my face is too hot
my hands are too cold
a manifestation of the confusion
taking place inside of my head
i deserve better
i spend all of my time
trying to please them
what do i get in return?
distrust and disarray
what would i give up
to make this go away? i'd give
the heat and the cold
take both, it doesn't matter
not to me, not to them
i'm on guard all the time
if i let my smile slip
they think i'm depressed
if i smile too much
they think i'm hiding something
what would i give
for a plastic smile?
i'd give up my emotions
what would i give up
to make this go away? i'd give
the heat and the cold
take both, it doesn't matter
not to me,
certainly
not to them
written in about five minutes when i was really angry. maybe not my best work, but it made me feel better.