Were told to give respect but how can we
Teachers don't respect us so how can we respect them

Respect is a 2 way street

Even if we give them respect we don't get it back

I don't want to change

I like where I am and don't want to move
I may not like here but I don't want to move

You tell me I have to change school because theres to many kids
But there has always been to many kids

I like it here with my friends
I've know this my hole life

I dont want to go there
They will beat me and can't do a thing about it

I'm weak and fralie and you want to send me to a school where you have to tuff and strong

There just going to eat me alive

Please don't make me go

i'm a gamer
i live in the same world as you

play almost everyday
it's my get away

i met new friends everyday
i help you
you help me

just because i'm a gamer
doesnt mean i dont life like you

the outcast group is the one no one wants to be in

but to be honest its the funnest group there is

you have people of all different personalities
so many people with many different lives
so many people with stories to be told

the outcast group

were the weirdest
were loud
were crazy

but were the one group that's not scared to be us

we are the outcast group

Time to say goodnight

I know I'll see you in them morning but I don't want you to go

I feel safe loved and wanted
I Don't want that to go

I'll miss you and dream of you but I still don't want you to go

I know it time to say goodnight

you pull me in to your lap and kiss me
latter that day you ask me out

i wait and think but never answer

time goes on and you give me a computer
but we went down stairs you set the computer down
you pulled me close and kissed me
and it changed my world

weeks went by

one day after school we hang out
i sat in your lap as you play minecraft
and in between games we kissed many of times

the next morning i asked you out
but you needed time

a week later

at are choirs concert you gave me your phone and told me to read

what i saw killed me
you asked out my best friend/sister

i cried and cried even cried myself to sleep

it blow over but i never really did heal

you told me that those kisses meant nothing and it crushed me

you then asked out another girl

and it hurt me once more

i grow feeling for someone who hurts me over and over again

but how?

To start if off right we picked it together

A movie we want to see

Action for him so when i get scared he can protect me

A time where I can give him the first kiss he's always dreamed

And a girl for him who he like for 2 years can finally be his

They think just cause they play sports there the best of the best

But truth be told there just ideots
They make fun of people and get away
They only play so the girls will be all over them
And to they can sleep with them all

But truth be told I would go near them cause there just bad new

And I know not all them are like this

I'm a monster when I wake up

My hairs messy
I could care let about what happening around me
Don't want to get up or out of bed
I'm half wake
And hard to get up

Cause if you mess with me when I'm asleep I'm like a monster cause you disturbed my peace

im sick i dont fell good
i can barley talk

my wisdom teeth are coming in
have to get 2 teeth removed
might have to get a root canal
surgery is coming soon

but i put it off for 2 reason
the fact i was sick and
my choirs concert is soon

i sit through pain to help my class
put the biggest smile i can on my face
risk the chance of destroying my voice for them

so when i cry from the pain im dealing with
just realize im doing this for you

Your my best friend  

Not matter how annoying I am
How many time you've told me so
Sat there as I cryed
Or was there when I need you most

You were always there

When I get by a stupid football player you sat there wanting to tare him limp from limp for what he did but yet you stayed with me

You and the best friend I could ever ask for oh wait I could ask for it cause your one of a kind

You are my best friend

You a tuff strong beautiful smart young girl

When your give challenge you get through it

No matter what life thoughts at you
You get through it

You are my best friend
You are my sister

And I'm proud to say it

I love you

By the way there's a attack on titan movie coming out and your going to see it with me this summer

Greed will end us all

All people see is money
They never lower there prices
Don't want to pay for stuff they don't have to
Save on everything

So now people can barely get by

People never help others in need
They don't stop to help
Keep to them selfs never donate
Keep everything for them self

So now other people stop helpping for they never got there help in need

Greed will end us all

season 2 comes out in 2016

i cant stand it
you don't fallow the book on the ending
yet you make me 2 years to see season 2

i know they don't fallow the book
but yet its so good

there trying to **** be to me by making we wait so long for attack on titan

Is it OK to have a girl moment

Like when something big happens with your best friend even though you both are a tomboy

Is it OK to have a girl moment

You see a homeless person and you think trash
I see a homeless person and think I feel bad for them life has been to hard for them

You see a little kid and think annoying
I see a little kid and think he only wants someone to play with

You see me and think what a loser
I see you and think how cruel

What you think and I think are way different

We all say you need friends to live but do you really once your out of school your friends will leave you to live there lives

Yes having friend is amazing but would you rather have lots of friend and them not care

Or would you rather have few friends and know you always stay friends after school

Its when you hold it in so long that your finally glad to let out that it feels so good

Like when you have to *** bad and you have to hold it

the world is mine to see it as i please

for i was not born just for my parents to have a child

but i was born to tell my story

when i was little i would look at this world and think
its so pure

this world spins completely around in 24 hours

this world spins completely around the sun in 365 days

and yet 9 years later it only felt like 1

i learnd that this world is far from being pure

it juges you
watches your every move

its a cruel, heartless and greedy place

were told be yourself
be different

but most importly were told dont change for anyone

my did i learn that's all a lie

you act like yourself and you get chewed up and are spit out

the smallest things are life changing

that little girl with golden hair
her front teeth missing cause the tooth fairy came the night before

she looks up to me with her blues eyes sparkling
and a smile on her face and tells me

don't look down
look up

don't be sad be glad

be the princess in your kingdom

never lose hope

never forget who your suppose to be

as i think to myself i say

this little girl knows more kindness
then most people know in one finger

but i was stopped in my thoughts

for this little girl pulled a simple little purple crown

i know its not much but i made it for you

i have to go but remember stay yourself

from that moment on i know not only know that this world is a cruel place

but this world has people that are kind and caring

and keep this world pure in there own eyes

they had a story to be told

at that moment i know at that
i was going to change lives

simply giving a gift
or tell someone i appreciate you
can make a difference in this world

i want to get away

i know i don't belong
so why should i stay

11 years in the dreadful place is long enough

over years i had gotten friends
some left, some moved, some just didn't care  

my wish is to get way form this dreadful
where i know i don't belong

The day I turn 18
Is the day you will be free

The plan I have made is to work and save money
Have a house where you can stay

You will finally be free of your chains

You'll finally have a place to go
A place you can call home
One you don't have to fake or be afraid

A place of peace with me

Sister/best friends forever

Everyone's there own geek

There's your reading, science,history, math,gamer

There's so many

Yet we look at them like there different or that there a monster but why

There being them self's

Why are we making fun of them
When we should be like them

Being are self's

Everyone is not perfect

But perfection comes in every way

You may not like who you are on the outside
And you change your self
To make you think you are perfect

But really yor already perfect
You perfect to person who loves you

Crazy
Annoying
Ideot
Talkative
Lazy
Young
Naughty

I'm me and its never going to change

true friends have your back
and will help you without being asked

will pick you up when your down
there a person you can talk to
you can be your self and not worry
someone who you can cry in front off

most people think all there friends
are best friends

but when push come to shove
only a few will be true best friends

i was worried and scared
so i left

but no matter how many steps i take forward
i'm always looking back

are love wasn't fake
it was as pure

maybe that's why i can't find it again

i miss you, i curl up in your clothes, i pretend your here
i still love you
i want you back, but will you take me back?

I get some kids need to get pushed to get good grades
or do to better in life

but they pushing us in the 6th grade for collage
a freshman in high school is made to choice a career

a senior in high school has to do a project on there career
and if they don't do it
they cant graduate

some kids are different then others
and its not normal to do this to kids

sometimes we get pushed to hard

i'm weird
i'm hyper
i'm crazy

yet you all love me

your my best friends
your my wife's
your my sisters and brothers

you never treated me different
you took me in when i was new and showed me the ropes
after i learn i showed the other new people the ropes

i love you all for you are my good friends

in high school
i would have never guessed i would have 2 best friends

you could have told me
but i would would have looked at you and said
you must be crazy and lieing

im glad i was never told because it came so much sweeter the way it did

I watch you everyday

From random videos to watching YouTube's

You give people hobbies and jobs

You give the a chance to creative and show the world who they are

Sometimes to question runs though my mind
Do I have what it takes to be a youtuber to

I just push it aside and continue watching

we as a commity need to stand up for what right

no one want to hear what we say about moving to a new school
they went in there with no open minds

http://www.jdnews.com/news/local/opposition-flares-at-school-district-hearing-1.423958#fb-root

th­at is me up there if i can do it you can to

You tell me you love me
I tell you I'm in love with you

For month I said this
One day you said you might be inlove with me

You ask me to go to your house to hang out
You hold me, cuddle with me, kissed me, made out with me, told me you missed me

It felt like old times
your family was happy to see me everyone missed me

Then two weeks later when I tell you that your the one for me that your the one I hold dear

You tell me sometimes feeling change
And walked away

I cryed and your friend came and hugged me 3 times

You left me crying feeling like I'm dead inside

What's so great about being popular

Being popular means you have to be mean
Make fun of other people
Have the right clothing

I don't know about you but being popular is lame and hard

i hear a sound
i pull my blank over my head
i think to myself the monsters will get me

then mother walks in with a light
she shows me there's nothing there

its all in my head

7 years later

i sit in the back of the classroom
i pull my hoodie over my head
i sit in silents

kids through things at me
calls me names
push me around

and i think to myself
were's mother when i need her to scare away the monsters

you can be some random person
and say something to make me feel bad

it wont matter to me

you can be my best friend
and say something to make me feel bad

and it would hurt me to the point i cry and give up

because you are someone i look up to
a person i care about
when your world means everything

i sit there and cry for many of reasons
but you may not even know one

i have trouble in my life
with friends and family

i get sick like every one else
and i dont feel well

my teeth are hurting
and i have to get sugary

i push myself to the point im crying in pain
take the chance off hurting my self to help others

but yet i get told not again
that im worthless
i hold everyone back
the list goes on

i cry for many of reason
so dont judge when you dont know the reason

Baby boo
Why do you have to go

You are a sweat cat
I dont want you to go
You are so young

But you dont even know
What's going on

You are a very special cat
And I'm glad I gave you home

If I could I would take the cancer

But when you do go please
Tell you brother pumpkin
I said hi and that I love him
At least you'll be together again

You may say you are worth crying over
But truth be told you are worth it

You are someone I hold close to my heart
You are my best friend really I'm sister

If anything were to happen to you it would **** me for you mean so much to me

I would do anything make sure your safe and where no one can hurt you

Let you be able to be happy
Not just put on a fake smile but I real one

To me I could care less if I'm popular or not
But to more high school kids it means the the world

To me I could care less about what's the newest trend for clothes
But to high school kids it means life

To me being popular is nothing because I would rather know I fit in a group who excepts for me

To me the newest trend is nothing because I'm thank full for what I have

To me being myself  is the most important not something I'm not

From the moment we met I know there was something about you that drawed me to you

You asked me out everyday and yet I stayed with a guy who I could not see it for only a few days of the year  

But after 3 months I finally gave you my number left him for you

We have had are ups and down and right now we a getting out of a down

We would hang out ever Sunday a day just for me it made me smile made me happy and soon summer came and we would spend Sundays and wensday together

And at the end of that summer I know what I saw and it was a diamond in the ruff

I fell in love with you and I still am you are my world

we blame others for what we do but why

we have a choice to do what we want
for we are not forced to do anything we do not want to do

so why blame others for what we do when we are the ones to blame

you think it easy being me

im sweat and kinda
sometimes im happy and i show it
helping others when their in need
always trying to do the right thing
give people complements to brighten there day

but then you come around and destroy who i am
you make me doubt
you make me feel so small

and then i cant be who i want to be

why do you do think its so easy being me

356 day a year
We look forward to the summer because there is no school we get to have fun and lay in the sun oh who I kinding my pale self is sitting around video gaming

Summer is when we get a break from all the hard work and get to be lazy sleep in and stay up all night why cant summer come more often

we call and you never pick up

you know im 17 year old
and yet you act like im 5

you make it seem like your the victim
but i see what you do, im not stupid

you tell me you'll never been sent a picture of me
but i know mom sends one every year

you tell me your using new paper as ****** paper
yet you drink and smoke

nana when will you learn that its not all about you
haven't you done enough

My heart is not a toy

It got played way to much
They wound it up again and again till it broke
And just left acted like it was nothing

You left it broke
Didn't care if someone would fix it

Because for all you did was wait till It was happy and fix to play it again and again till it broke

Is it that hard to stop and ask are you OK to some one having a bad day

Smile to someone to cheer up there day

To help them when it gets ruff

If we want to make a change then you have to start with yourself

I miss you so much
and what to talk with you

I want to hang out
want to be able to hug you

we have are ups and down
but we still remain close

can I see you again
I miss you to much

today came way to soon

and i wish i had time

we put you out of your pain
but now we are in pain

you will be missed boo
and i promise to see you every day
you will be in the back yard

sometimes i scare myself

i talk to myself when im alone
i spend my time video gaming with other people cause they dont know me
i pretend to have to people i hold most next to me when i sleep
i find myself aruging with myself
i get mad over nothing

sometimes i scare myself

its been a long time since i saw you
its been a longer time since we dated

i still look at you with all the love i still have for you
but know it can not be

i look away with sarrow in my eyes

but as turn away

i hear your voice cut through the silents and say
remember are plan

i turn around with shock and disbelief in my eyes
just to see you smiling

later that day you come to have lunch with me

and just before you walk out that door
you give me a kiss
and smile