I cannot get you out of my memories
The way your beautiful hands would hold my face
as you kissed me slow and passionately
How you would taste of lust and toothpaste.
My mind wanders to the first time you told me you love me
I blacked out from shock.
How could the most perfect person love me?
I'm just a plain average girl.
Your scent lingers on my clothes as you hug me goodbye
My heart is full of happiness
A feeling of need that has been met
I love you
And I know you love me too

To finally let go of the idea
I cannot control everything
That is out of my hands
Is the most powerful healing process
I have decided to persue
I have stopped stressing myself out
Over the fact that I cannot help everyone
My mind is at peace
And I've been happier
My relationship is improving
My mental health is better
I'm no longer physically tired
And I just enjoy being alive.
My journey has definitely not been an easy one
But I have learned a lot about myself.
I believe everyone is not beneficial to me
Most will not have the best intentions for me at heart
And not everyone has good within them
No more excuses for people who don't deserve them
But more importantly;
No more chances to people who aren't willing to change
And accepting apologizes from people who aren't sorry.
I make myself a priority
Because I am the only one who has me at the end of the day
I love myself
And no one can ever take that away.