when I first saw u,
U were all happy and fun,
And I wanted to be friends with you,
But over the years my heart began to run,
To beat fast when I'm close to you,
Shiver when I look at you,
Warmth,
When I look at you,
I talked with you,
Day and night,
Jokes and fights,
I got closer to you,
As close as I might,
Got to know you,
Know your mind,
Know your heart,
Then I became blind,
I fell in love with you,
Happiness I always tried to find,
Was found talking to you,
Darkness in my mind,
Was vanquished talking to you,
Love in my heart,
Was growing for you,
Each day to talk to you,
Was what I look forward to,
Each day to tell you,
I love you

Turn a day downtown into a road trip to another country.
Listen to the music too loud.
Have a drink. Have another drink.
Let loose.
Forget about your problems holding you down.
Remember things are never as bad as they seem.
Lay down under the stars.
Listen to the water splash against the shore.
Feel the cool summer night in your bones.
Touch the smooth rocks beneath you.
Catch a glimpse of love in another’s eyes.
Drink in the moment.
Realize how small you are in the universe.
Remember things are never as bad as they seem.

Our story is coming to an end.
And I think this time I won't try to save it.
I didn't want to put our book down or finish the last page, but now all I see is "The End."
I won't fight for someone who gave up on me.
No.
This time I will let you fade away,
So the memory of you will not be tainted.
You will always be in the back of my mind.
The perfect blue eyed boy that for a moment in time,
Made me feel happy again.
The traces of your touch, forever left on my skin.
The way you gazed at me, I felt as though you saw right through my faults.
I couldn't help but fill my cheeks with a rosey blush and shy away when our eyes met.
How safe I felt in your presence.
The bruises you left, from kisses and falling back on your word.
It will all fade, but I won't forget a single page.

I feel my heart aching in my chest
as I sit by my phone
hoping to see your name light up my screen.
It was easier with him; I didn't have to worry if he'd text me back because I didn't care if he did.
I knew he wasn't worth it.
But it's hard with you.
It's hard because I feel myself falling and I know I don't have a parachute.
I will hit the ground and break into a million little pieces, just like always.
But the thing is, I did this to myself.
I jumped.
But you,
You stayed on board.

The only way to survive is to see the good in the bad,
the beauty in the pain,
and the sun through the rain.

My family and I went out to dinner that chilly evening.

As we drove home I cried over you silently in the backseat, hidden by the darkness of the night.

No matter how delicious that dinner was, the bitter taste of you still lingers in my mouth.

Why does my heart feel so heavy when it should be taking flight?

How do I fix what's broken if I don't know the wrongs from the rights?

It's funny how I thought you were my protector, when in fact, you were the one I needed protection from.