Too many thoughts are flowing

Too many words are growing

So before they spill out in the wrong way

And leave a bad taste in our mouth

We have decided to take a short break

Honey, I'm home

Just kidding

Well not really

Gotta say I'm glad

To be back

I'm exhausted

But way too tired

Ta hit the sack

And all these people

In my head

Seem ta view me

As a friend

Well that's a first

Anyway this's never

Been my specialty

I prefer free verse

   - Anthony

I long for dead dreams

Yearn for lost memories

I wish I could turn back time

To when you stood by me

             - Jinx

Guys it happened AGAIN

The message is SPAM

It will only keep sending and saying the exact same thing

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Been a while

They ask how I've been doing

Oh I'm fine

Been about two days since I cried

People say my face looks like a dog just died

Oh it's ok

It's alright I'm fine

Smiling all the time

Real or fake?

Who cares?

Made a mistake

Bumped my head

Don't fret; I'm not dead

Oh I'm fine

I'll say it all the time

I'm alright

Even if I'm not

Sleep is way too hard

Maybe I should just start

Intrusive thoughts say to give up

Maybe I should start

I found my letter to my future self
Written out in middle school

Back to the days I was very young
When I was still lesbian

I wanted three kids two boys and a girl
One year apart

Thinking back I cant help but wonder
Did I know I wasn't a girl?

Who knows? Who cares?
I am who I am

Since that is the case though
I will continue on from there

Wish me luck

Why can't anyone look at me the way I want to be seen?
Why doesn't anyone use the right name?
Why do I need to sit and deal with these pronouns that simply don't fit me?
Why am I told it's just a phase when I know it's not?
Why do people never look me straight in the eye?
Why do I eat alone, sit alone, cry alone?
Why can't I ever sleep at night?
Why do I see shadows in the night?
Why when people speak of me is "autism" the only word they know?
Why is it that no one wants to know me if not for pity?
Why do people hold out their hands simply to ****** them back?
Why is friendship so fleeting that it never seems to last?
Why does love always hurt and end in nothing but loneliness?
Why do I change for others who never even stay?
Why do I not even know who I am anymore?
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

Don't ask too many questions
I don't know myself
If you get sick don't blame me
I don't affect your health
I see accusations in your eyes
Blaming me every time someone cries
My mental state is crumbling
Leaving just enough to surmise
If it makes you feel better
Make me your witch....
Burn me to ashes in the forest
Wish I didn't start ****
Sorry you were part of it
Just make me your witch

Sometimes I wonder what might happen if I accept what I should be

If I identified with the same gender as my pathetic little body

I wonder if I would be happier and maybe a bit less confused

If perhaps I'd never heard the terrible slurs others had used

I wonder if I could make myself like wearing skirts and dresses

If perhaps I could accept the name I had been given at birth

I wonder if perhaps If I were normal others might see my worth

Or perhaps that is simply the main issue behind it all

Maybe I really am worthless after all