let it out, set it free
And I gave it my word
I said I'd speak my passion
And maybe you'll listen
Like any burning passion
It starts with ignition.

I though I could ignite a flame
I thought that perfection was my middle name
But perfection's not from heaven, it's from hell
And my middle name's not perfection
The middle name's Michelle

I thought I was an angel; I was wrong
Every **** thing I thought that I knew was gone
Everything I thought was from heaven above
But what did I ever know of love?
Maybe I'm an angel, just an angel who fell
But my middle name's not angel
My middle name's Michelle.

Now I feel nothing that I thought that I felt
And maybe perfection's not from heaven it's from hell
And maybe I'm an angel, just an angel who fell
But my middle name's not perfection
My middle name's Michelle.

Lake before my eyes
Prickly grass beneath my thighs
The soft sound of geese

Soon I'll go inside
Back to brick walls and cold tiles
But for now I'm free

Lake before my eyes
Green and brown grass and grey skies
Not clean, but still pure

Soon I'm returning
Back to lessons and learning
I'll take what I can

Always I will know
That I've still got miles to go
Before I can sleep

Tugging on a rope with no visible end,
Playing this stupid game like children, like friends.
You're pulling me into a puddle of mud,
Making me believe that this flower might bud.
The burns are incurable, the rash from the rope,
The burns on the hands that once held some hope.
But the hope has gone and I have gone numb,
Fell into your trap, I have been so dumb.
I want to escape, don't wanna play anymore
But still I hold on, in this love tug of war

My fingertips are empty, I think I’m fin’lly done,
The day that I’ve been dreading finally has come.
A blank mind that has been wiped, in one single nights rest.
My brain is like a little bird that had to leave the nest.
I guess it is a good thing, that all the past is gone
But why do I feel I need to continue, or just sing one final song.
Sadly, I’m not perfect, so what do you expect?
This is an honest feeling, that I just can’t neglect.

I’m holding on to sanity
My mind has slowly escaped,
Confused by what’s reality
and what is purely fake.
I’m trying to hold onto you,
Like hanging off a cliff.
I never thought I’d lose sanity
Or that it’d come to this.
I miss you like I miss my mind
It’s driving me insane
You taught me how to follow my heart
Instead of relying on my brain.
I feel like you’ve been gone all my life,
Like we’ve never sat face to face
I miss you like I miss my mind,
I miss your sweet embrace.

Do you recall pain?
Remember the restless nights?
Now they are your fault

The tables have turned
Time is on the other side
Of this agist world

Now you are the problem
You invoke the sleeplessness
I hope you're happy

We are not

If this could be fiction I’d rewrite the end
Erase the part when you said I’m just a friend
I’d underline the place where you gave me your heart
and backspace the line when you tore it apart
I’d embellish the story to make it seem true
If this could be fiction, I’d still be with you

It's not innocent, it's not right.
It's the reason I haven't slept a wink at night.
we’re not perfect, we know we were wrong.
and it would be foolish to carry along.
lying to the world, lying to ourselves.
trying to hide it and going through hell.
The good times faded, but the pain still lingers,
With the sweet memory of our interlocking fingers.

I don’t need someone to talk to
I really need a hug
I need someone to rid of
This stupid love bug
Crawling up my legs
And starting up my back
This bug is getting ready
Ready to attack
Bug spray will not affect it
It’ll only make it worse
I’ll falling for him, off a cliff
I’m stuck under his curse
The bug is growing stronger
Tearing me apart
Crawl over my shoulder
And crawls into my heart.

You're the exception to a rule that was written in stone
Forged in blood and skin and bone
A rule in unacknowledged and unspoken
A rule that wasn't meant to be broken

You broke my rule into pieces and parts
Into broken promises and hearts
A rule that was supposed to last
Fell apart so ******* fast

And now I'm prostrate on the floor
For I can't function anymore
I broke my rule, you foiled my plan
Never to fall for another man.

Now that rule's been blown to hell
And I'm a shadow of my former self
You're the exception to the rule that was written in stone
And now I'm left confused and alone

Oh, the things I didn't see
Blinded by the mystery
Searching for your hidden past
That you keep behind that stupid mask
Do you have a problem with trust?
Did you say love when you meant lust?
What have you got to hide?
Behind your icy eyes.

It's tomorrow already?
Well I s'pose it's today
I haven't seen tomorrow
In all of my days
But still I watch the clock
As eleven becomes twelve
As night becomes day
As heaven becomes hell
It's another today
And it's already tomorrow
And another long day
That is characterized by sorrow
Eleven becomes twelve
And twelve becomes one
It's already tomorrow
And today has begun

"Every child is an artist"
And an artist I'll be
Happiness and freedom
That's music to me.

The echo of the hall
ting, ting, ting on white keys
Like an escape from reality
That's music to me.

Curtains and costumes
Dancing, moving free
Waves of the ocean
That's music to me.

We make a lot of wishes
On candles and shooting stars
Maybe we're superstitious
Or maybe our lives are just hard

We make a lot of wishes
For we don't like ourselves
We wish to be anyone, anywhere,
anyway, or anything else.

We make a lot of wishes
For we want things to change
Wishing for a difference
But everything stays the same

Distracted by you
Can't think of anything else
Hurting other people
Hurting myself
Ignoring the facts
And the real honest truth
Hurting everyone
Because I'm distracted by you

Hold me like a father holds his daughter
Make me feel welcome and secure
But kiss me like the sand kisses the water
As the waves gently wash onto the shore
Whisper like the wind beneath my wings
Whisper in my ear I won't be harmed
Hold me with your heart, your soul, your feelings.
Hold me, keep me safe inside your arms.

I think of you so often
But I could never tell
Because I know of course you don’t
Think of me as well.
I think of you so fondly
Such a perfect memory
I think of you just wishing
That you would think of me.
But I know it’s useless
I’ve never crossed your mind
Because while I’m thinking about you
You’re just leaving me behind.

Nobody listens
To what I have to say
Nobody cares
What I think anyway
I spill out my heart
But they don't no this
Even if I scream
No one will notice
The number of people
Who care about me
Shrinks everyday
As far as I can see
You took it from a handful
To two, as it seems
It's like I'm speaking yiddish
You don't know what it means
All that I ask
Is that you'll notice me
I'm withering to nothing
But you just can't see

I can't even sleep
Breathing is hard
I can't cry anymore
I've been mentally scarred
Sworn into secrets
I can't tell a soul
But my heart is in half
*Unholy and un-whole.

Completely incomplete
No longer whole
Just trying to get back
The heart that you stole
Entirely broken
And failing to survive
A terrible feeling
That I may not come out alive

I believed seasons changed behind my back,
But still I walked.
My feet dragged against the cement burning the soles of my shoes,
But still I walked.
I didn’t know my way,
But still I walked.
I had reached my destination,
But still I walked.
“It’s not the destination, It’s the journey.”
And so I walk.
They said the world would change,
and so I waited.
They told me peace would come,
and so I waited.
They said the war would end,
and so I waited.
They told me it would get better,
and so I waited.
“Seize the Day”
and so I walk

Ha.
The sound of broken laughter
Of broken little hearts
The sound of sadly ever after
When worlds fall apart
Ha.
The sound of cynical souls
That only want an out
The sound of laughing trolls
An deflated spirits of doubt
Ha.
The sound of cold sarcasm
That hurts but makes you laugh
The echoes of the chasm
Into which you fall and crack
Ha.
They weren't really laughing
The happiness was fake
The hammers, violently smashing.
Hurt. Afraid. They Ache.
It wasn't funny

Let me sow words into a field
Water them and watch them grow
Let me sew my words onto my sleeve
Hang my shirt as a flag, watch it blow.

Let me bury my thoughts
Into pages of text
Let history recall me
At my worst and at my best

Let me be remembered
As I go down in history
Let my deeds become famous
As my sins live in infamy

Let me teach the world
What I had to show
Let me sow words into a field
Water them, and watch them grow

You know my name but not my spiel
You know how I act but not how I feel
You've seen my mask but not my expression
You haven't seen progress, but you see my digression
You see my smile but not my frown
You haven't seen my world upside down

If you were willing, I'd tell you my spiel..
I'm falling apart.
There. That's how I feel.

Hands tapping on the table
Twiddling your thumbs
Thinking, watching, waiting
For what is yet to come.

Fingers interlocking
Smiles so wide and grand
Happiness envelopes me
When I hold your hand

Hands speaking their own language
With gestures, touches, and signs
But hands mean the most to me
When you're holding mine

I doodle our love
and hang it to cherish
Then I rip it down the middle
and leave it to perish
I hold on to the pieces
crumpled up in my palm
I don’t want to let go
Don’t want our love to be gone
But you’ve made it clear
There is nothing more
So your heart is free
And my heart is sore.
*But I still won’t throw it away

Time passes, ever slowly
You hear the clock is ticking
By yourself in the woods, afraid and lonely
You thank the stars that you’re still kicking

You see before you two diverging roads
Made slippery with Frost
You think you know the way to go
But realize you’re lost.

Time goes by so ******* slow
But faster than you’ll ever know
Faster than you could ever go
Faster than you’ll ever know

Time speeds up, your heart rate too
‘Cause time cannot keep up with you
Time will not creep up on you
‘Cause time cannot keep up with you

Do you ever stop to realize
That maybe you're not who you thought?
You thought you were smart; you thought you were strong
But then you see that you are not.

Do you ever stop to analyze
Everything you've ever said
The things you do, the mistakes you make
And feel you've been misled?

Do you ever stop to look in the mirror
To realize you've made mistakes
Do you ever stop to retrace your steps
And find a new path to take?

Sometimes I stop to realize
That I'm not what I thought
I thought I was smart; I thought I was strong
But trust me, I am not.

It tastes like a disaster
And it smells like a ***** lie
I can feel it in my body
And I can see it in your eye.

Every time I touch you
Or sense your presence near
You tell me that you're sorry
But an excuse is all I hear

*but it all makes sense to me now

I spend all my time with my head in a textbook
My pencil on paper
My mind in the sky
I spend all my time
Countless hours of the night
Using pages of questions
To wipe the tears that I cry

Those tears turn to blood
As the paper cuts sting
As the tongues of the books laugh and jeer
I spend all my time
Cleaning up the mess
That my brain left when it disappeared

I'm alone in this room
I'm alone in this world
Just a girl and her mind
Just a mind and a girl
There's so many people
But still I'm alone
But for the next four years
This place is my home

Some angels fly
And some angels fall
Plunging to earth
Feathered wings and all

Some angels, they guard you
Watch over your rest
Some angels abandon you
To wish for the best

You're one of those angels
An angel who fell
What happened to heaven?
You're giving me hell.

I pray for lightening
I wait for the rain
I watch for the water
The water of pain
With pain comes serenity
Happy with sad
I pray for the lightening
To burn all things bad