Brieona Newman

Brieona Newman Feb 2018

To love you is like waking up on Christmas morning and getting everything you ask for.

To love you is better than winning the lottery.

To love you is like making a cake and eating it too.

To love you is the best feeling in the world.

And because of you, I learn I can love myself too.

Brieona Newman Feb 2018

Late Night Thoughts

when you look at me
i see my whole future
so what do you see
when i look at you?

Brieona Newman Jan 2018

Sad

And I knew you didn’t care when I was flooding in tears broken
that you did not love me as much as I thought you did
this is when I realized how alone I am in this big world
gasping for air, begging you to help me
you just left without feeling bad.
you’ve been gone without me knowing
i know now what i mean to you;
a whole bunch of nothing

Brieona Newman Jan 2018

Snake in the Thief

When I woke up and looked over at you
on that cold September day
I realized I had everything I ever wanted too
I contemplated on what to say
as you glanced at me cold
I wanted to turn and hide my face
the words you spoke to me were so bold
my heart began to race
and in an instant it dropped
tears started to stream
you started to speak but stopped
the smile pierced on your face beamed
you left me like I was worthless
as if I was a bother in your time
you said it was too much stress
to deal with all of my victim less crimes
I sit here unable to speak
my mind wonders with unspoken thoughts
my eyes continue to leak
my heart rots
it's been months now
and I've finally got over the past
I taught myself to not cry somehow
and I know I'm going to heal at last

Brieona Newman Jan 2018

I Will Not Beg

I am enough
but I will not beg you to see it
I love you
but I will not beg you to love me
I am tired
and I know you are too

Brieona Newman Jan 2018

Excuses

I sit here and try to understand why I allow myself to feel like this
making excuses for you
this isn't love, but I beg for it to be.
How is it that you can look me straight in the eyes
and tell me you love me
knowing **** well you don't.
You lie, and I accept the apology you didn't give.
I love you, but why don't you love me?
Why do I have to keep asking this
why can't I just leave.
I think I stay because being unloved by you
is better than not having you at all.
But this isn't healthy
and I deserve better.
When will I find the courage to leave you?

Brieona Newman Jan 2018

Those Days

There are days i cannot get out of bed
where i cannot pick myself up to take care of myself
where i cannot talk to anyone for days.
And then there are days where i feel like i couldn’t be happier
where i go to bed and i cannot fall asleep because my cheeks burn from smiling.
But today, as i try to get up, i cannot
and it’s okay
because i know i will be okay.