Did you ever love me?
Did you ever, in all those times and years, truly care?
I don't even know...
And that's the hardest thing to swallow.
Years have passed,
But time is not healing.
Confusion is king.
My brain is firing in all directions
My blood is on fire
My heart is dead
I loved you so much I killed what was left of me
The little that was left
What is the way out?
A new life?
I am so tired
So so so so so so weary
I just want to lay down and die
I want to die
Disclaimer: Not actually looking to self-harm, but this is how it feels