Why do I die so much?
Its distorted constellations
Dissonant sounds
The joke was always funny
But I forgot to laugh
I never had to learn how to die
I just did everything for you

My favorite song is a sad one

Why do I die so much?
Its my joy diluted
My eyes dialated
I watch poison course my veins
But I couldn't feel high
I want to live forever
But I keep giving my life for you

My favorite song is a sad one

Its my strength
In weakness
Its my hope
My blind faith
When I couldn't find god
But I still had demons
Who chase me
From building to building
They ride with me in cars
And block my view of the stars
If and when I chance to look for stars
Its my soul
Obdurate
When my body is weak
But too hard
To let the hands that hold me
Leave marks
I was always meant to be alone
I wasn't made to love
And every time I cry for help
No one hears me

I wrote a beautiful song
And sent it your direction
Because I want my art to be lost
In the abyss

You say your always there
But you were never here
You say you're listening
I know that no one hears me

It looked like heaven
was just beyond the clouds—
lucid voices from afar
spoke words of tarnished beauty.
Bearing an aura,
drawing me close,
offering comfort and solace
as a keepsake of the imminent.
Where my faith lies
I am unsure—
and here I stand
searching for meaning
unsure of the cause.

I think of you always. I think of you and that is one of the few times I smile. Just to know that someone as amazing as you are exist, that I could be a part of your life. No matter the pains and sorrows I suffer, I find joy in that simple truth
I know you are in pain. I worry for you. I know this world has it's ways of being all too much at times, it can be for me too. I know, and you know I know.  And that is enough to help me be strong  even under the weight of this world I have to carry.
I just want to say, or I must say, because it was never a choice I made, it was the will of the fates. I love you more than I knew I could love anything. I love that it is your thoughts in my head, your words that I speak, your name on my lips. For you I find strength to do anything. And I will do anything just to show you how much you are loved. You are my dragonfly, the rising sun after a cold night. I'll be the biggest fool in the world, and be happy, because I am your fool. I hope these words reach you and give you peace. You should know how much you are loved.
Until I am holding you in my arms, I hold you in my dreams

Yours eternally
- Torin

Today is the day
I stop worrying.
Today is the day
I win.
Today is the day
I love myself.
Today is the day
I...
*Keep telling myself lies.

In dreams we dance,
under a sweet pastel sky,
where the sun sets the mountains ablaze.
And the birds long to nest,
but are loathe to leave,
and the broken buds
and the beautiful souls
are carried on an eternal wind.
And the feathers that fall
are white.